A lot of times, you wonder if there is anyone out there who gave a damn. Who actually cared enough about you to make a difference in how you thought. Cause a lot of times, when she felt like nothing was working and she wanted to give up... This thought would hit her... What if one day there is someone like that. It felt like a far off dream. Who would like someone like her? Someone who hates her body,but tries to be positive about it... And it becomes a scary thought that people wouldn't actually care for someone that ugly... Right? Someone who likes loneliness but the moment it starts getting overwhelmed, she runs for some warmth and comfort. Who loves relationships but is afraid of commitment. Where she wants everyone to trust her so that she can be there for them, but she herself can't trust anybody let alone herself. Where she tries to solve everyone else's problems, but sometimes... That's all that it becomes... And no one would listen to her. Where she likes being independent but is scared of it. Her life... Was a big bundle of ironies... And she cried and laughed and danced her way out of it... Just to meet that special person... If ever they were out there... And on nights like these, when it piles up way too much inside of her, and she lets it out the only way she knows how to... She thinks of this imaginary person... Who is waiting out there... Just to be there for her... And that thought calms her down as she gets down from the high of letting it all out