I put my right shoe on and I look up "You ready?" I nod at him "Let's get outta here" I grab his hand and he helps me up "How's your head?" I touch my scars at the back of my head "Well" I sigh "I get dizzy every time I stand up" he squeezes my hand slightly "That will soon go away" I smile at him "I hope so" I lean my head on his shoulder as we walk towards the Reception "Now let me go sign out for you and we can go home" I nod at him and I go outside, I walk out the Hospital doors and I breathe in the cold fresh air 'Now this is nice' i smile to myself, I look down at my shoes and I sigh 'I wonder if Izzy is okay..' 'And why should you care?' I shake my head 'Austin pushed her and she hit her head too! Do you know how dangerous that is?!' 'Yes but she slammed your head down on the your desk and you blacked out, then she did it again and you were in a coma for 6 months Charlie!' I scoff 'Look, I'm just caring for a person who used to be my best friend and ex lover, okay?' 'Just remember how you felt when she left you' I groan, annoyed of this stupid ass voice in my head 'And you remember who's head you're in' Silence.
I smirk.
Good.
I look around, waiting for Austin to come out of the Hospital doors. Me being me, I grow impatient and concerned and I go check on him, I walk through the doors and I look at a sight that I thought that I would never see.
A sight that makes me grow angry.
And when she see's me she smirks.
I bawl my fists up and I march over to him "Hi Babe!" I greet a little loudly making him turn around in alarm. When he sees me he smiles softly at me "Hi Beautiful!" He mimics me, I giggle and I grab his arm, I look at the girl beside him "Oh! Hey Sally!" I greet innocently, she scowls at me "Charlie" I look at her, faking my confusion "What's gotten into you?" She scoffs "How come you get this gorgeous guy?" She winks at Austin, he grabs my hand "Well" I look up at Austin and he looks down at me "Cause I'm finally lucky" he smiles and kisses me "Ew! The slut and the gorgeous hunk are kissing!" I hear some people laugh, some people gasp and some people whispered, I pull away from Austin and I smile at him :I'm okay: I mouthed at him, he smiles and nods "Let's get out if here" he whispered, I nod and we walk out of the Hospital I always seem to find myself into.
--At The Hideout--
Right now I'm tracing my finger over my scar that spells 'Fat' and I'm thinking back at the memory.
--FlashBack--
It's break time now so I ran out of Science class as fast as possible, and ran to the girls toilets, I ran in and shut the door then I bolted to one of the cubicles and lock the cubical door, I dig into my bag and grab my razor, I pull it out and I roll my sleeve up, 'here it goes' I whimper as I began cutting, I did 1 then cried a little, I did another but a little deeper so I tried to muffle my scream, I did more because I wasn't just cutting, I was carving one of the names I was being called for the past 2 lessons "FAT" was what I carved, it's true I'm fat, I should just stop eating all together so I could grow skinnier, I put my back against wall in the cubical and slid down it, crying all the way.
--End Of FlashBack--
I sigh and I grab my razor 'I deserve this' I press the razor down on my arm 'I am a slut' I drag the razor across my arm.
1
I feel tears streaming down my face and I hold back a sob 'I'm a freak' i drag the razor across my arm again.
2
I let the sob out and I wipe my tears away 'My Dad abuses me..nearly raped me' I push down a little harder and drag the razor across my arm again and again.
3
4
I watch as blood come oozing out of my arm and onto the floor 'My Mom left me' I watch as my hand drags the razor across my arm.
5
I drop the razor and I sit back on the bed and I stare at my new cuts and I watch the blood run down my arm and into my lap 'I deserve this' I look straight ahead 'I must deserve this if it's happening to me' I sigh and I listen to the silence around me.
--2 hours later--
I wake up to the sound of a door slamming "Babe! I'm home!" I roll my head to the side and I stare at the window 'Why does he call this place home? He already has a home' 'Think about it, he spends a lot of time with you Charlie...he's never been out of your sight and plus all of his stuff is here' I narrow my eyes at nothing 'True' I hear the bedroom door open "Babe?" He looks at me and smiles "Hi babe" he whispers, I smile weakly "Hey" I say just above a whisper, he looks at my arm and his smile fades and he drops some bags he was carrying, I look at my arm and then back at him with no emotion whatsoever. He runs his hand through his hair and then he sighs "Why?" I look at him "Why? Why what?" I mimic him (Remember when we were at the Hospital?) he rolls his eyes "Don't mimic me, Why would you do this Charlie?" He asks raising his voice a little, I chuckle with no emotion at all "Well, you see" I get off the bed and I stand up "When you have the same life as I have" I look at him "You would understand" he shakes his head "No! That's not an excuse! You said your life was fine!" I scoff "My words exactly were "Well, I'm at the Hospital aren't i?" So don't your DARE say that my life was fine cause it sure HELL ain't!" He shakes his head "Charlie! You shouldn't be doing that and you know it! The Dad business is over! Theres nothing to be depressed about!" I groan "Did you NOT hear Sally today?! Look Austin, you can't just come into my life and mean the whole DAMN world to me and then think that I'm just gonna be happy about everything!" He takes a step forward "Well I'm sorry for thinking positive I forgot you were depressed" I gasp "You take that back!" He shakes his head "No! Not until you get over Sally! Charlie you can't just let one slutty person ruin your life!" I take a step forward "I let her ever since my Mom died! And my own FATHER started abusing me! And have you forgotten that he nearly RAPED ME!!" He grows silent "I can't just forget about them Austin! Sally And my Dad are still in my life! And I can't just ignore them cause once you let them in you can't push them out!" He takes a step back "I am sick to DEATH of my life Austin! And ever since you came into it I thought you would make it worse but oh NO! You mean the fucking world to me and I can't change that!" He looks a little hurt by my words "And I don't EVER want to change that Austin! I don't and I'm s-scared that you are just gonna up and leave me! I am scared every time I wake up in the morning! Cause when I look to the side you are not gonna be there! And I'm g-gonna be scared out of my mind!" My voice starts cracking and tears start streaming down my face. Austin watches me with sadness in his eyes "I don't w-want that..I don't" I shake my head "I r-really, really d-don't" I sob and I bury my face into my hands "I love you Austin..and I've never loved anyone like I love you and it s-scares me" he sighs and hugs me, I start sobbing into his shirt "I'm sorry" he starts rubbing my back "N-No, I-I'm s-sorry for d-doing this" I look at my arm and I sob. Austin picks me up, I wrap my legs around his torso and my arms around his neck. He carries me to bed and lies down with me in his arms "I love you" I tell him "I love you, I love you, I love you" I repeat on broken sobs, he shushes me "I know and I love you too baby" he whispers in my ear, I start taking deep breaths and I calm down abit "I'm sorry" I whisper "No, no, no, no, you shouldn't be sorry I'm sorry for getting so mad" I nod "I forgive you" he gently grabs my arm and starts kissing my scars, I smile at how sweet he's being, he stops at my new scars and he looks at me "I'm gonna clean the dry blood, okay?" I nod , he gets off the bed and walks into the bathroom.
--2 minutes later--
He comes back with a wet cloth and a bandage, I smile "Thank you" I whisper, he smiles and sits on the edge of the bed.
--1 Minute Later--
(A/N sorry to tired to do details :p)
Austin finishes wrapping my arm up with the bandage, he kisses the bandage and then kisses me. We pull apart "I love you" he whispers lovingly, I smile tiredly "I love you too" I lie on his stomach and we drift off to sleep.
Together.