Nodding my head I just look into her eyes, "I'm sorry..." I murmur, not looking into my mother's eyes anymore. Disappointment was all that was shown in them.

"Mom I was being stupid okay? I wasn't thinking, you've told me millions of times but I just-... she didn't seem right for me-" I freeze, just staring at my mother who was filled with rage.

She just slapped me across the face. Never before have I gotten a beating of any kind, not even for taking an extra cookie when I was little. She might as well have ran me over with a car because already I knew I'd messed up and couldn't fix what I just did.

Now it all came crashing to me, I couldn't get my mate back, how perfect she was for me, but maybe I still have a chance, my mothers yelling brought me from my thoughts.

"Why the hell would you do the one thing I didn't want you to!? Rejecting your mate is the one thing I drilled in your head for you not to do! What the hell is wrong with you boy? I swear you're like my damn ex mates like what the fu-" Dad.

His arms wrap around my mother; face in her neck to slowly kiss up her neck to the back of her jaw, then back down until he got to her shoulder. She physically relaxed, leaning back into him her hands went back and into his hair, purring to him.

"Hello my Jack." She murmured, more like purred, "You interrupted me you know." She said and he just nodded.

"Don't kill our son okay? He has one mate left, even so he can make it up with his ex-mate." He said and Mom just nodded, grabbing my ear she stared into my eyes and glared.

"Make this right." She snarled before walking away with dad following right after.

I run my fingers threw my hair and just softly sigh. My wolf, of course, was pissed at me as well. I play with my fingers, cracking my knuckles here and there then I walk outside and head down the hall.

I take my shoes off and walk down the hall, I can feel the smoothness of the wooden floors against my feet and I start to fake ice skate very little. Left and right, left and right, and- "Oof-"

My arms are quick to reach out and grab ahold of the female in front of me, Gwen, and she just sweetly smiles to me, blushing slightly, "Thank you." She purrs and I just nod and help her stand up right then go on my way again.

I sense that she hasn't left from that spot, her eyes, I feel like they're glued to my back as I'm walking to go to my ex-mate. Once out of Gwen's sights I relax a bit, but I'm still stiff, going to her room. Knocking softly but the door just slowly creeks open, I fall to my knees as I see her there. Hung up on the wall like Christmas lights.

She hung herself. Is the only thought in my head as I walk to her limp body. Tears welling in my eyes I put two fingers to her neck, scared of the truth.

She's dead.

I let out a whimper, more come as my wolf takes over and I shift. We howl, loud and sorrow full.

Depressed our mates gone for good and we ruined our chances with her, and now she ruined her chances with anyone better than me.

I don't want to feel this again, I can't, my hearts breaking in my body. I shift back and take her down, holding her close, softly crying into her neck as I take in her fading scent.

I pull back and she's taken away from me, her body is that is, I can feel her soul tearing from mine like a painful piece of duck tape stuck to your skin. Slowly peeling just to add to the pain of having to rip it off.

I watch as her parents hold her, cry to her dead body as if she could hear them, then their eyes turn to me, cold and tear filled they make me leave.

Her father throws me out and I look at her body as he door slams shut. I just whimper and stay where I am. My legs don't work right now, I can tell because I try to stand and I'm stumbling over myself.

Gwen comes to me, lots of people heard my howl but they blame me, she doesn't. She came to me, helped me up, and takes me to my room. I want to get rid of this feeling, replace it.

Once back in my room I shut and lock the door, pressing her against it.

"What are yo-.. I-" I shut her up by pressing our lips together and my hips against hers.

She's quiet now, kissing back, my kiss is so unexperienced but it would get better. I grind into her, growing hard as he smaller body is pressed against me, I can feel her soft pants of anticipation, her hands roam my body.

I can help but think of how wrong this is, how my wolf is snarling for this to stop because she isn't the mate I had, the mate I want. But I don't care, our bodies press together as we let out moan after moan. I take her clothes off and she takes mine off.

This disgusting creature is now my first time, this sweet girl I've turned into a whore and myself is so dependent on her to make me forget all I need to. I want a mate, I want love, she gives me when I need and want me she's not who I need and want.

After making sure she knew she could have no other male but me and I could still have whoever I wanted she leaves. I stay laying on my back, thinking about the events of the day.

I can't sleep. So I just stare at the ceiling, hoping it would come alive and take me away from the place, put me out of my misery. Do what I'm not strong enough to do.

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Well this took forever, mostly because I didn't feel like doing it... but yeah, hope you enjoyed the first chapter and it'll probably take me forever to do the second one.
Also you don't know his name yet because I don't know what to name him, soo I'll figure it out whenever.
But byyyeeeeee
And of course, if you like the book↯

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