Just pick yourself back up.

You can do it.

You're an adult now you shouldn't expect others to do it for you.

You'll be okay.

You have to be okay.

It doesn't matter that you're hurting. Or that you feel alone. Or that you think no one, no matter who you talk to, is gonna help you.

The world waits for no one.

The world doesn't care about you.

You have to care for yourself.

You can't keep relaying on someone else to help you.

How do you know if you're being played with?
How do you know if you're being made a fool of?
How do you know if you're doing the right thing?

How is the question isn't it.

You try to clear your head. You do so much to distract yourself. But at the end of the day, you can't escape the overwhelming feeling to run away. To not tell anyone where you're going or when and if you're coming back. The urge to want to disappear.

Sure you love a lot of people. And care about a lot of people.

But your sick mind makes you think they'd be better of without you. You're hurting more people than you are helping them.

It might be easier if you disappear. And maybe some day you will.

The only thing you have to lose is everything you ever loved and cared about. Easy right.

Honestly, getting away from it all, sounds so appealing.

But you freeze. 1 person. Just the 1. The only thing keeping you from cutting ties with everything. Or it feels that way anyway. In reality you know it's more than one thing.

You know they'd never chase after you if you left. You know they'd never get worried if you left. You know they'd never look for you if you left. But part of you wishes they would. Part of you wishes they'd just care. Part of you wishes that they weren't so stubborn. And so you stay. Against everything you stay.

For one more conversation. For one more laugh. For one more smile. For one more touch.

You know their heart doesn't belong to you.

You know that.

But still.

Part of you wishes you could just... run. And that they'd chase after you. And that they cared.

But that's just not the way it is.