The Story of slowly_losing_mymind

My Dad left when I was 2, but I was left with a few memories of him. None of them are happy. Memories of him and my mom fighting and him hurting her. He left.

When he left, we moved in with my grandparents and uncle. There were some happy times. My uncle gets mad and gets violent. The fights my family got in would get bad at times. I have had a loaded gun pointed at me so many times, I have lost count.

There was a really bad fight once. Rather not say. This was before I was eight. Four days before my ninth, birthday my grandmother died in her sleep. Everything changed for me. My uncle got worse. My mom got meaner.

My grandpa was always in his office. He never smiled anymore. I got quieter. Stuff slowly got better than fell apart in seventh grade. I would always be nervous. I could barely talk in class. I got bullied by a person I called a friend. Constantly called fat, stupid, worthless. I started to eat a little less second semester. I had been depressed since I was 8 but it just got worse then.

When summer came I would always skip meals. I started self harming then. Still do but am trying to stop. This year has been the hardest. My anxiety has gotten so much worse and so has my depression.

I am lucky if I go a day without a panic attack.

But I try to keep fighting even when I want nothing more than to give up.

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ThePsychoMadHatter: Thank you so much for trusting us with your story. I know I have said this in the private messages, but each and every one of you means the world to me. You guys are my world and it breaks my heart to read all of these stories.

I, and The Mad Hatter Family, will always be there for you, even if it's three in the morning! You have trusted us this much, trust us a little more ❤

P.S. I FUCKING SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD IF I COULD I WOULD KIDNAP EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOU BIATCHES AND TAKE CARE OF YOU AND MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER AND FEED YOU BECAUSE YOU'LL MY MY LITTLE BUNDLE OF JOY MY BEAUTIFUL BURRITOS.

*breathes out*

Sorry about that. Just needed to unleash The Devil within me for a second.

Anyway, we're all here for you, and we will help you through this ❤

❤ Stay Strong ❤