I got off my bed and got out some clothes. I had a unicorn crop top with some high waisted acid wash jeans with black converse. I went to the bathroom which was down the hall from my room, I pulled my clothes on and straighten my hair. I do a winged eyeliner. I looked at myself. I was looking at my body my arms. I'm disgusting, I have scars covering my arms. I forgot I need to cover my scars with some makeup. I grabbed my foundation. Fuck its gone. I need to buy more. I went to my room and found Michael on his iPhone. I searched around for my hoodie, my ex best friend bought us bff hoodies. I still have mine even though I haven't seen her since I was 14. I miss her. Anyway I couldn't find it, I started freaking out.

Mikey- What are you looking for Jess?

Jess- My hoodie.

Mikey- You can wear mine.

Jess- okay. I still need to find it. Its all I have left of memories with it her.

Mikey- Who?

Jess- A stranger with 5 years of memories.

I thought back to Aryona and It's memories. I started crying. Michael got up and hugged me. He let go of me and held my arms. Oh shit my arms. He looked at my scars and looked up at me with teary eyes.

Mikey- Why?

Jess- Its a long story.

Michael got up and went somewhere in my apartment. I heard the door shut. God damnit I always fuck things up. I played down with my head in my pillows. I felt the bed push down and the blanket was pulled up. Michael was still here?
A/N. THIS IS MY MEMORIES WITH A FRIEND. I MAY CRY.
Mikey- I have time. The boys left.

Jess- We met at the pool durning summer. It was June 17 the year before 5th grade or year 5 whatever. We hung out all day talking, laughing, just being us. I found out she lived about 1 hour away and she was visiting her mom for the summer. After that day I didn't see her again until the middle if 6th grade. I noticed her and she noticed me. We decided we were going to hang out after school. After school we walked to the rec which was about 2 blocks away from our school. We hung out from 3:00 to 8:00 everyday that year. In the summer between 6th and 7th grade I realized I liked her more than a friend. I didn't say anything, by that time she was at my house more than her own. We were inseparable from 6th grade until 8th grade. Them I figured out I was moving. I told her how I felt. By telling her I fucked things up. She didn't talk to me anymore. She blocked me on social media. I haven't talked to her since. After she stopped talking to me, I ate and then threw it up. She made me feel worthless and useless. I threw up my food cause I thought, maybe if I was skinny she would like me. I would only get 3 hours of sleep a night. That's if I was lucky. I have a scar of her name on my thigh. All of the scars on my thighs are from her. Most of them on my arms too. I stopped cutting after awhile, then all I would do is cry and mope around. That's all I ever do anymore.

Mikey- Jess she didn't deserve you.

Jess- she kept me from killing myself for 5 years!! She is all I had to live for!! I keep blaming myself for fucking it up.

I was full on crying. Michael held me in his arms and let me cry into his chest. After about 30 minutes I stopped crying. I lied down and Michael wrapped his arms around me. I fell asleep listening to his heart beat.

A/N SORRY I WAS GOING TO DO MORE BUT I AM CRYING. I can't believe I just told you guys everything I did to myself because of Aryona. Its only been about 4 months since I've talked to her IRL. I still cry I just miss her. I fucked things up bad.

UPDATE WE STARTED TALKING AGAIN AND WE ARE SUPPOSE TO HANG OUT NEXT WEEK.