It took everything within me not to shed this tear that was fighting to escape as I took one last look at my small one story house. However a slight small smile hung at my lips as my mother juggled with my last of my bags as she locked the door.

"Aw don't worry honey. You will be back home before you know it."

She smiled as she placed her arm around my shoulder.

"I know. I am just happy this is my last school year. But I still can't believe that your making me go to a new school."

I sighed as I grabbed the heavy bag from my mother's small frame and placed it in the back of her mini van with the others.

"Yeah but you will like it here. It's not like the last one. This school is really nice. It even holds a fountain!"

I laughed as I allowed my mothers excitement to lighten up my depressed mood. Her smile could always capture a smile to form against my face even when I am not in the mood to smile. That's just how precious she is to me. She really is like an Angel sent from the Heavens above. Her blue crystal eyes are always glistening. Its amazing how she could always hold that spark even when she has every reason not to keep it glistening.

"A fountain? I guess that is pretty cool."

I laughed as I looked back one more time.

"Sometimes it's good to have a fresh start honey. I know this may seem like the end but really this is just the begging. With my big job promotion and with college ending for you trust me when I say this , this is just the begging. We will be fine."

I smiled as I took my mothers words into consideration. She does have a point. Here in this tiny one story house of ours holds nothing but horrid memories of our past life. Don't get me wrong some good things happened here. I held my first kiss by that apple tree that sits next to my bed room window.

However no matter how many good memories that happened here nothing could erase the bad. I can't remember most of it as it all happened when I was only really started when I was at the age of 3. However I do remember those endless nights of waiting for my father to return home from work every night. I would sit by the front porch and I would cry in my mothers arms when he wouldn't come home.

I quickly wiped a tear away as a thought quickly hit me. What if he finally comes back for us? What if when where gone he finally decides to look for us and he comes back here to find us gone then what? He wouldn't know where to began and he would get mad and he would....

"Hello earth to Justin!"

 I blinked a few times as I felt myself slightly rocking back and forth. As I came back to reality I looked around to find my mothers tiny hands upon my shoulders. The rocking finally stopped.

"Oh honey you gotta stop doing that. Your getting me worried here."

She sighed which soon lead me to follow her actions.

"I am sorry. I really don't mean to. It just I sometimes get lost in my own thoughts. I don't mean to. I didn't mean to scare you. I am sorry."

I explained as I suddenly felt extremely guilty for scaring my mother.

"It's okay honey. What where you thinking about if you don't mind your concerned mother asking?"

I couldn't help but to suddenly feel uncomfortable as her crystal's gleamed into my dullness color of brown which of course held no fragment of such sparkle. I found my eyes travel down quickly towards the ground as I hated the fact that she had to make me feel so vulnerable. It's sad that even my own mother that I love so dearly could make me feel this way.

"Could we just forget this happened and move on? I just really want to get started already as we have a long journey ahead of us."

I complained as my annoyance started to tickle my steadiness.

"I wouldn't like to stop this conversation but you do have a point. Alright son let's get moving."

I watched as my mother finally took her crystals off of me. As they left my soul mine traveled from the neatly trimmed grass to the house for one last hold of memory. As I felt like my memory could get it's final hold of my past I slowly turned around and took a new mark on my future.

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Within the next few hours we spent loading and unloading. My mother's new job offer gave us a new fresh car and a new small apartment. However with hours worth of flying when my feet reached the island of California a big smile spread on my face.

"The beauty of California. The place where dreams are made of."

I smiled as I took the last bag from the car and placed it on the big rack that held our bags.

"I could already get used to the heat."

I stated as the warmth of the sun soaked some sweat against my green tee.

"Yeah me too. I love it though. No more shoveling snow. Those days are now behind us."

My mother smiled as she shut the car and started to move the bag rack to the apartment building.

"Are you sure you are going to be okay here alone? You know now with your big title everyone is going to eventually know who you are? I don't know if I am okay with that."

As we adventured towards the main building these two nice door men opened the door for us with big smiles on their faces. Although I am sure those where fake smiles. I am sure this job probably wasn't one they would have been on their top of most wanted jobs list.

"Thank you guys."

She smiled.

"Anytime mama it's nice to see fresh faces around here. We don't get many nice looking young woman like you around."

The man winked as she walked buy.

I swear if it wasn't for my mothers blushed cheeks and hopeful wonders I would have punched him right then and there. Sometimes it stinks having a mother who's looks could send every man's eyes upon her. It's hard being the only one here to protect her in this hard cold world that we live in today. 

As we reached the lobby I couldn't help but to smile. It kinda has an hotel style vibe only it's not a hotel. It has multiple fireplaces with tables and chairs set around it. Hallways and elevators are located at the edges of the lobby. The lobby is like a hang out place.

"Wow honey this looks amazing!"

"I agree!"

My voice echoes hers as I allow my eyes to shine with excitement as I take in the enjoyable energy. Great vibes surround this place like theres no tomorrow.

"Could I please stay here with you? I don't want to go live at school now that I have seen this place."

I stated as a true fact. I am sure the college is nice but nothing could compare to this.

"Sorry honey everything is already paid for and you already have a scholar ship so don't fight me on this one. Don't worry though we are close by so you can visit any time you want and there are always holidays. You already know the drill now lets get moving as I still have to drop you off and I have a long day ahead of me tomorrow and so do you."

I just allowed my shoulders to slump down as there is no use arguing with my mother as she always wins. We do have our fights sometimes. We don't always get along. I don't always agree with her and she doesn't always agree with me. However with our close bond we always make it work. As we are really the only family we have left. So I never let a stupid augment or a stupid disagreement ruin what we have. So with that I just followed her to where our new apartment is which is of course remains on the third floor. 

"Oh my god."

We both said in unison as we took in the astonishing view once we reached it.  A small space stood before us but that small space didn't matter as the beauty that stood before me made up for every small factor that we stood within. I was use to small but I never lived within beauty.

"Can you believe that this is ours?"

My mother's voice echoed against my thoughts as I was pretty much thinking the same thoughts. With our ruff life we could never afford such things. My mother worked two jobs just so that we could hold food on the table. I worked when I was aloud as well just so that I could help her keep a roof over our heads.

Now here we are standing within a rich persons world. Well at least a middle class persons world. However what ever you would like to classify our luck I couldn't be more than thankful for what we have accomplished.

To my left a nice kitchen sat with everything included. A small dining room was placed next to it. Then in the middle sat a nice living room with a flat screen tv and a fire place. Then a huge window which led out to a nice medium length balcony was placed with chairs and a table. You couldn't see the hollywood sign but you could see the mountains and the town that rested below the building. The word astonishing alone couldn't be the right word to use to describe the beauty that I just took in.

"This is amazing but now are you ready to see what you will be living with for the next year?"

I blinked a few times as my mothers voice broke through my observance.

"I don't want to leave this place but I guess I have to sadly."

I sighed as I took my small bag rack from my mothers tiny hands and went back towards the door.

"You sure you don't need help unpacking?"

I asked as raised my eyebrow.

"Stop staling. Where running out of daylight."

"Okay okay you caught me."

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Within another couple of hours we finally make it to a town called Montgomery Heights. Within the outskirts of town a huge gate stood open making cars available for entry or exit. Whichever way your destination desired you to head to. Ours of course was an entry.

My mother's now newly white suv drove down the trail that led to the school. Buildings that looked like apartments where everywhere. Benches where placed around the school's pathways that led to the different buildings. Trees leaned over the benches and their leaves gladly fell from their homes as the birds picked them off and dropped them onto the ground.

"Look honey there's the fountain!"

Mom cheered as she quickly glanced passed it.

I could tell why mom was extremely excited about the fountain. An beautifully sculptured Angel was placed in the middle of it. It's wings where closed and wrapped around it's chest. Water was squirting from its mouth as its eyes where looking down at the water that was slightly moving due to the wind that was making it move.

"Alright I admit it this place is also beautiful. It's a little dark but it's beautiful too."

I admitted as I stepped out of the suv.

"Trust me here at Montgomery Heights anything is possible. This college holds endless amounts of clubs and courses and sports you could never go bored. Please promise me that you will do your best and that you will at least try to make some friends and that you won't exclude yourself like you did at your last school?"

I couldn't help but to roll my eyes at my mothers choice of words. Of course she had to bring up my old school.

"Don't worry mom. Smithaven is in the past. This will be different. I can feel it. I promise I won't let you down."

I smiled as I embraced her in one of my big bear hugs that I know that she just loves so much.

"Please don't try to worry about me to much I know I will be okay and I know that you will be okay. We have done this before we could do this again."

She smiled as she started to take some of my bags out of the car. I quickly followed her as I knew she wanted to get moving.

"Now you see that I can't make any promises on that. I will always worry about you. As your son I have every right to worry about you and you know that I will no matter how many times you tell me that I don't have to but as the only man in your life right now you know that I feel like that is my job and that is my job and even when you have a man in your life again that will always be my job. It's just in my nature to always look out for you."

I shrugged as we finally made it up to the boys apartment or dormitory or whatever you wanna call it.

Thank God my bedroom only remained on the second floor. My feet did not feel like climbing up another flight of three stairs for the second time that night.

Within the next hour we finally stood next to the last bag. 

My mothers eyes glistened but a little bit of sadness did shine within the happiness that always lurked within. I found my big hands holding onto her face as I found my thumb wiping away the tear that finally fell from her eyes.

"I am just so proud of you. After everything that you have been through you deserve this moment. This is your last year. Your last school year ever. After this your done. You have suffered so much and you are finally living the life that you deserve. These are tears of joy that I am shedding for you. So please take care of yourself Justin and just know that I am always here and don't let anything take this moment away from you please. Please don't ever go down that dark road again."

I just stood there. Her words circled around my closed eyelids. Of course as I opened my eyes a tear slipped away from me. She had to go down that road. She just had to. I was doing just fine. She always has to bring up the past and my dark road.

"Mom I can't make any promises that I will allow darkness to capture me once again but I can make a promise that I will try my best to not allow it to affect me like it did once before. I am not perfect but I am much better than what I once was. I promise you don't have to worry about me. Worry about you and your job. I can do this mom and I will for you for us and for me. We need this I need this and I won't let us down. That I could promise you."

Silence surrounded us before an I love you escaped my mothers lips. Another hug embraced my heart. Then we parted our ways. With my last bag in my hand I watched as my mother waved from her suv and left me here alone.

As I walked I decided to take a trip to the fountain. As I walked I heard some kids laughing. They where standing on the fountains edges. Goofing off.

"Hey what do we have here. Do we have a new bee?"

I sighed as I looked up from the ground.

I gripped onto my bag tightly as I found two young guys towering over me. One held long sandy blonde hair that looked like a mop got lost upon his head. His black tee hugged him just right. As his jeans could state otherwise.

"What do you want?
"

 
I asked trying my best to sound annoyed.

"Um well we have a rule here that needs to be followed if your a new bee."

The guy with the black quiff stated.

I rolled my eyes as I started to walk away which only led to the Blondie to laugh.

"Don't you dare walk away from us."

I stopped in my tracks as I dropped my bag and turned around. 

"Or what? What are you gonna do to the new guy? Beat him up? Sure go ahead as if that hasn't been done plenty of times already. So unoriginal."

I stated as I placed my arms in the air and waited for an opened shot. Of course none came. So I stood there and waited for their next move. With all my years of getting picked on I have learned that it is best to wait for them to make the first move. Never allow yourself to start their battles. You could always defend yourself but never allow yourself to fight within their own battles as it will always make you look bad.

"Ha you see this loser Tristan? He wants us to hit him."

The messy blonde hair boy laughed as he shook his head.

I couldn't help but to roll my eyes at his stupidity. What else does he want me to think?

"Well he obviously doesn't know the freshmen code then."

The more build short haired boy spoke. Who I am guessing is Tristan.

"Wait so you guys think I am a freshman?"

I laughed as I just folded my arms across my chest as their stupidity started to amuse me.

"Obviously he is trying to get out of this. There is no such thing as transfers at our school."

The blonde one spoke.

"Are you guys done here because I got bags to unpack."

I sighed as boredom started to take the best of me.

"You can leave after you have finished the code that you need to complete."

Tristan stated.

"You see we have a personal goal of ours. We don't have anything against you yet however we picked you because you seem to stand out. Every year we look around and find someone who looks new to us. Then we make them look like fools and force them to jump into a fountain that we are not aloud to jump in , in front of everyone. You may think why are we telling you something that we are about to do to you? Well because as you are about to jump in here's the catch you have to give us your sneakers and then where all good."

Blondie finished.

I just stared at the two of them with a blank expression.

"Are you for real? There's no way in hell I am doing this or giving you guys my favorite pair of vans. These are mine and mine only do you here me?" 

I stated calmly as I stood my ground.

"Sorry buddy. Freshman code."

Tristan stated.

I started to walk away only as I was walking away that's when I felt it. A hard smash came at me from behind. A strong muscular body grabbed me and started dragging me towards the golden fountain that sat just inches away.

"You guys are ass holes."

I spat as I tried my best to kick my way out of the third wheelers arms. Only it was no use.

Before I knew it I found myself standing on the fountains edge. As I looked around everything seemed so different from up here. People where saying their hello's and goodbyes. Some where even starting to stare at me. I quickly tore my eyes away from the group of girls that started to gain their attention around us.

"What now?"

I asked as I flapped my arms to the side almost looking as if I was going to fly right in. Then before I could even have my question answered my arms started flaring as I felt a big hand on my chest push me into the cold water. A loud splash echoed my scream. Laughter filled the air.

As I came to I didn't know what to do. I looked around to see phones and flashes being flashed my way.

"Sorry kid."

Within seconds my feet where being dragged and I found my body falling back into the water. I tried kicking and pushing but it was useless. They still easily managed to get my favorite pair of black vans.

When everything was all set and stone and the laughter died down I slightly sat still in the water.

"Stupid assholes. I am not even a freshmen!"

I yelled as I angrily punched the water with my fists.

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Within the next few hours here I find myself again. In front of the fountain once more. Only this time I remain in a different attire as my ripped jeans and my black 2 pack shirt remain more aproprate for my mood than my once green tee and black jeans. My wet ragged hair hung low to one side as I stared at the Angel that looked down upon me. Probably disappointed in me. Hell I don't blame God's creation for becoming disappointing upon me. No matter where I go they always follow. I should have known that they would be here too. I sighed as looked around to find a group of three laughing and just simply enjoying themselves. If only it was that easy for me. I sighed as I noticed there laughing died down and they all where looking upon the same Angel that I was looking upon. So I decided to do the same thing and within that moment I decided to speak within a prayer as it just felt right at that moment. 

Sometimes in life we all fall down a dark path. We all make mistakes. We all make regrets. We all do things that later on in life we wish that we have never done. However as we move on with our life we began to realize that it's not the mistakes that we have made , it's what we have learned from the mistakes that have made us who we are today. As we recognize our mistakes do we allow the dark path to define us or do we come out of the darkness and allow the light to teach us our ways? It is the light that will lead us home when the darkness finally clears. So once you see it grab it and don't ever let go as that is what I reached for when that hint of light finally cleared the darkness. So in the end we all make mistakes. We all have a darkness inside us that just screams for it's power. However that's where our light will help us through and will guide us home. So now within this moment of my grieving I beg of you to please don't ever let that light leave me. I don't ever want my power to get to the point of what it once was as I have allowed that dark path to define me and within that dark path it nearly destroyed me and I never want to go back down there again. As I am about to embark on a new journey I pray to you that this journey will lead me down a path to a better me as I want and need this new life that I am about to take in as I cannot afford to allow that darkness to take control once more. So please God as I stand before your Angel allow her wings to protect me within this new journey and let the light conquer all of the darkness as this is my wish to your youth.

A certain melody captured my attention as my wish and prayers where finished. I looked beyond the distance to find the most breathtaking view I could ever find my eyes upon. I couldn't help but to stare at her hypnotizing beauty.

Her head hung back as she continued to laugh at her friends joke. Her laugher out beat the birds songs that they where singing just above my head. Her eyes sparkled brighter than the sun that shined bright above us and most of all her smile. She held this luring smile that just reached all the way up to her mesemerzing eyes , I couldn't help but to smile to myself and I didn't even know her name just yet.

Within all this craziness and this mess that I have been through within the past couple of hours this moment of witnessing this girls beauty has just made everything worth it. Sometimes without even knowing people will cross your heart for the right reasons and when they do don't ever let them go. Even if it's just a little moment if it means something to you grab it and don't ever let it go as who know's maybe that moment could lead into a story book that could one day change someone's heart?

Hey a guy can dream can't he?

With that being thought I shook that smile off of my face and headed back to my dorm as I realized I had a long night ahead of me if I wanted to be settled in between tomorrow. Montgomery Heights here I come. 

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( Author's Note ) 

Hey loves , 

so here i am back at it again with The Boy With Two Hearts :) !!!!!!! lol yes I went there :) 

Hope you guys enjoyed the new comeback. 

I couldn't be more than happy with it and I feel like the new twist I have for this story will be so much better than the older story storyline as I just felt like since I was dealing with a darkness myself that story was just going through a mess and I felt like I could do better with it. So here this story is going to be told within Justin's Point Of View and his only. Now I have been working really hard on this so I hope you guys will enjoy this so please be honest with me. 

Do you guys like this so far ? 

Leave your reviews down below and like always vote and fan and don't leave anything out as this will be another story that will be from the heart. Not only will Justin's life be real but I will be also adding some of mine into his. So yeah enjoy :) 

until next time 

xoxo Kelli xoxo