Chapter Eleven- Holding Back

Draco purposely did not sought out Harry for the rest of Sunday and when he saw Harry for dinner again, he didn't make any visual contact. He walked out with a few Slytherin's as they went to the common room, thus leaving Harry no room to even approach him.

It wasn't till Monday morning and he came up into the Entrance Hall, to see Harry sitting at the foot of the marble staircase once again. Harry seemed deep in thought and his eyes clicked on Draco as he appeared before him.

Draco looked around quickly and Harry snapped in a low voice, 'it's ok no one is around!'

Draco shrugged, still keeping himself at a distance from Harry.

Harry got up and eyed Draco warily. Draco looked deep into those green eyes that he had got to know so well. He indicated with a nod towards the small room that led off the hall. He peeked his head around and saw that it was empty and walked in. Harry followed him with an annoyed expression as Draco turned to close the door behind them.

'Well?'

Harry crossed his arms and Draco could see that Harry was pissed off. He decided to play ignorant and came closer to Harry, who was still standing huffily. Draco closed the space between them.

'Well?' Harry asked again louder.

Draco ran his finger across Harry's cheek.

'Well what?' he leaned in and pressed his lips on the corner of Harry's mouth.

He almost smiled as Harry turned his face away. ' What was up with you yesterday?'

Draco cupped Harry's face in his hands, turning it back to his lips. He had missed this. Oh god he had, he had missed this. And it had barely been a day. He kissed Harry slowly and softly and Harry didn't put up much resistance and responded with a small sigh of surrender for a few moments before pulling back angrily.

'NO! No. Don't think you can shut me up by making out with me!' Harry pulled his face away and pushed Draco back slightly.

Draco chuckled in his throat, and moved back giving Harry room. Harry looked all aggravated and so cute.

Always so darn cute…..

Draco wet his lips and swallowed.

' I was just busy yesterday,' he shrugged casually again which seemed to only infuriate Harry more.

'Busy?' Harry spat out. ' That wasn't being busy.That was… I mean….. you were being...'

He searched for a word and didn't come up with anything. He dropped his hands to his side and shook his head. Draco felt his chest ache. He looked at the dark-haired boy in front of him. Really looked at him. The mass of black hair that fell around that beautiful face, the green eyes glowing uncertainly behind those framed glasses (which Draco had gotten quite fond of). The perfectly formed physique that leant against the wall - unsure of what it wanted to do next. He is here for me, Draco thought. Look at him. Harry James Potter is here for me and me only.

He moved forward again and pushed Harry's chin up with his finger. He slid his fingers under Harry's jaw, caressing those soft lips with his thumb. Harry stayed silent and gazed unblinking into Draco's eyes. It hurt to look into Harry's eyes. They looked as if they had lost something and were wavering all alone looking forlorn. Draco felt his heart constrict.

' I couldn't get away yesterday that's all, all right? Nothing else to it.'

Harry didn't look like he believed a word of it but remained quiet.

Draco could see worry shadowing Harry's eyes and he hated it.

'Hey come on, that's all,' he stressed, 'ok?'

Harry stayed silent and Draco took the break in words gratefully and gently shoved Harry against the wall, lying urgent kisses alongside his jaw line and down his neck.

Harry's arm flailed at his side, as if deciding whether to push Draco away or not. In the end it seemed he had decided not and pulled Draco closer. Draco pressed his body up against Harry's, roughly untucking Harry's shirt and sliding his hands up and over the smooth skin of Harry's ribcage, to the top of his chest. His lips pressed hard on Harry's with a sudden thirst and hunger that had to be satiated quickly. He thrust his tongue into Harry's mouth and drunk him in. Harry let out a low moan clutching at Draco, his arms clasping around Draco's back.

They kissed hungrily and Draco desperately joined his mouth with Harry's. He did not pause to take a breath; he just kept on and on pressing his lips on Harry's. They were both gasping for breath soon and Draco anxiously looked once more into the green pools. They were rich with heat and desire – all the worry seemed to have been wiped away much to his relief. Draco took Harry in his arms and held him tightly, Harry's head tilted gently against Draco's chest.

Draco pressed tiny kisses along the side of Harry's nape and shivered with emotion as Harry huddled closely to him, cocooned against Draco's beating heart.

Lust, Draco thought. All this is lust. That's it. That's all. I don't c-a-r-e, I don't. Of course I don't. I don't care about him..…

He moved back and gripped Harry along his body and kissed him voraciously again. Kissing him harder and harder, as if to make a point tohimself that he did not care. It's attraction that's all, he could feel himself hard and aching and he rubbed his body against Harry gasping as the pleasurable, electrical jolts ran through him. Harry groaned as Draco grated up and down, losing all mind and reason.

He could just have sex with Harry now; get it out of his system. Prove to himself, that this was all it was. Then it would be all over. Because that's all it is, his mind screamed. He could say that he'd had sex with Harry Potter in years to come. That he had had the proud Gryffindor on his back for him with his legs open.

You're as depraved as that. Just do it. Sex, that's all but his heart countered his mind in direct conflict.

It's not all, the tiny voice in his head said. Draco let out a frustrated heavy sigh and pressed his body still and leaned heavily into Harry's embrace as he slowed his kisses down.

He knew that if he wanted, he could push Harry down onto his knees and get him to suck him off, and then tell him to fuck off. And it was so horribly disconcerting. He didn't want that power either. He shuddered with revulsion at himself for even thinking that. He wouldn't abuse Harry in that way. But just the simple, basic fact that he could actually do that got to Draco. Got to him so badly. He stared down at Harry's tie. Since when did I become such a righteous man? Even protecting Harry fromhimself.

Putting other peoples feelings first, was an aberrant trait. And he was doing it more and more with Harry. This constant battle inside was wearing him thin.

His heart knotted in his chest again, as he looked at Harry's face. Harry didn't look at all annoyed now, he'd let it go and Draco was both touched and groundlessly irritated at the same time. He wasn't sure if he was cross that Harry could forgive him so easily or moved that Harry cared that much for him. He gave himself up so willingly to Draco, that he was finding it hard to not just take advantage of what was being offered to him. But since he had grown a conscience when it came to Harry, he couldn't bear the thought of hurting him at all and that sickened Draco. Of course he wasn't sure what sickened him the most exactly.

'You'll be late you know?' he said softly brushing the tip of Harry's nose with his. 'Mcgonagall doesn't take well to tardiness.'

Harry's eyes widened ever so slightly with surprise, ' how did you know I had Transfiguration?'

'Of course I know,' Draco chuckled softly.' After all these weeks and you don't think I know your timetable off by heart?'

Harry flushed and shrugged smiling.' I know you have free period now.'

Draco grinned, 'there you go then.'

He kissed Harry again. He knew he could probably spend hours bathing Harry's lips with his. He would never tire from it. Each kiss felt separate and just as sweet as the last.

'I'll see you later ok?'

Harry cocked his brow, and gave him a sarcastic look, ' Maybe I'LL be busy this time.'

Draco nodded as a small smile crept from Harry's mouth. 'I'll just have to take that risk then.'

Harry smiled then and hugged Draco hard. He kissed Draco on the cheek before leaving.

Immediately the room grew cold and all Draco could feel was the warm kiss that Harry had just placed on his cheek. He dropped his head and took in a long breath. He waited a moment longer and then opened the door and walked out.

A few hours later he had been passing through the Entrance Hall when someone banged into him. He knew instantly from the smell that it was Harry. He hid his grin quickly and formed his much-used sneer upon his face. Harry had spilt something down him and he felt the front of his robes grow wet.

'Watch it Potter! Didn't anyone teach you how to walk properly?'

Harry was standing with Weasel holding a now empty jar in his hand. He looked at Draco blankly.

Draco raised his brows in question and Weasel glowered at him. Draco felt his fist itch; it was just dying to be connected to ginger-nuts face.

' I think this calls for a detention Potter.'

'You can't do that!' Weasel yelled immediately.

'Someone has to teach you Gryffindor manners. I'll let you know what time Potter. Don't be late, or you'll find yourself in detention all week.'

Harry stood quietly and Weasel was red with fury,' you can't do that!' he persisted.

Draco shook out his robes slightly,' I think I can and I think I just have, 'he cocked his head pointedly towards Harry and walked away.

As he began to walk towards the door to the Dungeons, he heard Weasel let out a barrage of insults and chuckled.

He sent Harry a quick owl telling him his detention was to be at six thirty. He left out the room; Harry would know where to come.

Later when he reached their room, Harry was already there. He was sitting on a desk looking through a textbook when Draco walked in.

'Studying are we?' Draco drawled and Harry looked up.

'Just reading, I wasn't sure if you were going to come and well I had to bring something with me so…' he shrugged.

Draco came up to him and lifted his chin. Harry gave him a small smile and Draco saw a dark shadow clouding his green eyes. He felt a stab of guilt and wondered if Harry were still upset with him.

'You've been very conscientious with your studies of late haven't you? I've noticed that. You had never struck me as the academic type before.'

Harry stayed quiet and Draco looked at him, feeling concerned in spite of his opposition towards such sentiments.

'Did you want to study?' he asked.

Harry gazed at him and said in a low voice,' which one do you prefer?'

Draco looked at him thoughtfully for a moment and then moved closer and took the book from Harry and laid it aside. He then parted Harry's legs with a gentle hand. He positioned himself in the V of Harry's leg and put his arms tightly around Harry's back. He looked silently into the green eyes and then moved one hand and picked up Harry's arm, draping it behind his neck. He did the same with Harry's other arm with a small smile on his lips and saw Harry's mouth twitch slightly. Now that he had both of Harry's arms flopped around his neck, Draco leaned in closer into Harry's body and kissed him softly.

'Does this answer your question?'

He moved his arms back around Harry once more and felt Harry's hands entangle in his hair.

'Feel me, touch me, kiss me. I'm right here ok?'

'Ok,' Harry mumbled and kissed him back with gentle, small kisses.

Draco gripped Harry's body, his hands splayed across the small of Harry's back. Harry's knees were pressing into the sides of his waist and their kisses grew more open and hungrier.

' I really like the taste of your mouth,' Harry said suddenly between kisses.

'Me too,' Draco responded breathlessly. 'I mean as in yours. Which is a good thing seeing as….'

'How much time we spend in each others mouths?' Harry finished off for him.

'Exactly,' Draco smiled and they crushed their lips together once more.

They kissed for a while and Harry leaned back eventually, his mouth all pink and swollen.

' Ron gave one of your Slytherin first years detention, for running in the halls.'

Draco shook his head,' couldn't let it go could he?'

Harry smiled,' you Prefects have way too much power.'

Draco gave him a lofty look,' well you better not cheek me mister. I've been way too easy on you. I can't believe I've never given you detention before.'

Harry laughed,' yeah I guess I should be careful.'

Harry leaned forward and rested his head on Draco's chest.

' I think my detention is nearly over isn't it?'

'Mmmm it would seem so,' Draco murmured. The time passed way too quickly when he was with Harry. It was incredible. Harry kissed him once more before jumping down from the desk and picked up his book.

'That was the best detention I've ever had though,' Harry said.

'Yeah?' Draco watched his face smiling.' What was the worst detention you've ever had?'

Harry shook his head,' I've had a few, couldn't say really.'

He gave Draco a sweet smile before he left the room and Draco followed suit shortly.

Tuesday night they met up in the disused staff room. They had actually brought books with them with the intention of studying. Looking very studious, they spread the books across the table and took a seat on either side and started to revise quietly for the upcoming summer exams.

An hour into the session and Draco lifted his eyes once again over to Harry. Harry looked up and grinned and poked a small pink tongue at Draco before he bent his head down over his book again. Draco held back a grin and lowered his eyes too.

Five minutes later he felt Harry's gaze on him and lifted his head. Draco looked into the bright, cat like eyes and carried on staring.

Those damn eyes will be the death of me, he thought. Harry wiggled his brows, breaking Draco out of his semi-trance like state.

'What?'

'Nothing.'

Harry's eyes lowered to Draco's lips causing Draco to feel a tingle in his stomach and in a flash, he quickly reached over the table and caught Harry gently by his tie and pulled him closer. Draco pressed a breathtaking kiss upon Harry's lips. He swallowed in Harry's tongue and sucked it gently before withdrawing and licking Harry's mouth. He grinned playfully and smacked his lips as he let go of Harry and seated himself back down in his chair. Harry's mouth was agape and his face looked delightfully dazed. Draco cocked a teasing brow before returning back to his textbook.

A minute later Harry spoke up, 'do you think we've done enough studying?'

Draco replied without lifting his head,' you think an hour is all we can manage? Doesn't speak very highly of your attention span Mr Potter.'

'Maybe but nonetheless….…' Harry shut his book and came around to Draco's side, perching himself on the table in front of Draco' s seat.

Draco smirked,' so I take that as a yes then?' he watched Harry shift a few books aside and seat himself directly parallel to Draco's face.

Harry smiled charmingly, 'yeah.'

He leaned down and cupped Draco's face up in his palms and brushed his lips against his softly. Draco gazed at his face, and a small hopeful smile lit up Harry's eyes. Oh you're so bloody cute, Draco thought affectionately.

'All right then,' Draco sighed exaggeratedly and pushed his books away and placed his hands on the tops of Harry's thighs.

Harry edged nearer to Draco, drawing his face close and kissing him with long, slow, measured strokes. Draco slid his hands around Harry's waist and around his back, pulling Harry nearly off of the table into his lap. They kissed and the silence was only broken with their breathless moans escaping now and then.

Harry's one hand dropped down onto Draco's neck. His fingers lowered and teased the collar and tie of Draco's shirt. He stopped kissing and looked deep into Draco's eyes as his other hand loosened Draco's tie. Draco looked up at him silently, his eyes burning with unspoken desire, as he felt Harry slide his tie off of him and undo a few top buttons of his shirt.

'I just want to see something,' Harry's words were barely audible and Draco felt gripped in a hot haze. He didn't care if Harry wanted to do more than just see.

The top part of his chest was exposed as Harry brushed the shirt aside with nimble fingers.

'I knew you had pink nipples.'

Draco laughed softly surprised with the little statement, ' been giving it much thought have you? Occupied your mind of lately?'

Harry blushed bashfully and smiled, ' I just wondered..…'

He hesitatingly brushed a tentative finger over one of Draco's nipples and Draco let out a soft moan as Harry fingered it lightly. Harry lowered his lashes and Draco could see a delightful tinge of pink stain Harry's cheeks. He caught Harry's hand and kissed it, holding it tightly. It was almost as if sometimes, Harry was surprised that Draco found his touch pleasurable. He was so innocent in many ways and Draco felt swept up in a tidal wave of affection.

Draco gripped Harry's hands in his and grinned back knowingly,' I know what colour yours are.'

Harry laughed, 'how do you know that? I thought you never got as far as my nipples!'

Oh yeah, Draco thought. Oooopppssss. He tilted his face up and kissed Harry before moving back and clearing his throat.

' I have a confession to make.'

'And the plot thickens,' Harry joked with a cheeky smile.

Draco nodded and Harry looked at him amused, his fingers trailing across Draco's collarbone.

' You know that night in your changing room? Before your match?'

Harry nodded,' you hurt your wrist,' and he lifted Draco's right wrist kissing it.

Draco smiled back tightly, 'yeah, anyway. I kind of saw you …..… showering.'

Harry's eyes widened, his head lowering as if to say…

'Yes, ' Draco confirmed, ' I saw you quite nakedand showering.'

'You saw me naked? Like all of me naked?' Harry looked a little stunned and Draco nodded again as Harry's eyes dropped.

'I'm sorry,' Draco said quickly, his arms sliding around Harry's neck as he peered up into Harry's face. 'But you have nothing to be embarrassed about. Nothing at all. You have a lurvely body, honest. You're hot, gorgeous, yum yum,' he assured Harry.

'Really?' Harry asked, his nose wrinkling slightly.

'Of course!' Draco said amazed, 'for gods sake. Hello? Have you looked at you? I feel your body all the time, you think I can't tell what it's like?' he squeezed Harry's thigh gently.

Harry smiled shyly,' yeah but I'm covered, not standing around in my birthday suit.'

' Are you angry?' Draco asked concerned.

Harry shook his head, 'no. If anyone has to see me naked, I'd rather it be you.' He laughed then, ' you know, I always shower in the actual stalls. I never shower in the open area. I only did that day, because I thought I was alone, ' he grinned pointedly.

Draco stood up and gathered Harry into his arms, ' so you mean to say, no one else has seen you naked?'

' I certainly hope not…well except you.'

'That's good,' Draco murmured, happy that he was the only one who got to see this side to Harry.

He kissed Harry's neck and slid his hands along Harry's waist.

'I should be given extra credit,' he breathed hotly into Harry's warm skin.

'And why's that?' Harry asked huskily as he closed his eyes, looking like he was enjoying Draco's lips delight his senses.

'Well because all this time I've known exactly what you look like under your clothes, and I've managed to have the self-discipline of a monk I might add, not to rip off your clothes and take you on the floor every time I see you.'

Harry's body shivered deliciously at Draco's words,' liking yourself to a monk now are we?'

'Mmmm,' Draco hummed, finding Harry's lips once again.

I just can't get enough of him, Draco thought as electric tingles ran from his lips to throughout his body.

'You could you know….…' Harry said his expression honest and revealing.

Draco gulped, his eyes flashing with the implication of Harry's words. He looked awed for a moment as Harry and him breathed hotly, fanning each other's faces.

'I know,' he said after a long moment, his eyes never straying from Harry's.

Oh dear lord, Draco thought. He felt his heart soar to some great unknown height and drift back slowly into it's habitat. Whenever Harry offered himself, it cut Draco to the quick. All these feelings were bubbling up inside of him and it was like keeping a lid on a boiling pot. Turn the heat up to its utmost and excess fluid was going to fall. Draco just didn't know whether he was coming or going. What in the heck did he want? Harry. Of course Harry. But at what cost? This wasn't right, morally speaking. It was almost outlawed.

Harry's eyes flickered over Draco's face as if searching for a clue as to what he was thinking. Draco looked down, feeling the moment suspend heavily around him. He hugged Harry to him, not wanting to betray himself with words that were threatening ceaselessly to escape. Regardless of rhyme or reason.

He finally moved back and gave a light smile, ' I knew you were easy Potter.'

Harry pretended to be outraged, narrowing his eyes and then relaxing back into a solemn smile, 'only for you,' he said softly.

Draco felt his heart wince painfully in his chest, 'promise?' the word slipped out before he could stop it.

' Always, ' Harry whispered.

Draco swallowed hard, his heart racing. He felt giddy and hid his face into Harry's hair, gathering him close to his chest. The subtext of their words relayed more than Draco could deal with right now. How did Harry reach inside of him and draw out feelings that had fought endlessly to remain hidden? What am I going to do with you Harry? Draco thought. I don't want to care about you at all.

Please let this be attraction, I can't handle anymore. Draco closed his eyes tightly, his nose buried in the soft black hair. Every time he was with Harry now, his stomach swirled. Little feathered wings tickled his heart. I'm drowning in you, Draco thought. I'm submersed in you.

Harry mumbled against his chest, after a minute, ' it's not fair you know?'

Draco swallowed hard and leaned back, 'what's that?'

He looked ever so gratefully at Harry for not lingering on the previous moment. He just did not want to deal with it at the present time.

Harry gave him a winsome smile,' you've seen mine but I haven't seen yours!'

'All in good time,' Draco gave a suave grin and with a joking expression he said, ' besides I have shown you something.'

Harry looked at him questioningly.

'My pink nipples of course.'

Harry laughed out aloud and Draco smiled pulling him close.