Since this book is like the compilation of my thoughts about this world, the sentences may look childish. I just typed what I thought spontaneously, with the help of Grammarly so please forgive me for my lazy writing style. 

CHAPTER 2 - The Worst Loser

It was all started when two of my roommates, Bella and Amy were browsing our senior's pictures on Facebook. 

"His face looked rounder in this picture. Did he gain weight?" Bella commented. I did not see any insult in the line. She simply said what she saw but for Amy, she perceived it as the excuse for her to remind Bella that she was the loser for the nth time.  

"At least, he got a girlfriend. Unlike you, loser," Amy said, gaining her a gasp of disbelief from Nina, my third roommate. 

I hate to tell Amy that it was harsh for her to say something like that but I hated my own mouth even more when I decided to be sarcastic. It was as much as how Amy disliked me when I stopped her from gabbing about how awesome her boyfriends were. Instead, I glanced at Bella who looked obviously sad. Just so you know, that girl was a loud person but she just did not have that much wit when it comes to defending herself from people who mocked her. When somebody made fun of her, she got speechless, sighed in defeat and doing other activities like doing laundry or playing Big City Adventure to make her mind engrossed.  

I always knew that Bella thought she was ugly. No matter how much she tried to make herself pretty, she just felt that no boys would pay attention to her. I admitted that when it comes to looks, Amy was much more beautiful. Breaking off with her current boyfriend was not something strange anymore since she would turn melancholic for about three days before moving on and the next thing we knew was she got another boy who asked her out. She was that easy to move on and get a replacement for her ex-boyfriends. 

But, to me, Bella still had the strengths that could make her attractive and approachable. She was smart, studious and in our club, she was chosen a lot of times as our leader, president and many more. That was how much people trusted her. I think, soon enough, the men who saw personality as more vital than looks would love her for who she was. 

 In the evening, when those two friends headed for classes, the first line that Nina said to me... 

"Eva, what do you think about their conversation just now?"

"I think Amy didn't make any sense," I remarked, bluntly while my fingers got busy as bees, typing a report. "Shame on her. Having no boyfriend doesn't make one a loser, you know. It's not like your future will be damaged right away. Just look at her. When Amy dated someone, she would abandon her assignments and friends just for him. She is the one who tends to 'destroy' her future and if she keeps the attitude, she'll become a loser soon." 

"I know, right? She even skipped classes just to meet her boyfriend," Nina supplied. "As much as she called Bella a loser, I still felt hurt with her bluntness since I am also single," Nina thought for a while before snapping her finger. "But, wait! You are also single, Eva! Don't you feel anything when she voiced out those things that way?" 

"No. Instead, I pitied Amy because it seemed she's not mature enough," for some reason, my comment sent Nina to chuckle.  

"I think you should console Bella, Eva. Obviously, she needs someone like you to tell her that it's okay to not have a boyfriend yet. Plus, you seem like a typical woman who can survive without a guy." 

I rolled my eyes but there was something whispering in my mind when she said that. 

I can but that was only since a few years ago. 

"That was why I tried to make a move on Nick," Bella confessed. Nick was her classmate and her close friends including us knew just how precious he was in her life but so far, it seemed Nick thought that it was fun to be mysterious with his feeling. He replied her messages. He accepted her gifts for his birthday but that was all we knew. There was no progress in their friendship a.k.a relationship. "I want to have a boyfriend. I don't want to be a loser." 

"Why?" I asked. Amy was not around so I could ask Bella to be as open as she could with me and Nina without being afraid of being mocked by the mean girl. 

"Because since school, I never confessed my feeling to anyone. I never made a move. And now, since I am already 20, I just want to try it. Everyone seems to have their partner."

"Everyone? Who is everyone?" I asked, looking at Nina who also conveyed the same expression as mine. 

"Yeah, I know you both are also single but you guys don't look like you care enough about having a boyfriend..." 

"See? All you have to do is not give a damn about the boyfriend thingy and you will be just fine. Like us," I hugged Nina's shoulder before giggling proudly with her. 

"I want to be like my mum. She got high education, houses, and cars for herself before she dated anyone. She found daddy a.k.a her first love when she was 28 and tadaaaa!! They got married for twenty-two years already and still happily enjoy each other company," Nina exclaimed, much to our amazement. We knew just how much she adored her mother and how much she wanted to be like her. 

But, I just stopped being amazed as soon as those two pairs of black eyes stared at me, waiting for my answer. 

"What about you, Eva? Why do you love to be single?"

"Because... I was used to be like you, Bella."

"What?" 

"I got frustrated a lot back then in school. As soon as I liked someone, that was when I would be informed that they got a girlfriend already. Much prettier than me. I thought that 'ah, maybe because they are beautiful'. After that, I made friends with Norman. For some reason, we had a lot of chemistry. We talked a lot and he would share about his past about being a hooligan and that was his secret that only I knew out of his friends. I fell in love with him but much to my dismay, he suddenly declared that he was in a relationship with my roommate, Nadia. When I asked him what did he like about her, he simply said, 'she is pretty'. That was when I thought I would just stop chasing a boy and focus on other goals. I love graphic designs so I should focus on the right path in order to be one. Sorry to say but whoever came up with the mentality that having no boyfriend makes you a loser is actually the worst loser," I cleared my throat before adding, "and that included Amy."

"What?" Nina and Bella echoed. They reminded me of countless anime characters who were so oblivious about everything and seemed to have a thing with repeating somebody's words whenever they did not understand something. 

"What do you think about your face, Bella? Please tell me honestly," I asked the said girl back. 

"Well, I think I am not pretty like Amy." 

"Yeah, you are right. You are not pretty like her," I answered, swiftly. 

"Eva, what are you doing? You are supposed to comfort her!" Nina said, indirectly telling me that I was mean. 

"But..." I lifted my index finger, emphasizing my point. "If I am a man, I will choose you over Amy because of your personality. Compared to Amy who always whines about her lecturer giving a lot of assignment, you don't whine at all because you know that's your responsibility as a student. To be honest, I am worried about Amy. She spent most of her times with dating... Seriously, doesn't she have works to do? Does she see school as a dating agency, perhaps? In this situation, you have more benefits because you spent your time doing advantageous things other than going out frequently like Amy. Honey, what's the use of having a boyfriend when he only adores your beauty and only thinks about a date like Amy's? You are still young. You will meet a lot of guys and you will find your other half."

Bella beamed ear to ear. I expected her to give only that particular response but...

"Thank you, Eva. I am so happy to have a friend like you," she jumped and hugged me, sending us to the floor. 

"Auchh! Bella, watch out!"

"Sorrryyyy!!"

In the midst of the pain on my back, I really hoped that Bella would meet someone that would treasure her. She was naive and sensitive but I could tell that she had a lot of love that she wanted to share. 

A/N: This story is specially written for those who are still young and feels like her life is empty when she doesn't have a soulmate or when no men make a move on her. Life doesn't only revolve around guys, you know (No, I don't have a personal grudge on them). There are a lot of goals in this life you can achieve. You just have to believe in yourself and keep moving on.