11:57 am,
I miss home.... I miss my bed, I miss my books, (ignore the fact that I just went to the bookstore.)   I miss my pillow. The one that I sprayed with a special concoction of laundry fresheners and water so when I pressed my face in it it smells good. . I Want to go to church, I want to go to praise in motion, I miss choir practice, I miss playing my piano. I Keep thinking that with each moment I'm not home playing another piece of a song slips out of my grasp and memory.I really need a knew guitar. My old one broke on top of everything else so I'm pretty much l left musicless. And the most important thing. I MISS MY BEST FRIEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!.😭

12:05 pm,
Well now that I got that out. Thank you God for giving me another day to praise and worship You. Even if I just wasted part of it by ranting and feeling sorry for myself. (Sorry🙈🙈)
Anyway the rant was evidently in God's plan because it just gave an idea

🎆Galatians 5:22-23🎆
But the Holy Spirit produces this love, joy,  peace, Patience, kindness goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control. Against such there is no law.

I have trouble with patience. As you can see. I've only been here for what, 4 days and already I can't wait to go home. (Only 8 more days left📅📅). I'm a restless spirit but I also like my sleep. If you get what I'm saying. I can't stay in the same place long yet I long for home.

Someone wise once told me that patience is not only the ability to wait it's also how you wait. Anyone can wait in a line, only some will do it with complaint.

Everybody at some point in their life has had to wait. It doesn't matter who you are or where you come from everyone has had to wait even Jesus had to wait. And even now He waits still in heaven for all of those who love Him to join in worship.

Sarah and Abraham were old. But God promised them a baby. God promised that they're descendants would be more numerous than the stars. God doesn't lie so when God promises He means business. God told Abraham and Sarah that she would have a baby and they laugh in his face. Could you imagine laughing in God's face? Let me see if I can get you to understand.

What's something that is impossible for you? Something you long for but is impossible to have. Now imagine God telling you, you were gonna have it. Nice right? That thing you want most in the world but is so far out of reach. Imagine God told you that it would be given to you.

Now imagine that a little time goes by and nothing happens. Then a little more time goes by and nothing happens. Imagine so much time goes by that now you're old awaiting death and the gift God said He was gonna give you is a distant and probably painful memory. Even if you did get this gift you'd probably wouldn't be able to enjoy it for long. Or have it period.

But then one day God comes to you and says that in a year's time you're going to have that thing. I don't know about you but I'd probably be a little mad and hurt because.

"God, you told me I would get it, you told me you would give me the thing I want want most in the world, I trusted you, I believed in you. You got my hopes up and it looks like you let me down." If I was in Sarah's place I might have laughed myself. Not a happy laugh but a rueful one.

"Really God, you hurt me and now you want me to trust you?"

Do you see it now?

Sarah and Abraham waited and they were not patient. They even tried to rush God but there's not rushing God. God works on His timing not ours.

If you're baking a cake and you take it out of the oven too soon it won't be as good as it could be or it won't be good at all. You brother or sister or mom, dad, boyfriends, family and friends want the cake now. But you have to let it bake. You have to let the insides warm, the batter settle and the outside Brown and nice golden brown.

You can't rush God just let you can't rush a good homemade cake.

I need to have patience in the fact that know that I will go home. I will crash into the arms of my church family and sing in my house. I will go home Or my earth home anyway. Because in the end, this is not our final home. Our final home is with God in heaven praising Him in all his glory🎉.

And technically, now that I really think about it, why am I ranting about earthly things that will mean nothing to me in the end. Really the only thing on that list that will last is my 💕best friend💕.

(And I can rant all I want about missing her she's not going anywhere). Why am I feeling sorry for myself. Its all temporary. Our beds, our 📖books, our pillows. None of it will last. And all that other stuff. Going to church †, praise n motion 👯 (we don't wear the cat ears), praise team🎤🎼. Yes its all about worshiping  God. But what am I going to about it. Just because I'm not home and I can't go do all those things doesn't mean I stop praising Him.

That's something I need to work more on. In my first post I said that when I'm away from church . too long I start to drift away from God. So I'm finding ways I can praise Him even when I'm away. That's what this is. God gave me a will to write📝 about Him and my life. So I'm going to use it to glorify Him. 👏👏 'high five myself because I'm awesome'. 

Until next time
-loved soul💕