"Think of it as...a punishment"

"My my, what pretty eyes you have~!"

"Not my child! HE SHOULD HAVE DIED INSTEAD!"

I woke up in shock hyperventilating before finally calming down. It was all in my head...I reassured myself before heading my alarm go off. I don't want to go back there...I thought to myself as I grabbed the uniform I had set out the night before.

I hope today is better than yesterday...I prayed to myself before reaching to where I assumed my chair to be and fitted myself onto it.

"Kokichi! Wake up!" My mother called from down the hall and I rolled down, "sit near the table" she said grabbing my shoulder and my automatic instinct was to flinch.

The hand got removed but I could feel the anger radiating from it. She then complained "oh what the actual he**? I've been sober for years and you still act like that you brat?!" She screamed slamming a plate down. You being sober doesn't make me forget...

"This is for me, I didn't have time for you so sit down or go brush your teeth"  she said in an annoyed attitude. I nodded and went off on my morning routine.

-/-/-

"Kokichi! We're leaving!" His mother called and I quickly came over as she helped me with my chair as I got into the car.

"So...not going to say anything?" She said and I didn't respond "come on, say something..." she said in a somber tone 'I'm sorry' I signed.

"ENOUGH WITH THAT BS AND LET ME TALK TO MY SON LIKE A NORMAL HUMAN BEING!" She screamed and I winced prepared for any sort of physical confrontation.

"IS IT BECAUSE OF THOSE DELINQUENTS?!" She asked "you were to good for them, forget them and act like a god d*mn human being" she said annoyed as she pulled off.

"There, your school...just go" she said and I nodded as I heard her put my chair out.

They weren't delinquents...and they were to good for me...

I got into the hallway and I could already hear the daily torment from those outside of my class.

"Oh my gosh, look it's him again" one of them whispered "such a freak" another replied "if I were them I would just kill myself"

"Like seriously how pathetic are they?" Another joked "I bet they aren't even disabled, and that this is some kind of joke"

Shut up...shut up...shut up! I did my best to ignore them as I felt rocks hitting my chair and headed to where I knew the elevator should be.

"No can do bud, still broken after someone who graduated last year turned it into a place to buy weed" the janitor said "you can figure out yourself how to get to the...fifth floor..." they said, I could tell they were high.

Really? Your really going to make me figure out how to use my wheelchair to climb up five flights of stairs?

"Oh hi Ouma!" I heard someone call, Kiibo I could tell automatically. I could tell they were gripping the chair's handles.

"I'll help you" he said "grip on tight though" I did and we began making our way upstairs.

"So...how are you?" He asked, I didn't respond due to the fear of being dropped. He sighed "still no words today?"

I nodded "heh, some freshman put some soda all over the stairs...reminds me of you back in the day" I gripped the handles harder.

"Wish you could go back to that...how you used to be...it hurts seeing you like this everyday" he recounted somberly.

Why...why are you telling me this...?

"Well we are here, see you later- talk to you- I'll meet you later" he said finally after several attempts at trying not to offend me.

I didn't really care at all to be honest as I grabbed my headphones and MP3 out of my bag.

"Hey Ouma, what you listening to?" I heard Akamatsu approach and ask, 'nightcore' I signed though it was kind of pointless since I knew she wouldn't be able to tell what I said.

I slipped them on almost immediately, "you know...you really should pay attention in class" she said. No...I don't want to listen to their voice...it hurts...

"Seriously just trust me on this-" she began and I felt her touching my headphones before I used her voice to determine where her hand was and stopped her.

She stopped and I could feel how nervous or concerned she was in her hand "fine...we'll try again later..." she said defeated.

No we won't....

I redjusted my headphones and clicked play before laying down on my desk trying to drown all their voices out.

-/-/-

"Your nothing but trouble!"

"I'm sorry, I won't be able to keep our promise"

"What do you mean he's disabled?!"

I heard someone tap me on the shoulder as I got up surprised trying to control my breathing.

"Ouma...school's over...need help getting downstairs?" Kiibo asked and I shook my head and he sighed.

"Ok..." he said. That's the wrong way...

I then reached the stairs and I could hear someone approaching as I made a finger to say 'help me get up?' And I heard that student groan. Oh shoot it's Harukawa...

"Fine...I guess" and they started helping me up. They didn't say anything at all before stopping "I'll come back in ten minutes for you...so you can get down" she said and I nodded.

I could feel her staring at me before she finally left. Huh...this is it huh? For real this time...

I rolled myself over to the edge and situated myself.

"You swear as a member of DICE to always live your life to the fullest? Never take away a second!"

"Yes supreme Panta lord!"

I winced at the memory and felt tears in my eyes. I'm sorry guys...I broke ny promise to you all...

But...please forgive me...it hurts...it hurts to much...

I pushed myself off the ledge when I felt someone grab onto my hand.

"DON'T YOU DARE LET GO OUMA!" Momota screamed.