I woke up to the dangerous song of screaming and banging. Being grabbed by my upper arms harshly wasn't what terrified me the most. No, it was the fact that I had done this.

All I could do was watch as Essence was yanked by a guard twice her size and she screamed and struggled. I watched like a specter as Cade was punched in the mouth as he was already restrained by two other guards.

It was like my body finally woke up as my arm was effectively yanking out of the socket. I threw my working arm back and elbowed one of the guards restraining me. The time she was stunned for, gave me the window to run over to a struggling Essence. She kneed a guard in the crotch only to be hit again.

"Essence I-"

I felt a blow to the back of my head knocking me to my knees.

"Evelyn!" I heard Cade scream.

"Shut up," I heard Elder Ryann command.

"How about you shut the fuck up!" Essence shouted.

"I like her." Elder Ryann said. "A lotta spark."

Essence rolled her eyes, "Well I hate you, duchess dumb fuck. "

Elder Ryann smiled, "Thank you for making this easier for me."

She grabbed my hair and yanked my head back to look at her. I clenched my teeth together so I wouldn't give her the satisfaction of my screams.

"I gave you a chance, Sweetie." She said softly. "But you spit right in my face."

She raised her voice so that everybody could hear, "And now, your pretty friend has offered to die first."

"Wait, when did I-" Essence was cut off as she was punched in the stomach.

Elder Ryann yanked my head back farther. I could see chuckles of my hair coming out of my scalp. A scream ripped past my lips.

"So now," She started with a sick smirk on her face. "I'm going to spit in your face."

She let go of my hair and kicked me in the back. I whimpered as I struggled to get up.

"Kill the bitch." Elder Ryann said.

My eyes widened and adrenaline coursed through my body. I rushed to my feet and I could feel Cade struggling too.

"No! Don't touch her!" I heard him shout, only to be punched again.

Essence screamed and sobbed as the guards pointed their guns all around her body.

I clumsily rushed at the guards, "No, please. If you have any sort of heart don't kill her."

But all I heard before the guns were fired was a simple response.

"I will do so."

All in unison guns fired creating seeping holes of blood in Essence's once beautiful body. I was too late again. I had failed again. Another person was dead because of me.

I collapsed to the ground as Essence's body dropped as well.

"No," I sobbed. "We were supposed to get out. You were supposed to be my mom. You were supposed to live."

"Fuck," Cade sobbed out.

"Wahhh," Elder Ryann mocked. "My only mother-figure died so sad. Now I am going to cry because she was the only person that made me feel loved."

She rolled her eyes and turned to the guards that dropped me, "Pick her up, you idiots."

They mumbled the words they were programmed too and restrained me even harder.

Elder Ryann began to laugh and the guards all joined in. But for the first time, I could see the resistance in their eyes. They didn't want this, but for whatever reason, I still blamed them for this. I wanted to blame anybody but who's fault it was; mine.

"Well, fake mummy bit the dust." Elder Ryann laughed. "What do you think? Should I wait or kill Cadie now?"

"Don't call me that," Cade growled.

"I'm so scared," Elder Ryann mocked.

"I will do whatever you want," I said. "Just please don't hurt anybody else."

Elder Ryann stared at me for a second before laughing.

"So self-centered," She hummed. "You think this is about you?"

I furrowed my eyebrows, "Why else would you kill everybody I love?"

"Why do I need a reason?" She asked. "Did I ask you why you killed anybody you did?"

My heart clenched, "I did it because of you!"

"Oh, defensive are we?"

"No-"

"Yes you are," she teased. "But if you have to know, it's because I plan to start over a brand new world. One where I am in control."

I stared at her in confusion. Wasn't she already in control?

"That doesn't make any sense," Cade verbalized. "You already had power. What more did you need?"

"Well, I didn't say I only had one reason."

I looked into her greedy eyes that I had learned to despise. This woman had washed away all the innocence and naiveness I had once clung to. All I wanted was to smash her head in and watch her suffer. But once again, I was useless as I was restrained by guards while my head slowly poured out blood.

"What's the other reason?" I gritted out.

She smiled while studying her bright red nails, "I fucking love killing."

Her eyes bounced over to Cade, "Shoot him."

Cade tried his best to fight, but even he couldn't fight off the eight guards that surrounded him. I fought my hardest too, but again I was useless.

"I love you!" I screamed before having my head slammed with the butt of a gun.

"I love you too," He said as tears streamed down his face.

I will do so," All of the guards repeated.

I tried to move and struggle so that I could help but being weak and restrained made that impossible.

My head was forced to look at Cade as his brains splattered against the wall. His lifeless eyes stared at me making my heart shatter once again. I truly had nobody now.

"No, no" I sobbed.

"Yes, yes" elder Ryan laughed.

The guards let me limply fall to the ground like spaghetti as I let out a wretched silent sob. I couldn't even find it in me to make a sound.

Memories of Essence, Cade, and Nove flooded through my head as I lay on the ground lifeless. I couldn't believe this is what fate had planned out for me.

Sadness paralyzed me and numbed the pain as guards continuously kicked my body. It didn't matter because I wasn't there anymore. I had left the second Cade's brains were expelled onto the wall.

Tears streamed down my face as I wished for death.

"Please kill me," I begged, sobbing."

"Sorry," she snickered. "I have a habit of playing with my prey."

With that, Elder Ryann and her posse of unwilling servants left me soulless body on the ground as they walked away. I knew I should run or fight, but honestly, I just had nothing left to give.

My brain and heart gave out as I let out a sob before falling into darkness I hoped I wouldn't come out of.

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Also, super sorry I haven't updated in forever I had a lot of school work to get done and I got a job. 

Anyway, I hope you're all doing well! Love y'all!