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CHAPTER 05 | THE LOST SOUL

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(y/n)'s POV:

"Someone got some boring hobby. Hahahaha," A boy with a group of friends behind him walked towards me as I draw on my sketchpad, laughing at me.

I stopped my hand's movement on the paper, and gave a death glare to them. In their surprise, they backed off a bit, and narrowed his eyebrows, looking so annoyed. I really hate people like them. Those people who thinks they have all-over authority. Those who thinks they are superior to eveyone and everything.

"What's with that look, you brat?!" He yelled as growled at me, but I really didn't care less.

"A brat calling someone a brat." I scoffed. "You have some guts, brat." I declared in a teasing manner, smirking at him. I am clearly pissing him off, which I successfully executed.

"What--! You!" He burst with anger, gritting his teeth. He then took my sketchpad, and torn my masterpiece in pieces.

"Ha! Better know your place, you spoiled brat." He and his friends laughed at his action, which made me angrier. How dare him...

I felt tears escape my right eye, seeing my hard work torn into pieces. I crumple the pieces in my hands, feeling every intent to punch the bully in front of me.

"Aww! The crybaby is-"

"Hey!" A boy interrupted the bully, and ran towards us. "That's enough!" He then stepped between me and the bully, creating a wall. He's tall. Since I am sitting at the floor, I can see that his height is not ordinary for a 5 year old child.

"What did you say?" The bully raised one of his eyebrows, looking so irritated. And so, the grabbed the boy's collar, pulling him up.

"I said, stop bullying (y/n)! You ugly bastard!" He yelled at that 'ugly bastard', resulting him to be punched by the bully.

...Wait, he knows my name?

The boy fell on the ground with a large impact, causing his nose to bleed a lot. His eyes are wide open, and are clearly surprised that his nose bleeds. I clench my fist, feeling so angry. Why? I don't even know.

I handed the boy a white handkerchief, and stood up in front of him. He was left dumbfounded as I face the tall bully in front of me. I gripped my pencil tight at my right hand, calming myself from being scared.

They were laughing, but stopped at the moment I stepped in front of the ugly brat.

"Well, well. Look at this. A girl protecting a boy. How cute--"

"Say one more word and I'll thrust this pencil right into that swelling throat of yours." In a half second, I grabbed his shirt, pulled him close to me and pointed my well-sharpen pencil on his throat.

He looked at me with fear in his eyes, and start forming beads of sweat on his deformed face. His friends ran and left him in shock and terror, as I gave off a lot of blood lust.

"I-I-I-I'm so sorry!!!!" He yelped like a girl, escaped my grab on him, and ran away like girl as well.

"Tsk." I rolled my eyes as I kneel on the ground, picking up the pieces of paper. And as I expected, people around me again started to whisper things and looked at me with unpleasantness in their eyes.

I picked up my things, as I feel my tears roll on my cheeks. I walk in a fast pace, heading towards my gazebo and even walked passed through the boy who bled his nose.

Why...why do they always see me as the bad one? Tsk. This is why I hate peo--

"Wait." Someone stopped me from walking, and lets me go. Yeah, he did let go, so I ran. But I heard his footsteps following me to the gazebo. Dammit! Why is following me?!

"Hey! Where are you going??" He yelled but I didn't bother to answer him.

When we reached the gazebo, I stopped and so did he. I'm now letting a lot of tears escape my eyes. Damn it.

"H-hey--"

"What?!" I heard my voice crack from crying, and looked back on that someone, with tears overflowing on my cheeks.

"Uh, eh...um... I-I just wanna say thank you for helping me..." He looked down, as he fondles with the blood-filled handkerchief I gave him earlier.

"W-whatever..." I tried to be rude in front of him but, I can't stop my tears from falling.

"H-hey. Are you o-oka--"

"Why?! Why am I always the bad one?! Is it because I look like a killer?! Well, for their information, I haven't killed someone yet!!" I let all my complaints burst out my mouth, and let them be heard by the boy, who's the first ever person saw me crying.

"Why--" He then suddenly hugged me, patting my back. With him doing this, I feel more like crying, and I did. I hugged him back, crying my lungs out.

* * * *

He did comfort me a lot, and it did a lot of help to relieve me.

"T-thank y-you." I murmured as I wipe my tears. I feel so better right now.

"You're welcome." He smiled sweetly and patted my head. Why...why did he comfort me...why did he face that bully even though he's such a coward? I want to ask him. But I can't bring myself to do so. So, I only asked one question to sum up all this confusion going in my mind.

"Can I ask you a question?" I started.

"Sure." He replied.

"How did you know my name?" His eyes widen as soon as he heard my words.

"Uh...um, it's kinda embarrassing to say..." His face turned like a fresh picked tomato, looking at different directions. He's kinda cute. I wonder why. Well, I'm not pushing him to tell.

"It's okay. Don't tell me of you don't want to." I said as I closed my eyes, exhaling deep.

"O-okay..." He grinned as he scratches his head. "Oh, by the way, my name's Siel. Siel Gonde. Nice to meet you!" He lends out his hand to me, as I looked at him, then at his hand, then at him again.

"Uh..." I hesitated a little, but I accepted his cheerful greeting, and we shake hands. "I-I'm (f/n) (l/n). Nice to meet you too."

And that's how I met Siel, and the start of our friendship. I can't ever forget that day. It's a very special day. Not just it's when I and Siel met, but also for the reason that it was the day of my birth. Our friendship may not last for more than a year, but we made memories more than long-term friendships, like others.

And that's why in this very situation, it's hurting me a lot. Just...what on earth happen to Siel?!

"Siel!" I ran towards him to make the berserk best friend of mine stop killing the teens and children. I can't take it anymore. I don't wanna see a child die anymore right in front of my very eyes.

I activated my nen, and let the overwhelming power take over me. I took out my scythe--which was disguised as a pen-- and transformed it back to its natural form. And just before he could chop off Faith-chan's head off, I ran to him and deflected his butcher knife, causing him to let go of Faith-chan's hair.

"Faith! Are you alright?!" I kneel down to her, checking if she was okay, but all my eyes saw was fear. Terror. I saw myself in her.

"(Y/n)..." Her whole body shook, and her hands vibrate as she raised it up.

"Help--" Before she could finish her statement, she became headless, and left me a sight of a bloodied neck, and a headless corpse on my arms.

She died. Right in front of me.

"Muahahaha!" Siel let out an evil laugh, filled with joy and glory. It clearly made me mad, super mad. But somehow, it kinda made me...sad. "Long live Astra!!!" He proclaimed with his roaring voice, causing me to cover my ears. And as I thought, his voice was used to distract me. Out of the sudden, Siel kicked me, and sent me flying across the room, and landed hard on the concrete stage.

"Ahh!" I screamed in pain as I feel my ribs crack in the impact. Damn it! It hurts a lot!

But this no time for whining and complaining. I need to move fast. Or else, he'll kill every last one person, kids in this very room. I need to protect them. Even if it includes killing my best friend.

"K-killua!!" I yelled, but not the loud. Because of my injury, it's not letting me to use my full strength. "Killua!!!" He's not responding! Where is he?!

"Damn it. It seems that I have to do this myself." Even it hurts like hell; I let my nen turn into the 'Hatsu' mode, grabbed my scythe on my hands, and took off with a serious speed, heading towards the monster.

"Siel!! Stop at once!" I attacked as I tried to slice his hands off, but I failed to do so. Instead, he grabbed the blade of my scythe, and turned the tables around. Swiftly, my blade and I changed positions. He then raised his arm, and tried to stab in my face. But thanks to my attitude of being very cautious, I was able to evade his attack, and hit my arm instead with the blade he was holding.

"Ack!" He lets go of me, and fell on the floor. The impact was supported with nen, so his attack made me cough blood on the ground.

"Feeling so confident, (y/n)?! HAHAHAHA," Siel laughed like crazy with his vibrating, deep voice.

"I don't understand," I murmured as I again coughed blood from my mouth. "Huh?" He hummed.

"Why are you doing this?!" I yelled as I stood up slowly, painfully.

"Oh, this? Ha! I'm making a sacrifice for the Mighty Astra! Long live Astra!!" He raised both of his hands, like he's worshipping a god.

"Astra?? Who's Astra?!" I asked as wield the blade in a slow pace, because of my bleeding injury. I can't kill him. I'm still hesitating.

He dodged my attack easily, grabbed my hair, and punched my belly. He's always catching me off guard. Get yourself together, (y/n)! You need to defeat him! He'll kill us all if you don't!

I coughed blood once again, and the fresh red blood reminded me of Faith's and the other teens, kid's death. Faith... Kids...

I can feel my whole body warp up in anger. My nen changed its color. I can feel the power all over my body.

"Astra's a mighty, strong, glorified goddess!!!" He grinned creepily, and blood came out his weird eyes. I didn't bother to ask him anymore. I've heard enough. I can't hear his voice anymore. I don't want to. It just makes me think a second thought. That's why I've decided to kill him immediately. He's gone mad. I can't see any way to turn him back to normal. I'm so sorry, Siel.

I charged in a fast pace and swing my weapon around the air, and played tricks on my hand. I twirled it around as I jumped high, and moved as fast as I can so it could look that I vanished in his sight.

"Sentria Decomitus." I chanted something and an unknown substance wrapped around my weapon's blade, and rapidly chopped off Siel's right arm. I do that sometimes. Chanting unknown words. It doesn't bother me though. I'm used to it. Even though I don't know where it came from, I still use it. I only use it for emergencies.

"Grh!!" Siel groaned in pain, as he watches his detached arm flying on air.

"You cheeky bastard!!!" He rose up his palm, and charged an attack fast and sent it directly to me. I focused my nen on my scythe, and used it as a shield. The attack resulted smoke, and it filled the room full. Darn it! I can't see anything!

"Tritum Bastium! " I heard Siel's whispering voice behind me but, it was too late to defend myself.

He gave me a powerful punch at my back. Tsk! I fell on the ground, creating a crater on the concrete. I wasted no second, and twirled my scythe into a path of circle to extinguish all the smoke. Once it's gone, I can clearly see Siel. Wait, he's no Siel anymore. He's a demon. A monster.

He grew a pair of creepy big bat wings, a horn, and his whole skin color changed into pale green. As I observe him, I feel tears form in my eyes, clouding my view. Siel...what happened? What happened to the angelic you? What happened to that sweet smile of yours?

...What happened to my best friend?

I bit my lip as I looked down, giving my scythe a strong grip. "Long live Astra!!!!!" The monster yelled. Stop it...

This time, without hesitation, I charged with all my power, strength, and targeting to slice off his head as soon as possible.

I wield my scythe very fast at him continually, glaring at him with teary eyes. He's dodging my attacks, but cuts and scratches are still given. Not very long enough, I was able to detach his left foot, and he fell on the ground.

"I'm so sorry, Siel." I said as I pointed the blade of my scythe on his neck.

"Sorry?" He whispered. My eyes widen as he shows me that sweet smile that the old Siel usually uses. Seeing it, I can feel my knees tremble as flashback of memories of me and he came back into my mind.

"(Y/n), watch out!!" I heard a familiar voice, which made me look where the voice came from. "Narukami! " He yells as his lighting hit the flying detached foot flying towards me, burning it to ashes. I fell on my knees and let the demon escape my sight.

"Killua..." I murmured as I let some salty droplets escape from my eyes.

"Holy crap (y/n)!!" He screeched as he kneels in front of me, with worry and anger written all over his face. "What happened?! Who did this?!" He shouts as he looked at my injuries.

"Killua..." Was the only words I muttered as I felt cold liquid flowing down on my cheeks. "He's gone..." I said as my voice stammer.

He looked at me with widen eyes, and narrows them immediately. "Damn that Siel..." He mumbled. He stood up and turned his Godspeed on again.

"Stay right here." He stated. "Where are you going??" I asked as I stood up as well.

"I'm gonna kill that moron--"

"Let me do it." I responded as I pulled the hem of his shirt and looked at him with seriousness in my eyes.

"But--"

"Please." I begged. He looked at me, and then looked away. "F-fine." I let go of his shirt, and picked up my scythe, turning on my nen.

"But, I'm going with you." Killua said as he then suddenly carried me in a bridal form.

"H-hey! What are you doing?!" I yelped as I felt my face warm up. Damn you, Killua! We don't have time for this!

"Save up your energy killing that monster. I'll carry you to him." He replied, not looking at me. "O-oh, I see." I said as I felt Killua ran at a fast pace--as expected--and found Siel in no time.

The monster itself is weakening. His wings melted with holes, two of his horns disappeared, and his skin turned back to normal. To sum it up, he returned at looking human again. Killua puts me down, as I can feel my broken ribs' pain take effect.

"Ah!" I feel in my knees, and in front of the weak Siel. Killua was about to help me again, but Siel finally spoke, with his normal voice.

"(y/n)?" He murmured. "Is that you?" He sat up a little, showing his face with lots of blood and cuts. His eyes were back to his old brown ones, and looked at me like he did back then.

"Yeah." I replied as I crawl near him.

"Oi!--" Killua tried to stop me, but I didn't let him do so. "It's okay." I responded. He looked worried, but he just nodded at me.

"Am I the one who did that all to you?" Siel said in a very weak voice, as I let his head lay down on my lap.

"Well, I guess so." I replied. "What happened?" I asked as well.

"I don't know but--" He coughed green blood out from his mouth, making his own eyes widen.

"But what?" I continued.

"I'm dying." He said with a guilty smile plastered on his lips. I knew it. "But before I die," he said as he placed on of his hand cheek, with tear slowly coming out of his eyes. "I want you to know how much I love you, (y/n). You're the only one I've paid my attention to. I love you so much, (f/n) (l/n)." He said as he pulled my face closer to him and planted a kiss on my forehead.

"Siel..." I mumbled under my breath, and tears from my eyes dropped onto his face.

"I'm so happy that I met you, (y/n)." He weep as well as he showed his angelic smile of his as he do.

"M-me too..." I felt his hand held onto mine, as more tears dropped on his face. He then handed me a knife, making me stop sobbing. No... Not right now.

"(Y/n)." Siel called.

"Y-yes?" I replied.

"Will you do me a favor?" He asked. Be strong, (y/n).

"Will you kill me right now, with this knife?" He smiled like it's a good thing, giving me the knife on his bloodied hands.

"Siel..."

"I can remember it all. All the teens and children that I murdered. All that people whom I stomped under my feet. Even you. That moment when I am beating you up. Please. I want to forget all of that. And the only solution for it is killing me." He pleaded as he tightly gripped my hand.

I looked at him with pity in my eyes. I can't do it. I just can't--

"Hurry, (y/n)! Before I turn back to being a demon. I beg of you. I don't want soul to die anymore," He shouted as tears flowed down his eyes.

Killua then held my hand, and looked at me. "I'll do it with you." He said and looked at the dying Siel. "Thank you." Siel said with no voice, and Killua gripped my hand tight.

I closed my eyes as Killua pointed the tip of the knife's blade onto his chest.

"Thank you for everything." I said as I and Killua thrust the knife to his chest, and pool of fresh red blood formed.

"I love you, (y/n)..." Was the last thing Siel murmured on his last breath.

"You did it." Killua said.

"Yeah." I replied. Now Siel can rest in peace.

Killua stood up, brushing off the dust on his pants that he's wearing. Out of the sudden, he bend his knees and turned his back on me. "Come on. I'll carry you."

"T-thanks." I said as I climbed on him, and carried me on his back. I can hear sirens not from far away, and some people are walking around the room. Some are injured, some are dead. Killua left the room without anyone noticing, and for me, everything went black.

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"Some of her ribs are still broken, but the injury on her arm is already healed. It's kinda still early, but you can already bring her home." A woman says.

"Okay, thanks." Then a familiar voice replied.

"Well then, if you may excuse me." Someone opened the door, and closed it.

"You awake?" He said.

I chuckled and scoffed. "You can tell?" I opened my eyes and saw the white haired assassin standing in front of me.

"Yup." He replied as he sat at the char nearby the bed I'm on. It seems like I'm in a hospital.

"How long am I unconscious?"

"Almost 4 days." He answered as he plays with my black hair beside him.

"Oh."

"It wasn't a dream." He stated as he looked at me. Then, scenes and memories came back at me. All those bloody scenery... It wasn't a dream.

"I see..." Tears start forming in my eyes, and rolled down slowly on my cheeks. He's dead. He's gone. The one soul who got lost.

"I'm sorry." He suddenly sprouted out as he places his forehead on my hand, and felt tears wetting my fingers.

"Huh? Sorry for what?" I asked in confusion, as he grabbed my hand and held it tight.

"I wasn't there at the time you needed me the most. I was outside. I couldn't get in. There's some barrier surrounding that room. If I haven't went outside, I should've been at your side and you wouldn't be hurt like this... I'm so sorry, (y/n)." He was crying. In front of me.

I was not able to say anything at that time , but my reflex acted and my arms immediately wrapped around his neck, and hugged him tight.

"(y/n)..." He mumbled.

"None of this was your fault, Killua. It's all in me. I was being weak. Distracted. My own clumsiness took me in these positions right now. You shouldn't blame you self, Killua-sama." I stated.

"Y-yeah." He suddenly broke out of the hug, and I noticed that his face is bright red, turning his back on me.

"Siel is one lucky guy." He stated. "Huh?" I tilt my head in confusion. What the hell is he saying?

"Nothing." He smiled at me, which somehow, melted my heart.

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A day after, I was discharged at the hospital, and currently, we are riding on bullet train to who-knows-where. My master isn't spitting any word when I asked him where we are going next. Tsk.

"Killua."

"Hm?" He hum, still not looking at me. His eyes are closed and he's sitting next to me.

"Where on earth are we going?" I stated, a little bit annoyed.

"I don't know." He replied in such a bored tone, which even irritated me more.

"If you don't spit it out, I'm gonna punch you in your face." He doesn't response. Argh. He is really testing my patience!

"Oi! Don't you dare ignore me, you spoiled brat! Hey! I'm talking to you--"

"Ice cream...nom nom nom..." The assassin's head fell on my shoulder, murmuring something. Ah! He fell asleep! Argh.

"More chocolate~ Nom nom nom..." He mumbled again.

"Pfft...hahahaha..." I can't believe it! This killer assassin is dreaming about sweets?! Hahahaha! Somebody help me! I can't stop laughing!

"How cute." I giggled as I let his head rest on my lap, brushing his silver hair away from his face. Such an innocent face. A face that you don't often see at an assassin.

"(y/n)..." He called out my name as he grinned mischievously. "I want you." Wait, what?!

I felt my whole face warm up. He said it so clearly! Is h-he even dreaming?!

"(y/n)." He once again called me with his husky voice, which sent chills on my spine. "I--"

"Kyaaaaaaaaah!!!" I yelped as I accidentally pushed him off the seat, and fell on the train's floor. What on earth is he saying?!

"Ow! Damn it! (y/n)!" He placed his hand on the back of his head, rubbing it.

"You pervert!" My face turned red as red as blood, and threw things at him. Ahh! Goosebumps! Goosebumps!

"Wha-- Stop it!" He yelled.

"No! Get away from me, you stupid pervert!!"

"I said--"

"Will both of you shut up?!" One of the passengers like us yelled, and it did make us stop screaming. "Sorry." I respond.

I sat on my seat, with my face still flustered as hell. Killua sat beside me, feeling so awkward.

"Well, well, look at my butler's face! It's all red! Hahaha," Killua teased as he whispered, poking my face. Get away! Get away from meh!

My face grew redder the more I felt his skin touching me. Why am I acting like this?! Argh, it's his entire fault!

Killua stopped poking me, which made me look at him. And at my surprise, he was blushing red too. I'm not gonna deny it, but he's freaking adorable!

"S-sorry." He shutter as he brushed up his hair, deeply sighing.

"I-It's f-fine." I replied. Gah. Why am I shuttering as well?!

And as the train's wheel made noise, a deafening silence came between us.

Third Person's POV:

Darn it! She got away! Again! Astra slammed her palm against the desk, feeling so irritated.

"You! You! You! And you!" She yelled as she points at her demon slaves. All that she called took a step near her desk, all shaking in fear by looking at her green fire gleaming eyes.

"Go and search for her! Find her at once! Bring her to me, alive!" Astra commanded with her powerful voice.

"Y-yes, Mighty Astra!" 4 demon monsters took off at the goddess' command, and exited the room.

"Damn it all! I'm gonna find you! Just wait and see (y/n)."
 

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[A/N:] Yehheeeey after all this months!! ♥♥

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