The truth of life can have different aspects on you.

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Who am I?

That girl who had played the role of a nerd?

Or that girl who's going to be a playgirl?

Is that even making sense? These thoughts of mine were not clanged me with themselves; they want me to feel them! Feel every pain! Every breath, every inch of it! Yet acts like you didn't felt anything! Acts like everything is normal when the first place it's not!

I didn't realize when my life became so complicated? It is really necessary to have complications in your life? It is really necessary to entrust someone; when they don't give a shit about you?

I don't know why I'm feeling like this! Something is wrong with me? Or I was exaggerated things; again? Why can't I just let go of everything easily, and behave like a normal being! Why can't I ignore things? Why this immense pain is killing me from inside?

Because we are human! And it is in our tendency to react to things.

I was so engrossed with myself that I didn't realize where was I? And someone's shadow was covering me.

"What is going on here?" Vess's sharp voice was demanding everything.

"Can anyone tell me what is going on here? Or should I kick you guys in your asses?" Again that harshness to find everything!

"She wants to complete the bet!" Cole's voice echoed in my ears, strangely it was not affecting me not at all! Maybe I'm not thinking straight, maybe I'd lost my mind.

"Bullshit! That bet was bullshit!" she screamed in horror.

But sometimes, some bullshit phrase can control your biggest shit in your life.

"You!" she yelled pointing her fist towards Cole. "you douche bag! That was your idea of making bet, isn't it?" she demanded while digging holes from her stares. "I beg to differ; I think a handsome bag can suit me! ". "Gush You-are-so-irritating," strikes she. "So, Amanda is ready to become a playgirl sounds interesting," Dylan chimed in." hey! Maybe I can teach you some of my pickup lines"

Oh no. not again! I facepalmed myself. Vess came again to my side, "stop guys!" she demanded. I get a little bit relaxed about the whole scenario. My mouth was just going to smile in response only a millisecond after what she said, she opened her mouth again, and "maybe our friend has completely lost her mind, she went crazy and she was not thinking right when she declared that she was going to complete the bet."

"No!" I screamed, "I didn't lose my mind! What I lost was opposite than that." Ok, that was not necessary to say. I should not have said that why?

"Oh-oh-oh you are not a virgin anymore? My poor baby lost her virginity." Dylan muttered while acting like he was crying. Yeah, he wiped his fake tears.

I facepalmed myself!" I-" before I could say anything, Cole beat me up, "with whom? why? I thought you were a lesbian?" Ok! He needs a punch on his face. I opened my mouth again, "I-" again got cut- this time Dylan beat me up, "dude, why would you thought that?" he asked with confusion plastered all over on his face. "Because she doesn't like me; I mean how can any girl not like Cole Maxwell? I'm every girl's fantasy the Greek god himself." Has he completely lost his mind? Thank god he didn't know that I'd like him before, but I can't control my emotions which were welled up inside, "hey Cole are you an introvert? Extrovert? Or ambivert?" I asked while waiting for him to open his mouth so that I can beat him up. "I-"I couldn't let him complete his answer, "Oh! I forget that you are a pervert."

Hands down everyone! The one and only Amanda is back, who is ready to become a playgirl!

Cole's face became red due to embarrassment, while Dylan's was laughing his ass off! And Vess she was also chuckling, but still giving me her deadly glares, when her eyes met with mine; she comprehended everything! She understood that something has happened! Something which blown away my mind, that I don't want to share in public; ahead of Cole and Dylan! She took hold of my hand and started dragging me to her room which was above the stairs.

Did I mention that, after proclaiming myself a soon to become playgirl, Cole didn't know how to react! He was not even making eye contact with me, and he was not himself, but what the best thing he did- he dragged me down to Vess's where Dylan was there already!

I'm thankful for him! But I'm not going to say this to him, like ever! I don't know why? I wouldn't ever say to him this! I mean I'm not rude. I should at least say thanks to him. ugh! This is so frustrating! When it comes to him, oh by the way you must be wondering about what happened to the whole scenario of Dylan shouting on the rooftop, and Cole's dragging him; Ha! So, what happened is Mr Bennett forgave them! I mean seriously? Mr.-I-can-kick-your-ass easily did that. Though I'm happy for them, I want to know what happened there.

"Dude, did you just laugh at me?" Cole's voice entered in my ears, like a sharpen pin. In reply Dylan started laughing so hard that he couldn't even control his stomach, so he fell off on the floor.

"Hey everyone, when Dylan, was seven years old he participated in a princess competition, and whoa she won it one guy asked him out." then he started laughing so hard. Well, not just he, me and Vess were also laughing like crazy maniac's, just think for a second about that guy who stood there in his deadly stare, dress up in a pink frock, long hairs, and a guy asking him out. The whole situation is funny in itself, but I don't think so Dylan appreciates the whole attention at him, "you asshole!" he was ready to kill him. "Whatever Dude, you still love me," and they started running, ready to punch each other's guts: Dylan towards Cole and Cole was plunging himself away from him.

"I'm not your type Cole, I have got a girlfriend; I'm not gay like you," yelled Dylan while smirking. "You can ask from the girls of the whole town; If I'm gay or not? They have very detailed information about Me." likewise, what would you expect from Cole Maxwell? Jerk, Playboy! But not anymore he's going to be a nerd. Then I would wonder what those girls say about him.

"Ugh! Shut up you both." Vess yelled while heading towards her room, but they didn't last what I heard was, "Frazier, you are so whipped!"

***

Silence! Absolute silence and it's killing me. When I recall every moment, every word of her - My head started buzzing; it's like I had something heavy on my head, which is taking away my moments of happiness.

Disgrace!

That word! That word has everything in itself! And the cherry on the cake is it has given by my mother herself. I didn't even realize when I started crying...

I don't know how long I just sit there, my hands over my face, as I'm shielding myself from everything, every word of her, and every thought of her. My mood changed spontaneously, one minute I was sad, but still chuckling at silly things, and now it's like I'd faced the reality; the reality of myself.

I want to hide, I don't show these tears, but I can't! I couldn't! They just want to flow.

I want to tell myself that I'm not afraid of anything, not of what is going to happen; I'd made all the decision by myself.

I don't know if I made the right decision.

I don't know where my life is taking me.

I don't know anything.

At least you made a decision.

And decisions can be wrong, and right. But the best thing about decisions - it gives you every opportunity to do everything by yourself.

"Amanda, god damn it tells me what happened?" when her voice entered my ears, I came out from my world. I removed my hands from my face, and finally, look up with my watery eyes in her green depth of pools.

I couldn't say anything. It's not like I don't want to say, I want to scream. I want to do anything to avoid my silence, but I can't.

My voice has got stuck in my throat, which doesn't want to come out. She came near me and started shaking my shoulders constantly, "Amanda, please say something?" She whispered with caution.

I open my mouth, but no sound came. She slides herself near me and tilts my chin up with her fingers, "tell me what happened, please?"

I wrapped my arms around her, and all the tears which were bottled up inside me came pouring out, like a storm.

***

"You sure you want to do it?" Vess whispered while soothing me out.

"Positively," uttered I.

"And I can't do anything to back you out?" she asked while raising her eyebrows sceptically.

"No. just help me, will you?" I whispered, hoping for her agreement.

"Ok." She declared.

"Ok? Is that what you want to say?" I asked with confusion, I was expecting more from her. I don't know what I was expecting from her! I don't even know what I'm thinking!

"So, what you want me to say? It is clear from your perspective that you want to do that and no one can change you; I'll help you until you realize what you are doing."

"Meanwhile, everything starts; I want to find a job, you know I can't take her money." I snickered.

"Yes. That we will do. Now, let's go otherwise they both will kill each other." She winked. But she stopped in mid-distance, "let's make you a bitch!"

"Yes. Make me a bitch!"

Yeah. I can be a bitch? Nothing is wrong with that right? Maybe, it will be fun- I can do whatever I want and no one will stop me, not even my mother! However, she doesn't have any right to stop me now from anything. Soon, I'll be eighteen; the freedom is going to be mine. I'll move out from her place and never will contact her again. Sometimes, I wonder what everyone says- parents are those who do their best for you! But the real truth is harsher than reality.

The thing that I understand from the whole event, is that no one knows what is going to happen in future! In one moment you can be happy; and the priority of your world is something else, but in a different moment; everything will become divested, shattered. And you even didn't realize how the hell that happened?

But in the end, you will know what are you going to do? Just go with the flow! Because the time of realizing right or wrong has gone!

By the way, nothing is wrong with becoming a playgirl right? After all, it is for one month? Yeah. I don't know may I can do it for more than one year. That everything which my mother doesn't wish for so that the whole concept of reputation can sink in eyes of my mother!

Now, I'm going to do everything opposite of her demand. And yeah she will be blessed to have a daughter like I'm blessed to having a mother like her.

"You look like shit." Cole's voice reaches in my ears, I tried to ignore it. Because maybe I'm looking like shit with red swollen eyes, clothes all crumbled up, and hairs were tangling every side of my face.

"Everything is decided?" Dylan's voice reached in my ears.

"Yes. From tomorrow I'll be the playgirl, and Cole will be the nerd." I declared.

"On no. not shit, you look like a pig!" he drawls, amusement radiating from him. But he needs a kick in his groan. "You should do something about your appearance if you want to pass off as a playgirl. I mean just look at me; if you want to pass on for the role you should be looking good like me; maybe you should apply some concealer to cover up those dark circles of your and some make-up-" and was blabbering on and on.

Asshole

Bloody son of a bachelor

He's very proud of his face? Isn't it! That face. Still, he was blabbering things like that! He was so lost in his world; I quickly went towards the refrigerator and picked up a carton of milk. Without thinking anything else, I hide it behind my hands and goes near him, "told you- you should do something to cover up darks circles of yours-" his breath stitched, when I went closer to him, "close your eyes," I uttered huskily. He did that, I don't know what came on him. Maybe he was waiting to happen something

Like kiss?

My sweet little voice suggested, but it's not time for that, without giving him time to back out from his place, I splashed a whole carton of milk on his asshole face.

"Holy shit"

That is the last word I heard in my remnants of laughter.

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