I'm ugly crying rn. Like. Bruh 😭

*me asking my mom if I can grt something to eat bcs I didn't eat very many of the thing my dad gave me after he picked me up from my grandma's house. It was some chicken nuggets and ranch. I don't like ranch on my chicken nuggets, just fry sauce and honey mustard.*

She didn't give me a direct answer then asked how many nuggets had. I had 2. She was all like "omg. So you wasted them all?" When did she ever care about me wasting food? Bruh idk.

Then I just ask for some cereal. So I get cereal.

Then my dad says "so, tomorrow I'm gonna oretend I'm not there so (name) can go put the kids on the bus"
I was like "why? I'm not their mom."

And he totally freaked out. I was just tryingtl eat m cereal. And he starts yelling at me "you don't have to be their mom! Your a big sister with responsibility."
GOD DAMN. Its not like my older brother did shit like that for me. Whe I was in 5th grade, I had to walk out of sight of my house to get to my bus stop. Did he help me? No, lol.

I have trauma, I don't think my dad knows very much about that though.

He was like" I was gonna add that as a task to your greenlight. But I might as well just make you do it for no reason"

This man, is a total ass hole. He didn't need to yel at me like that, man.

So I cried while eating my cereal.

Then he comes up to me and apologized.

I'm on my period, I didn't mean to say this so harshly "Let me eat my cereal."

BRUH I JUST ASKED TO EAT MY CEREAL.

Not to mention when I told him I wasn't my siblings mom, he called me a brat and ungrateful. Etc.

Ive never felt so betrayed in my life, how could he say shit like that? I don't feel comfortable in my own house anymore.

Like, my sister says mean shit to me all the time, so does my brother. Do they get in trouble? NO, NO THEY DONT. If I throw it back, do I get in trouble? YEAH OFC I DO. LIKE WTF.

Then I feel like my step mom is constantly judging me now, idk why. But I just have the feeling and it makes me not trust her. Not like I trusted her anyways. I founding recently they're teansphobic. Not good my bestie is Trans and my other bestie is Enby.

I honestly would prefer to go back to living with my bio mom. She didn't hang round much, but I felt comfortable around her, and I felt she could listen to my problems. But when I talk to my step mom, I feel like I'm just gonna be put down told my feelings are wrong or I'm just misunderstanding the situation. She acts like she knows everything about me. Though she doesn't.

This is horrible. Idk what to so anymore and I can't stop crying at this point, I can't breath very well.