These happy thoughts fill me

Like colourful balloons, the simple moments

Are all we need, and sunlight swings my feet

Stars are like trinkets

You collect them and they fall away

Tumble towards the earth,

A sulfurous lake,

Suspended diamonds come to play,

Holding up the sky

Like soaked velvet,

These knees ache

With dirt and blood-sweat,

As tears and dry cries

Pour and fill a cloudy ocean,

That kisses the horizon

A heart wrenching devotion––

Only to spill off the end of the world

Maybe my heart will build walls,

To keep the memories from tipping

I am lonely

Never alone, surrounded by colour

But clinging to the dull roar

One day the sun will come

Trying and trying and trying

My body feeding these lies with

Gnashing teeth, aching gums––

Crying and crying and crying

Tumble off the bed,

Toss yourself into the sky

Be unmerciful

Until the mind is sick with the lie

Why do I torture myself? 

Why does my mind giggle

When I breakdown and die?

Like some shrivelled flower, 

Like some starved cherub, 

Like some dull, useless knife

I pray I never find.