I'm stuck in an endless loop.

There's nothing I can do to change it.

No matter how hard I want to try.

Nothing can be done about it.

"It's just the way things are," they say "you have to respect it."

And I understand that.

But why can't I ask questions?

Why can't I obtain the knowledge that I seek?

Why isn't there a way that I can try to talk about it calmly without hurt, upsetting, or disrespecting it?

Is there no civilized way to go about it without starting trouble?

Is there no reasoning?

Even with a level head, it seems that I still can't get anywhere.

Maybe I'm just too far ahead of the times.

So I will wait.

I will wait until the moment is right to ask my questions.

I will wait to get the answers I need.

And no matter how much it tears me apart to see how miserable they are under the rules they follow... even if they insist that it's "Just the way things are" I will still wait for my time.

I may be young.

I may not be extremely smart.

I may not have enough experience in life to know what I'm talking about entirely quite yet.

But believe me when I say that I will get there.

And when the moment comes. And I do get to be heard.

It will resonate. It will echo. And there will not be a thing you can do to stop it.

So, yes. For now, I am silenced. For now, I am at a sit still. For now, I am stuck in one moment of time, in the middle of the leap from one cliff to the next.

And I may be for a little while.

But as time passes, I will inch closer to the next cliff. Slowly, but surely.

For my thoughts may be silent. And my actions may be delayed. And my mouth may be muzzled.

But you can not stop the fire that burns within me, and the passion that is the lighting fluid that fuels it.

Because big things are happening outside of my control. And the moment they all fall into place...

That's when I get my answers.

- Avery

P.s. Wow that's depressing 😂