Hurdles of past may affect you in future....

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 "Don't go! Don't do this! Don't go please! Don't go!" A sound erupted beamingly in my ears. And my eyes flew open that was my alarm clock; I was covered in all over sweat. Again that dream, I saw again that dream! Why it is not clear? What was the reason of it! If only my, childhood hadn't had in the blur then I must recall it.

Sighing, I got up from my bed. Three days passed since, the completion of second round, yet I still don't believe that I won that round. I was little bit overwhelmed by the results of that round; hardly believing on it. Though, I gave my best, but at the last that song I sung was not good for Mr. Bennett's reputation. Ha! Thank god! He didn't know about it. It means this time luck was in my side. However, why I'm talking about luck? Is the excellent question to be arising on, so here let's start with the information of the third round! Yes third round is going to based on academics. Yes. You heard right! We will have to give a written test; based on our knowledge of studies; whatever we studied in our school life so far. That will carry the burden of hundred marks. Ever you wonder what these hundred marks will do with your life. How can it make huge difference in your life? If not! Then we belong in same categories of life! Now, I know this is the do, or die situation. I know my power of academics is good in fact very good, but still when you have that much pressure on your head, simple things looks complicated rather than easy going things.

Nevertheless, Veronica, and Cole were going to be in third round. Oh! One more person I know is also going to be in third round, and that is Nathan.

I didn't saw his performance, but I heard about it, and what I heard was excellence. He played drums in his performance. I wish I was able to see it. If only I was not got stuck at the janitor's room. HA! That person who did a prank on me is still has no idea that if one day I'll caught him or her, I'll make him/her regret it.

But how long it would take to find out? That I don't know. One thing I never forget in my life is Veronica's reaction! When result was announced, and my name was got called- her reaction was priceless! As she had seen a ghost with her naked eyes, by the way it looked like she was more curious about my result rather than her. Ah! What a blissful moment that was! Yeah, her reaction kind of caught me off guard, but Cole's reaction was on extreme level of awkwardness. Yes, he actually smiled when my name announced, though it looked like a calculated smile, as he don't want to show his true emotions on his face. Nevertheless, Dylan reacted like an idiot! Why? Because he remarked that If Cole gets a title then he will snatch away the trophy from him, and if I won then he will also snatch mine's. As that is going to happen? Well can it?

You know. You can!

Just to make things fun, I asked him, "If veronica won then? What will you do?" for that question he replied, "It is not going to happen! But if it happened, unfortunately then he'll shout on top of the school building that the middle aged bald man sucks, and will never gets fucks " I just hope he was joking about it.

Nevertheless, the whole trauma of everything makes me exhausted, yet here I'm seated at one of the couch which was ahead of television, quickly I rested my legs on the medium sized coffee table which was placed between the television and couches. This whole competition thing makes me nuts from the last few days, everything is so buckled up, yet devastating like a new chapter of life which came across to giving me a surprise.

HA! I sighed. Again; just one more step then everything will be back to its original place. I started flipping channels to channels through remote of television, but nothing got attention of mine. How come I didn't notice that I almost live all alone! My mother always got stuck in her work. And sibling word doesn't belong in my dictionary; not in blood related. And my father? Well what should I say him? Dad or David Parker?

It doesn't matter.

Yup! It doesn't matter! When it had didn't mattered before then it will definitely not matter now! Especially on this time, but still he will always remains my father weather he abandoned us years ago, and cheated on mom. If only he didn't do that well all will be living here, as family and enjoying each and every blissful moments about life. But that was only possible in dreams of nights, when there will be only dark outside; no other exact opportunity or source of anything that will happen in real life.

A tear started rolling down my cheeks flawlessly, without giving me any source of information that they are going to spilled out from  corner of my eyes.

Great just great! Now, I'm crying. HA! And that is not that much bad, what worse than that is for whom I'm crying? I'm an idiot really!

Shut up!

I quickly wiped back my tears quickly, and I tried to smile to reassuring myself that I don't need my father! If he didn't cared about his own daughter!

My stomach started growling, making noises, as yelling that whoa! Dude I'm dying here and what you are doing making soap opera scenes. Give me food! Otherwise I'll faint you.

I took out my cell phone from my pocket, "here, take my orders give me two large sized pepperoni pizzas with a big bottle of coke, as soon as possible.''

Are you sure? You want to eat that much?

Yes. Pretty much in fact! Now don't make me come inside and beat the shit out of you.

Do you want to punch yourself? If yes, then be my guest.

Crap! I mentally slapped myself. I am becoming weird day by day! Holy Crap! Something is wrong with me. I need ice that will definitely help in my situation. I again redialed that number," add two tubs of butterscotch into my order! And make it ASAP!''

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"Coming!" I shouted. As I make my way towards the door. My dinner has been arisen finally! I opened door which is opened by with a sudden sound of click.

Ok! So feast is here. Time to attack! I don't care if I put on weight or anything like that. Today I'll eat all of this. Though if didn't eat this now, then it will get waste. And yeah! I don't like to waste my food. Not in a billion dreams. Huh! Time to start eating all these delicious things, which are only the best things in my life! Right now!

I attacked on food like I have never eaten before. Though if I think about it; it can be partly true! This whole competition thing has loosed my appetite. Nevertheless, everything is going to be back normal soon. HA! Just two more days, then Cross River High will get its Student of Year, and school will be going to again normal, like it was before.

Really?

Yup, off course! I mean what worse can happen now. All the dilemma of pressure, fighting, and cutting each other throats will going to end soon.

Let's see.

Oh everything will be going to fine! Don't need to overreact, because it's time to attack on food. One by one I finished everything! Well I was stupid if I thought that I could eat this much, my stomach is full ! Like on high level full .I don't even have a space for single drop of water, yet I enjoyed it. It was not that much worse .I just need to walk for some time that will manage my situation. I know I sound diplomatic, but tomorrow is third round, the written test. And I don't want to poison my stomach! It would be better if I start walking now!

I stood up and started roaming around my whole house! It is not that much big, but it's also not that much small, so it can help me in my situation.

I only completed one round of the whole house when my cell-phone beat me up. It was continually ringing and ringing, and the worst part is that I forget it on Coffee table, so I had to run from the back side of the house into the living area.

My heart was continuously pondering, due to sudden movements of legs. Finally! I reached here on time, and picked it up before it got cut, "Amanda Parker where was you? Don't tell me you have been studying!'' Vass complained from the other side of the cell-phone.

Why would I be studying? When I already had studied everything! "That thing I already did! Vanessa Frazier." I mumble while smirking.

"Shut up!" she uttered while chuckling, oh I can see from my third eye that she has gotten completely red now. And I started chuckling too, before I could say anything she beat me up, "you need to be laid," and I can tell her smirk was on her face.

Do I need to be laid?

Ummm Maybe!

I face palmed myself," That will I do definitely, but after your marriage!'' What? This is the best comeback I could ever think of at this moment. She was silent first then again, "Deal it is then! The day I'll marry, you will get laid!'' oh I can feel her smirk with her mischievous looks in her eyes.

Nevertheless, it is not a bad deal," deal it is then." I accepted." We did our future planning now listen me first, Tomorrow is a party!'' she whispered. Ok! Party and I? we don't go in same place sanely! That thing I know definitely about that whole scenario. Whatsoever, Isn't tomorrow is the third round? "Wait! But tomorrow is the final round of that competition! Don't you remember?" I asked in a hushed tone. "Silly! Party is going to be held on evening, and third round will be going to be held on in morning.'' Now! I'm seriously stupid. Off course it will be going on stage in evening, I mean the whole party will start on evening. But why? This party came in scene. Well forget about why? The most important question on the earth is how? It came in scene! "Why? When? How? This party thing came in scene." I demanded to know. "geez! Relax one question at one time! So this is going to held because of the finish of that stupid competition! I mean our school's student's life became hectic because of this. That's why they want something to change their mind and enjoy. You know all teenage things. besides, day after tomorrow is the day of the results, everyone will be worry about it, and they will became mad for the dilemma of it and they will flustered themselves then they want to drink and drink and drink! Well that's not the worst thing! Soon, all the drinks from the market will be finished! So they will start drinking bloods, and just the slight drop of it make us vampire. You know! Right we are going to become vampires. That bloody fucking pamps fucks with each other's blood" what? Ewe! Fucks with blood. My friend has completely lost her mind, and this is the shittiest thing I have ever heard. She was breathing hard, as she has said all this nonsense in one breath. "First of all I am not going to become vampire but you will definitely, if you keep watching some nonsense shows. And you want to get drunk? Aren't you?" I asked with a smirk. "Shhh! And listen to your mother tomorrow evening is a party, you are coming! And yes. I want you to come in a simple dress not in pants and shirts. I'll pick you up tomorrow at six in the evening. You know right tomorrow other than the participants of competition can't come to school. That's why I'm telling you all this right now! By the way don't miss me much.'' And without hearing my reply she cut off the line.

Ok. It's just a party! It's not going to be like last time right? Anyways, the whole problem created that time is the mask thing and off course the sweet little me. But this time it's going to be different and not everyone going to give me curious glances; well I don't care about them now! But still I am the finalist of the competition, and that party is going to held because of this whole thing. So, I have every right to go on there. Besides, it will change my mood and helps to relax before the whole trauma of results of the competition. Above all, mom is not here, otherwise she will kill me but she's not here. The last sign of me going into a party is; I'm tired of living alone. It will help me to change my mood.

Yes. I'm going now. I only need to find a dress.

What about Cole?

What about him?

He's also going to be there!

Then let him be. My life is not focused on him! And yes. I don't care about his presence. Besides I need to find dress like now. So I'm going to focus on that.

Keep saying yourself that!

Oh! Not again! Don't need to exaggerate! Let me focus on finding a suitable dress for party. So where should I go? Should I go to shopping outside? That thought of mine quickly swept away as fast as it came, I'm not in any kind of mood to go shopping; besides I don't even know anything about the whole shopping thing! It would be better if I found anything perhaps suitable in my house.

Mom's room!

Oh yes. I almost forget about it. Mom has a full suitcase of dresses, and she is not here so I can use them. Besides I have never seen mom to wear anything from it. Yep. Yep. Yep. Problem solved.

I hurried to go to mom's room which was other side of my room; her room is way much bigger than mine, though she hardly lives here, but still everything is so full furnished here, one might thought that she practically does everything by herself!

However, I skeptically managed to take my footsteps near her cupboard, HA! I know that I'm little dramatic here, but can you blame me? She always said that in fact she ordered that; don't go near her room everything was in professional stuff there. And I've a very notorious habit of never placing things at their original place.

However, I need to be quick. Without thinking anything else, I opened cupboard of my mother's wardrobe, but nothing fancy there! 'Where were those dresses?' I mumbled to myself.

Shit! They were on the suitcase which is placed on the cupboard. Yes, that suitcase was here I only need to take it from its place. I grabbed one of stool which was stood proudly near the window, and placed it near cupboard. Then I stood above it and grabbed that suitcase which held many dresses.

'Uff!' I flicked sweat which was formed on my forehead. Finally! I opened that suitcase, and the whole wardrobe of every girl's dream opened in front of me. Well may be I'm exaggerating! Nevertheless, I took out one by one dress from the suitcase; in a search of finding one simple dress.

Dresses went by went, but nothing is simple in there, they are high classed and elegant, not made up for a teenager party. Still I didn't loosed hope, and finally I got a perfect dress for me, which was resting herself on the corner side of suitcase in a folded state.

That dress which completely changed my mood is something else! I mean it is mustard color dress that would be reaching on my knees, strapless, and a neck design any one would die for! Yes. Everything is settled now.

I tried to place that suitcase where it was situated before; but I misbalanced it and it collided with the end side of cupboard, the whole cupboard was buzzed like a tornado. Thank god that suitcase didn't open; otherwise I need to readjust everything. I quickly grabbed it again and placed it on its place. The whole thing was a mess! Some envelopes from cupboard had been landed on the floor.

'Here we go again!' I muttered while stomping on my foot exasperatedly.

I picked up those envelopes one by one, but hey there was something in there, in fact at floor also! Maybe they are pictures, yep definitely pictures. I picked one of them from the floor the slightest touch of it make my hands cold.

And what was there in the photograph?

Me! Small little me in an orange frock, my small fingers were tightly lingered on my dad's hand.

'Dad' I whispered. I couldn't breathe, I was choking not because of hatred, and in fact it is for emotions that were welled up inside me.

This was the first time I've seen his picture with me. I can't remember him by his face; I got to know it by the back side of the photograph where DAVID PARKER was written.

I have the same eyes like him, blue eyes; ocean blue eyes. However, he looked young and happy carefree! As he had everything with him!

Then why he left? Why he left you? Why he abandoned you? Why he cheated on your mother?

Why? I don't know. It's just I don't know these questions were never occurred in my mind! But I'll do something in future to know the reasons of it.

I took the second photograph; then again me with dad, but hey there was someone also in that picture, a boy of mine age. Who is he?

Why I can't remember all this?

Simple! You were very small back then when it all happened.

Yeah. I was four years old at that time. That's why my childhood is in blur.

It is really difficult to have a normal life? To have a normal family? Or to live happily? The only thing I wish for is a family in which everyone will be happy. But not every wish is commanded, and things happen according to time, fate, whatever.

Its past midnight! You should sleep, tomorrow is the final day of crushing each other throats.

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"WELCOME TO THE STUDENT OF THE YEAR COMPETITON!"

"ARE YOU READY? TO BE ON TOP! TO BE ON NUMBER ONE! THEN LET'S START THE LAST ROUND HERE."

"AND YOUR TIME STARTS NOW!"

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