happy saturday!

---

it was a

warm

summer

afternoon

when i first

saw you

i was out

with my friends

skating

biking

running

laughing

teenage fun

i had a cup of

starbucks

in my right hand

and a phone

in my left

a white handbag

swung

from one elbow

lip gloss

coated

my lips

the other girls

were giggling

talking about

harry styles

though i kind of

thought

he was

overrated

just a little bit

we met eyes

through the

glass

because for

some reason

all the buildings

had glass walls

i guess it was

to make the

old complex

seem

new

it didn't quite

work

you smiled

and i felt a

natural flush

rise to my cheeks

under the

blush

i had sprinkled

there

that morning

i smiled back

but you were

gone

"this cute

guy

just smiled at me"

i told my

friends

"ooooooh"

they chorused

back

i came back there

a couple times

that summer

hoping to

see you again

but i didn't

catch a glimpse

until fall

i was walking

downtown

with my bestie

we were

singing

obnoxiously loud

to a shawn mendes

song

on our way

to get some boba

"hey," you said

walking up to us

"i think i

saw you

at starbucks before"

my friend elbowed me

"yeah i think so too"

i managed to stammer

you were

so damn

beautiful

it took my

breath away

and my words

even though i could

never

seem to stop

talking

you rendered me

speechless

"where are you guys

off to?"

"boba," my friend

answered

"wanna come?"

you nodded

so we went

i got a smoothie

she got tea

you just stood there

awkwardly

hands in the

pockets

of your levi's jeans

"can i get your

number?"

you asked

and my heart

stopped

beating

for a moment

i swear it did

"of course"

i got a text

that night

from you

hey

hi

starbucks tmr 3:00?

i'll be there

and so it began

a series of

dates

meet ups

hang-outs

whatever you want

to call them

but they ended in

embraces

and kisses

and nights spent

watching movies

in your bedroom

when it was

over

i took you out

to coffee

"i still want to be

friends"

but that was

too hard

for us

in the end

and you

moved away

the last i

saw of you

was a melancholy

smile

at odds with

the smiles you had

been full of

before you

loved me

and it hurt

because i knew that i

broke

you