How can you cope up with the pain? When the pain is given by your known ones?

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My clothes were damped and soaked into my body. I-I was feeling numb, and I guess feeling like this making me more emotional. I didn't know when and how I stopped before knocking on the door. I don't want to ring the bell.

You don't want to? What! You are doing this, so there would be a chance that no one will hear your knocking.

Whatever!

'Of!' a warm breath escaped from my mouth. Suddenly, I started feeling tingling and cold. I rubbed my hands and gently knocked on the door.

Though I was not hoping that it would get open, still I had this weird feeling in my stomach about happening something strange.

and as I waited I anticipatedly knocked on the second time. I heard footsteps, fast-quench footsteps. Which I don't remember. These footsteps are not collected in my mind. These are strange, and I refused to remember them.

What if something happened to mom?

What if there is a thief inside?

Oh my god!

My mother is in danger.

Shut up! Will you?

And as I was about to knock the third time; a quenching creaking voice erupted in my ears. The door has opened, and ahead of me, a shirtless man has stood.

Who is he?

Mother's boyfriend?

Umm. Maybe.

He crooked his eyebrow as he was remembering hard something, maybe he has no idea who am I? Or maybe he is just acting?
Then his eyes flicked from my top to bottom.

Ok! I don't like this man. No, not at all.

I don't even understand what happened, and in just a slow-motion he engulfed me in a tight hug.

My body pressed with his body, and I can't even breathe. It's like I would never breathe out again. I think I lost myself, I've gone to the world of darkness. But his hands on my butt alarmed me.

He fucking molested me.

I'm going to kill him.

I tried to get away from his cage which was made up of his hands.

My voice was cracked, where is my mother? "You fucking Asshole!" I yelled at him and kicked my knee to his main point.

I'll kill him the next time he touches me. Who does he think of himself?
A yelp escaped from his mouth as he made the distance from me.

"Darling what happened?" came my mother's voice.
Is she real? What a choice mom. But I can't let you stay with this man. Who is a pervert, an asshole, a pig, and so many worse things?

"Nothing just got excited my soon to be daughter is here," he replied, with a serious face, while smirking

How dare he smirks at me when I want to murder me!

"Listen to me you pervert, don't talk shit. Because I can make your face a piece of shit." I warned him but caught my mother who was walking down the stairs. In a nightgown.

"Shhhhhhhhh. Don't ever try to do such things your mother will kill you."

And maybe he was right?

In these circumstances, she will only believe her so-called boyfriend.

"Amanda? You are here?" she looked surprised, she didn't believe her eyes. She lightly rubbed them with her palms.

I know I said I won't see her again, I know I was sad with her and I also know I was angry with her. But at last, she always will be my mother. Nothing can change it.

I want to hug her. I want to tell her what his boyfriend tried to do to me.

But.

A but always comes into my life and she opened her mouth, "of course you had to come here, or where else you would go? Now. Remove those crap clothes of yours and wear some decent clothes, and go to study. I want you to be my daughter, not a spoiled brat." she ordered me. Like nothing happened between us in these past days. Like she never broke my heart. Like she never insulted me.

And yet again. I was thinking that she is my mother. She knows me better than anyone and she loves me more than anyone. She doesn't even love me for being me. Then what I'm expecting from her?

I didn't want to stay. I want to leave and go back to Vess's house, but maybe Vess's also has her problems. In-School, I realized I was too focused on myself that I forgot about her.

Yes. I'm self-centred and I'm stupid also for believing everything that my mother said and not asking her where is my father. But I'll be going to do that now.

And this perverted boyfriend of hers will also be going to pay what he tried to did to me.

"As I said before, you can't tell me what to do." this time I told her looking into her eyes.

Her eyes were strange. Mischievous, and one couldn't tell what is she thinking about.
The pervert was her side now, he has a creepy smirk which is affecting me. It was like he is doing that on purpose.

"Behave! Let's talk about that later. I want you to meet your soon to be father." she announced with a smile.

No! That's bullshit.

He cannot be my father.

What the hell is wrong with mother?

Can't he see how disgusting he is?

I think I need to tell her now," this perverted man cannot be my father. If I tell you what he did-"

A slap on my cheek. And all of sudden there is a pin drop silence. It is like I had got a thousand bolt of current in my cheek.

Tears welled up in my eyes. She slapped me on my face. And why? Because of this man.

I hate this man! I hate him to hell.

My cheek was like an iron hot rod against a shattered body.

I don't want to cry ahead of that man. I want to be strong, but I wish I could collapse here so I don't have to face anyone.

However, that is also not going to happen. I'm thinking of being strong, but how can I be strong when my heart is weak?

"Mother?" I sobbed while trying to stop my welled up tears.

She looks lost as she didn't know what she did to me. She is just stood there where she was before. Is she my mother? Is she the same one who took me to Book Fair when I was a child?

No, she isn't.

She has changed.

"I-I" she shuttered, while not making eye contact with me.

"Save it for your soon to be husband mother." I shrieked.

"I'll be going for one month with Jonathon," she informed, but her sound came as a whisper to my ears.

Oh yes. Jonathon is his name. And my mother's priority first.

This man has said one thing true that If I open my mouth against him, she will kill me.
And yes she did. She Killed my heart.

That man? He is just enjoying the show with his eyes.

Before I could say anything else, my mother again opened her mouth," you should sleep!" oh yes. After all these things happen, after breaking my heart, after giving me pain she is ordering me to go to sleep.

Oh, I can get some nice sleep this time. Right?

But I didn't flinch from my spot. I need to know where my father is and I need to know it like now!

Before she could go with her boyfriend to her bedroom. I popped up a question in the air, "where is my father?"

Her hurried footsteps stopped like a dead leaf in the land.

"You should go, darling, I will be coming right back," she said to him.

At least she did one thing right today.

After he went to their room.
Then she moved her head at my side and placed her hands around her waist in a dominating manner. As she was challenging me to ask that question again.

And you guys know very well how I cope up with challenges.

"Where is my father?" I asked again, clearly looking into her eyes while crossing my hands.
She also needs to know how determined I'm to know the truth.

"Your father is in the room over there." she faked a tone and tried to walk away to avoid the question.

But I was fast. in my whole life this time, I grabbed her hand and hold her still, and again I asked, "where is my father?" I asked again while piercing her through my eyes. She can't escape from the truth not now when I wanted to know it.

"Why you wanted to know? Don't you know that he abandoned us and cheated on me? Don't you know that we don't talk about him? Don't you know he did nothing for us?" she uttered, while not making eye contact with me.

"I refuse to believe you," I told her the truth which was craved in my heart for long ago and she needed to know that I don't believe her.

"You can't do a thing without me, Amanda, It doesn't matter If I tell you or not you will not able to find him because you are not capable of it," she said, as she is making her point clear, while sceptically rousing her eyebrows.

Oh yes. You would always think that. You are so full of yourself mother. "Try me!" I sneered.

"Try what? You can't do anything just go and study don't you dare to waste your time." she declared, and somehow managed to let go of my hand. And started to walk away.

"You are afraid that I'll find him. Aren't you?" I lose my voice.

"Come on. You and I know you can't do anything without me because you are my daughter." her voice came as a weak reply.

That's it. This is a time I can know where is my father.

"If you are not afraid then tell me as simple as that. Because if you didn't I'll know that you are afraid. Ms Samantha Parker, the famous lawyer is afraid of something."

Yes. And like a moth is drawn to a flame. She finally stopped and looked back at me, "I'm not afraid of anything and I never will be. And your father is in Miami, Florida." and she was nowhere to be seen in my sight.

At least after all this drama, I got something to hold on to.

I went to my room. Yes, I still went to my room. Because this house will be going to empty for one month. And I still want to see my mother before she will be gone for one month.

I'm a desperate case. I know! I shrugged my shoulders.

In a minute my stomach started growling, and it didn't stop growling. Then I realized I didn't eat anything today.

I don't want to go downstairs.

But you have to.

No. I think I can manage today. And my stomach growled again like an empty dam.

Go and eat something otherwise, you will be dead.

Before I could think of something else to change my mind my footsteps beat me up and started walking downstairs towards the kitchen in the hope to find something to eat. And at this time I don't care whatever I get. I can eat anything which we can call food.

I opened the refrigerator and found a leftover veg sandwich. I grabbed it and just about to bite it when I heard hissed footsteps which became loud with the sound of bags and suitcases.

Maybe they are about to go.

And yes they were. My mother and that perverted human being are here in the hallway with their bags and suitcases.

He looked at my side and gave me a wink.
I gulped. It was like a terror or something else. The sandwich which I was going to eat now fell to the floor.

"Shit!" I muttered.

"Amanda, what are you doing here? Go to sleep and don't you dare to do anything against my word. Do you understand that? And yes. I also want to inform you after returning from work. Me and Jonathon we will get married."

Can I die?

No.

Then?

He can't be your mother's husband.

Yes. He can't but what I'm going to do about it? And most specifically how?

"Mom. Please listen to me before going."
Everything happens so fast that in one second I was calling her name but she was outside the house already, and as I ran towards the door she gets in her car.
Then she was gone.

She was gone.

Without listening to me.

I'm out of breath. I can't I don't. Oh my god.
And again I started crying, at least this time no one can see my tears.

I returned to the house and locked the door.
All the hunger I've got was gone. now, I just want to sleep. I made my way back to the upstairs towards my room and took out my cell phone while silently weeping.

I want to search Florida on google. And its locations. I don't know why but something is not right. It's like I'm missing a major part of life.

The problem is my cellphone's battery is going to die. I need to charge it now.

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"Oh wait for a second I'm picking you," I yelled, as I got up from my comfy bed. It was half-past midnight.

Dry Tears were stick on my cheeks reflecting my skin in the moonlight.

Without looking for a caller id I picked up my cell phone, "hello?" I slightly yawned.

"Amanda! Thank god you picked up your phone where are you? Why haven't you picking up your phone before? Are you ok? Are you still alive right? Are you not dead right? Oh my god, what if I'm talking to a ghost! God damn it. Tell me you are real and you are ok!" typical Vanessa.

"Yes. I'm real and alive and I'm in my house. So don't worry I'll tell you everything tomorrow. Now go to sleep, and let me sleep also. And Vanessa doesn't think too much. It will give you wrinkles."

Ok yes. The last thing was not that much correct, but I know she will sleep now.

After saying goodbye. I went back to my bed to sleep.

Though I wanted to still I couldn't. My mind just keeps revolving around all the circumstances that happened today.

Suddenly my voice croaked up about thinking about that scene where my mother slapped me ahead of Jonathon. And when he tried to take advantage of me.
And my mother, not believing.

And yes, again tears welled up in my eyes.

My cell phone started ringing again. And again without looking into it. I picked up because I knew who can be calling me this time...

"Vess, I told you not to--" this is not Vess. Whoever is the person is that person who is breathing hard.

"Amanda..." he whispered. As he was trying to soothe my pain which by the way is started by him.

"How are you?" he whispered again.

How are you? How are you? Is that what you want to ask from me?

Oh yes. My mother's boyfriend tried to take advantage of me. I tried to tell my mother about it. She refused to listen to me and she slapped my cheek. Oh no, wait still. She also declares that she is going to marry that boyfriend of her next month.

"What? You want to see if I'm crying or not?" I almost whispered, with a shattered voice.

He didn't say anything nor did he cut that line.

When I thought nothing is going to happen I decided to cut the call. And then I heard a song...

It's just another night
And I'm staring at the moon
I saw a shooting star
And thought of you
I sang a lullaby
By the waterside and knew
If you were here,
I'd sing to you
You're on the other side
As the skyline splits into two
I'm miles away from seeing you
I can see the stars
From America
I wonder, do you see them, too?

So open your eyes and see
The way our horizons meet
And all of the lights will lead
Into the night with me
And I know these scars will bleed
But both of our hearts believe
All of these stars will guide us home...

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