To be honest here, I feel like that I don't belong anymore that I got that certain thing I use to have. I was once a nice person and a kind person but now I'm lonely. I'm just pathetic now, I can't find joy in anything I do. It's honestly unbearable, I pride myself as the "Hero of Chaos" but all I'm in is in Chaos. I doubt anybody will read this but if they do know that I am very grateful for you. I was kinda popular back in the day, I had a lot of friends then. Now I got few, if any at all. I guess I'm just boring, I'm not an interesting guy and I know it. Rap Battles aren't cool anymore which pretty much blows me away from everything. It never fully satisfied me like I thought it was. I suppose things change and I simply haven't adapted. Will I ever adapt or I'm just hanging on to a dying dream. A once bright but soon faded dream. I feel used by some people I follow, to them I'm a statistic. They'll follow me but then unfollow me when I don't notice. I'm following 999+ people and only 800 followed me.  That's some major bullshit there and quite frankly its pisses me off. It pisses me off to know that I don't belong anymore. It pisses me off to know that I will never to be good enough to have a descent output. The fuck!!!! I'm tired of it!!! I'm sick and tired of the garbage that I feel every single day. The pain I feel when I see me abandoned and others having a blast. What do they have that I don't?!!! What makes them find there happiness!!! God damnit its frustrating..... It just builds every single fucking day.. Wattpad.... Its built my frustration and for months I've been slowly building. This hole.... This slum...this billshit!!!! I hate it and I hate wattpad and I am a pissed off fella. I'm gonna find those gutless sons of bitches who followed and unfollowed. I'm tired of being a statistic for fuckers like that. I'm sick of being alone and being left out. The fucking politics keep me out of the happiness my ass deserve! I can't find it though.. I simply can't. I wanna leave wattpad but I can't cause I'm no quitter. I'm gonna write the best damn book on wattpad. That shit will go absolute no where. No-one gets me, nobody appreciates me anymore. Its just hard man.... Its shit and I'm not happy.... I just gotta go calm down

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