POV
Stone

I woke up expecting to be in bed, the night before during the Hunters Moon, I gave Miro full control and turned off my consciousness, I don't know why I did it. I mean sure, Mya had full control of Soren, and I figured okay, if Soren is doing it, I'd let Miro be with her, at least Soren's wolf wasn't rejecting me. My dumb ass trusted Miro, thinking for sure, he would have run around with Mya for a bit, and then took us to bed. My mistake.

Instead, I wake up to find a bunch of hair in my face, Soren's hair, we were in a grove, butt naked and something felt strange. First off he was laying on my chest, his hair tickling my chin. Then, as if it was always there, I could feel Soren, his calmness oozed into me. Becoming more aware I felt my left pec slightly burning, I looked and there was a mark, four puncture wounds, and eight smaller teeth marks. (What the hell did we do, Mir?) I asked, searching the darkness of my mind for my wolf. (Don't worry about it) He answered, then shut off our connection.

Soren started to stir and I waited, silently, quietly refusing to move. Instantly after a yawn, Soren yanked his head up and looked at me. He pulled away and sat up. "What the fuck happened?" He asked, he went to get up but I grabbed his hips holding him down. "Miro won't tell me, ask Mya," I said, searching his eyes, waiting, needing to know. Soren looked into my eyes, his own going slightly out of focus. "She won't answer me. Oh, Goddess, I marked you." Soren said, running his fingers over the mark on my chest.

"What the fuck did we do?" I asked, "We didn't anything, but I can feel what they did." Soren said, and I gave him a look. "I'm sore and sticky." He said, reaching between his thighs and showing me his wet hand. My heart sank, no way. I sat up straighter and looked Soren dead in the eye, I pulled him into me. "I'm sorry, you know I wouldn't have done that... I wanted it to be special... Sor, tell me you believe me." I said. "I know you didn't do it. I mean, look in a mirror when you get the chance." He said, surprising me by running his hands through my hair. "What are we doing Sor, hmmm? Do you really not want to be with me?" I asked.

"Stone... Can we just get cleaned up first, then we can talk." He said, "Just tell me Sor, do you want me?" I asked, holding him. "I-I think I'll always want you. But one day... Y-you won't want me." He said, his eyes leaving mine. "Soren, I wanted you since the first time I saw you. Sure maybe we were kids, and I didn't know how much I wanted you, but... Do you remember that night we went camping in the Swamps?" I asked. Thinking of the darker part of pack territory, where the waters traveled to meet the Mississippi River.

"You mean, the night you got us lost in the Swamps," Soren smirked. "Yeah, well when you fell asleep, I watched over you for hours till the sun broke and I knew then, I could never love anyone as much as I do you. I could lose this pack today, but as long as I had you. I'd be fine." I said.

He looked at me, his lip quivering and trembling. He pulled into me, kissing me deeply. Just as quickly he pulled away. "I'll meet you in your office in an hour, we'll talk. We need to figure out what the hell happened, I think we deserve to remember our first time. Wait... Was it your first time?" Soren asked, and I blushed, but proudly said yes. "I gotta go." He said, adding, "It was my first time too."

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Walking into the packhouse, I tried to be sneaky. It was still early, but like always my parents were up early, laughing and talking in the kitchen. Breakfast was cooking and I was hungry. Tiptoeing I thought surely I could make sneak by the kitchens, shower, and come back down to grab some breakfast. I did get past the kitchen, but the first step on the stairs and my father called out, "Come back here Pup." And I turned around.

Cupping myself in my hands I walked in, I didn't like them seeing me naked, at least not all the time. "Yes?" I asked. "So, you actually did it? You slept with that Billie girl?" My mom asked. "Is that a mark?" My dad asked. "Look it isn't what you think, I need to shower," I said, turning and trying to leave. "You are a fool if you give up on Soren, his parents might mean shit to me right now, and I'm even angry with Soren myself, but nobody will love you as much as he does." Ma said.

I walked out and went up to my room, in the bathroom, I turned on the shower, letting it heat up. Looking in the mirror I gasped, my neck was covered in hickeys and scratches were on my shoulders. I reached out for Miro, trying to dig into his mind. It was a stone wall, he was shutting me out for this time in my life.
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POV
Soren

What was I doing? He said the right things, but did he mean them? Could I trust him? Could I ever get over my insecurity? Those thoughts raced through my head as I walked through the trees, a stupid smile etched on my face. I knew I couldn't go home, I could feel slick and cum between my thighs, I knew I smelled like Stone.

My parent would overreact, make out like Stone forced himself on me.

I tried to reach out to Cole, but his side of the pack link was like hitting a thick and solid wall. So I reached out to Campbell, he was at the vegetable fields. (I need a shower, gotta avoid my parents) I whispered in his mind. He told me to meet him at his house, and I did.

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After showering, Campbell had some bacon and eggs waiting for me. I was shoveling it in, wearing a pair of shorts and a T-shirt borrowed from him. "I linked Caleb, told him you wanted to see Cole. I figured a psychic would be able to block out the link. "You really can't remember any of it?" Campbell asked.

"Not one fuckin part, I mean it was my virginity and Mya won't even let me have the memory," I said. "You wanna do some plantin today? Campbell asked. "We need to pull the weeds in the back of the patch, they'll start choking the tomatoes soon." I said, "Alright, what about your talk with Stone?" He asked.

"I don't know what to say to him, I know I can't just get over him, I mean I've tried haven't I? I can only just trust him, believe him when he says an heir doesn't matter to him." I explained. "It might not, I don't want any pups," Campbell said. "Maybe."

Cole's soft mental voice whispered he was outside into my pack-link with him. "C, Cole is outside," I said, and Campbell got up to go open the door. "You find my place, on your own?" Campbell asked as they walked into the kitchen. "Claircognizance." Cole said, "Thank God, can I get a plate? Caleb can't boil water, yet he insists on making me food." Cole added.  "Yeah, sit down," Campbell answered.

"Ren... What's... Whoa." He stopped piling eggs on his plate to look at me.  "What?" I asked. "You and Stone actually made up?" He asked. I looked down shaking my head no, "Come on, I know you two slept together." He pushed. I sighed, because if he knew about me and Stone, then I didn't really need Mya's confirmation. And with that thought, Mya again pushed her will over me. "Don't tell my human anything, please, Cole." She gave me back control and I just stared at Cole.

"Yeah... Um, I don't remember anything about what I and Stone did last night. And I take it you aren't gonna help me." I guessed. "I would if I could, but you and Mya are both my friends and I'm not about to get in between the two of you. Furthermore, I have bigger news." He explained. I was mad of course, but I also couldn't blame him, there were days when we were on the run, that I gave Mya full control, they are friends and I'm sure Mya knows things about Cole I don't know.

"What's up?" I asked. "I... I was sick, and I didn't know why normally I know exactly what's wrong, but I didn't know anything. I went to the pack doc, and she... She ahh... I'm pregnant." I heard the words. I heard them, but it wasn't processing. I wasn't understanding how it could happen so quickly. "Congratulations," I said, trying to cover my long pause.

"Did you tell Caleb?" Campbell asked. "No, I'm not ready. He'll know eventually but I'm not sure I'm ready to admit it to myself." Cole said. "I'm sure he'll be happy," I said. Now was I bitter on the low, hell yeah but more so with the Goddess than with Cole and Caleb. I was still excited about Cole, my best friend, my brother.

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Some hours later we were in the vegetable patch, Campbell was picking peppers, Cole was picking the weeds from near the tomatoes, while I was sprinkling watermelon seeds in the dirt of one of three hills.

Quietly I sat thinking, maybe if I gave in to the mate bond, maybe I could have a little piece of happiness. Thinking about Stone, I found myself smiling.

(Mya, talk to me... Show me what happened. I deserve to know, you used my body) I sent my thoughts to Mya, but all I got back was a snarl.

(Miro and I have decided, you and Stone don't deserve to know anything. And we decided to keep it a secret. Stop asking) Mya snarled and shut me out. I shook my head, then went back to spreading melon seeds.

Maybe letting go, letting Stone back in, trusting that being barren wouldn't make him regret choosing me, maybe it was for the best. Only time would tell.