I felt better, Taehyung was a balm to my emotional broken heart.  I knew he was a great guy and I wanted to be his friend.  Tae got up to leave and I followed him to the doorway to say our goodbyes.  As Tae got closer for a brief hug, I genuinely felt affection for him.  It was nice but he didn't bring out the same feelings of longing that Yoongi did.

By the time he left, I felt like my old self again, excited about the upcoming party. I wanted to call my friends and ask them to go shopping for an outfit with me. 

Summer was swiftly turning into autumn and it was starting to get chilly at night. Tae put on his leather gloves and wrapped a scarf around his neck getting ready to hop on his motorcycle. I waved bye to him but remained outside caught up in my own thoughts admiring the brief but amazing moments before the sun finally set for the night. Unknown to me another person was watching every nuance of my movements.

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"You found someone else and I fell apart" ...The Good Side

Yoongi was stunned by her beauty at that moment. It hit him hard how much he really liked Jennie. He also knew his mother would not approve of her, seeing Jennie as "the help." Yoongi wanted to talk to her. He was sure his mother must have said something to her to make her act that way. She was too emotional and crestfallen when she walked back into his room to get Hwan. Every time he wanted to tell her how he felt, he remembered that she considered him just a friend. She made it clear to him that she liked Taehyung so finding him at her house just now was not surprising, but it still shook him.

Yoongi had hoped Jennie liked him as much as he was starting to like her. He loved spending time with Jennie because he felt he could be himself with her. The qualities of a person matter,  but not as much as how they make you feel when you're with them.  He wanted to tell her how good she made him feel.

Once again, he stopped himself short of talking to her. Unable to move from that spot, he stared at her house wondering which window belonged to her. As he looked up, he noticed a string of twinkle-lights turning on in one of the windows. Then he saw her face lit by the soft light looking out. From that vantage point, she could clearly see him. He decided not to hide himself and instead looked into her eyes. She stared back at him and he thought, I want more.

They stayed like that for a while, transfixed in the moment. She finally turned away from the window. She hurried down the stairs to catch him before he could leave. The anticipation making her heart race more than the speed of her decent. She quickly opened the door and was relieved to see his platinum hair shining under the stars that sparkled above.

"Yoongi, why did you come?"

"I wanted to see you.... you seemed upset.  Are you okay?"

I smiled at his worried countenance. "I'm alright thank you.  You're such a good friend."  

I stepped closer, closing the distance between us ready to give him a brief kiss on his lovely cheek.  Yoongi came up to meet me like a tentative cat coming closer for a tempting treat.  Before he could retreat, I laced my arm with his and pulled him towards the door inviting him to have dinner with my family.  With a sidelong glance, he followed me up the steps and into the cozy living room.  He smiled warmly as I introduced him to my family.  My mom was quick to offer him a drink as my dad offered the seat next to him.  

Yoongi spoke animatedly getting everyone's attention as our guest of honor.  After dinner, I busied my self slicing a piece of my mother's apple cake for him, as my mom went to fetch the pot of coffee.  Yoongi ate every bite making my mother smile with pride and happiness.  When we were done, he helped me clear the table, and then we moved back to the living room by ourselves. 

Jennie started, "I'm glad you came over, but why were you standing outside."

Yoongi looked down at his hands, "I saw Taehyung.  What did he want?"

"He invited me to his birthday party," I said excitedly.

"Oh."  Yoongi seemed annoyed, his expression changing.  He acted restlessly and clicked his tongue as if he couldn't find the words to tell me something.

I edged nearer not wanting to be overheard by my parents and whispered.  "Yoongi, I was going to tell you tomorrow but I'm glad you came. I feel more comfortable telling you here. Your mom doesn't want us hanging out. She says your girlfriend is jealous..."

Yoongi interrupted, "I'm sorry Jennie, my mom is very controlling. She even wants to decide who I date or hang out with."

"Yoongi, ... Did she pick your girlfriend?" I muttered.

"She introduced us. Seulgi is very sweet but I'm not in love with her." Yoongi revealed staring into my eyes slowly getting closer as if he couldn't help himself. He kissed me and for a wondrous moment, the stars in the sky shined brighter, but I knew it was wrong.

"Yoongi, you warned me about Taehyung yet you're the one kissing me when you have a girlfriend."

"Yes, but I don't love her. I'm sure now."

"If you like me, then break up with her." 

"I'm sorry but it's complicated.  I want to be upfront with our relationship, but I don't know if I can," he said cautiously.

My hopes were raised but then dashed with his reply.  Nothing had changed.  I had to be strong for both of us.  The cold, biting words left my mouth.

"Stay away from me then.  I don't want to be your friend with benefits and I don't want to lose my job because of you."  

"Fine." He answered visibly peeved.

"Fine," I murmured, so low that he could hardly catch my words.  

He sat there in silence just staring at me.  I regretted the words as soon as I had said them.

With a shrug to his shoulders, he got up and left closing the door softly behind him.  I didn't follow him.