You look at things after a while. The way you once saw them suddenly changes. You think to yourself "wow... I knew this all along... why did I choose to ignore it?"

Well it's probably because you knew the truth. But you let go of it for the sake of something else. You wanted to badly to make things work that you lost some of yourself in the process.

And so after a bit longer... when you've had some time to yourself alone... to really think... and think even about the things you don't want to think about... you start to nitpick places where you could have done something. Changed an action or a small movement. Said something a little different. Really value things you took for granted.

And then it all hits you at once. There's nothing you can do now, except move forward. And it sucks because you've dedicated some much of your love and effort and time into it. Only to be let down in the end. We'll pick yourself up, buttercup. The world can be cruel, but the more you go against the grain, and the more things really start to hurt you... the stronger you'll become.

And that's on being your own hero.

And sure... you won't be 100% okay for a long time. And that's fine. It's okay to be 70-80 sometimes. Its even okay to be 50-60 sometimes.

It's unrealistic to expect everyone to be at 100%, 100% of the time. Why would you expect that of yourself?

It will take a while for things to blow over. For you to forget. For you to not be as hurt as you are. For you to forgive. But it will never be an overnight thing. And that's just the facts. You can't rush it. Unfortunately. 😅😂

Moral of the story: Don't ever loose yourself. You'll have to spend even longer trying to find yourself again.