| Agastya |

"Not you!" I told Aditya and instantly pulled Lavanya for a damned kiss. 

It started off as a rough one to show that she's still mine, not his but with Love, I just melt.
Her soft lips coated in brown gloss, had been inviting me since the moment I saw her walking through the door but I managed to keep it to myself.

But Aditya? Not in front of him.
I don't even care if they have started dating or seeing each other. I can never let this happen for God's sake. 

I snaked my hand around his waist pulling her closer to my body, till we both were glued, my other hand caressed her face, which ultimately made her moan.

She was so fucking sensitive.
She drives me crazy. Her every moan, grunt, even a cuss word produced by her gorgeous mouth, makes me lose it.

My teeth bit at her lips and she opened her mouth, allowing me to kiss her with more fervour.

She kissed me back! For a split second she used her lips against mine, tugging at my lower lip, harshly, but then she stopped.

I saw stars. A fucking galaxy, in that second.

She kissed me until she pushed me away. She looked at me baffled, in love and in hate.

While, I just came back from the door of heaven.

I looked at Aditya and he was already standing with his head fixated on the road, his knuckles going all white.

I didn't think I needed more to say and prove to him.
So I chose to walk away, because I knew Lavanya's harsh words would take it all away from me.
My pleasure, my happiness.

But that was all last night.

"So you kissed her the very night you met her?" Lara gapes at me, with her hands covering her mouth.

She is stunned.

Even I am! I don't know how I did it.

"Yeah." I smile, thinking about it again.

"And what do you think she thinks about it?"

"A grave mistake on her part to kiss me back for a nanosecond, to even allow me to do that to her."

Lara resists however, "But she kissed you, she loves you."

"I know that Lara! She loves me because there's no way she was crying when I was dancing with her. You don't cry for people you don't love. But it's all about consent."

"What do you mean?"

"She doesn't consent to love me." I say out aloud.
"She doesn't allow herself to love me because neither do I deserve it, nor does she like it. She just loves me because she's helpless. If it would have been in her control, she would have killed me right there. She hates it that she feels for me. And I respect it. Because my mistakes are too big to be pardoned."

"And if someone doesn't like the feeling of what they do, then it's worthless. I may do a task but if I am not doing it willingly, then it will reap me, failure in the future. We are a failure Lara. I am a failure of her life."

"I don't agree with you." Lara steps back emotionally.

"She must be punishing herself for what I did last night. I just know her." I reply, without agreeing to Lara.

"I still don't get you. If she wasn't willing then she would have slapped you for kissing her without her consent. It's a fact that she has allowed you to touch her, ruin her again."

"Ruin?" I question.

"Love ruins, Agastya. It does. Sometimes it ruins everything literally and figuratively, and sometimes it ruins all the bad things, and carve new beginnings. It's the latter in your case." Lara sounds sincere but I don't want to dwell on her words and instill hope.

"I don't know!" I walked away, not waiting for her response.

Lara was kind enough to understand and not take it to her heart, whatever Love did with her. Hurling insults and judging her character because of her animosity with me, was not fine but Lara understood it all. I apologized to her, but instead she asked me what followed the dance.

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"We lie at the bottom of the news piece, why? Because we are not the news. We are the news makers. It's the information we need to pass on, we don't intend to fight our anonymity." A loud applause erupted as I was concluding the seminar speech. I was invited to a prestigious college for a journalism seminar as a guest, today.

I was looking at the crowd of young fresh minds who are budding journalists, when my eyes identified a certain someone.

Dressed in a light blue high neck sweater and a khaki pant, she looked no less young than the students present there. Lavanya's charm is undeniable. Who would guess that the crowd has the managing editor and ex CEO of The Gossip Bee among them?

She's so young, so dainty, so gorgeous!

"Raichand, I need a minute." She says clearing her throat, after giving me pissed expressions for a good five minutes, as we stand in the garden of the college. The dean was staring at us from a distance thinking what these two business rivals are doing. God!

And Love? 

She would kill me, if she is allowed to do that. I laughed in my mind, thinking how would she look with a mask and knife in her hand.

"I can offer you a lifetime instead."

"I'd love to die rather." She says with a mean expression.

Oh, how much I am loving it when she's being mean to me. Because that's new and exciting!

"I wouldn't let that happen."

"By your grace, I would have surely seen the heavens." Her comment makes my heart bleed instantly.

"you would have surely seen the heavens with me, by your side." I whisper, leaning near her ear. I can hear her heartbeat pacing.

"what did you - JUST FORGET IT!" She murmur to herself, more than me, while pushing me away from her, at an arms distance.

"let me cut the crap! Mr. Agastya Raichand, I have come here to give you a clear ultimatum that I am not going to bear your presence around me. You can't go around kissing me, without my consent, in front of people." WOW! She said it in a breathe. 

"Telling me as if you didn't kiss me back." A smirk plays on my lips while her lips go dry, her eyes helpless.

"It was a reflex. I acted against it right away." Stupid! Such a stupid statement, just for the sake of countering me.

"This is not an appropriate answer Love! At least think before what you say." I exclaim rather loudly.

"I hate you. And I wasn't involved in it." Lavanya turns her head, looking away. 

"Am I allowed to test?" I lean again, smilingly. 

"WHAT? What, kind of test?" she looks cute when she stutters. 

"Let's test if you are saying the truth or not?" I suggest to be fair. 

"You are impossible." she grunts. 

"Either way you win! If you don't kiss me back, I will accept that I forced it on you. If you kiss me as a reflex, then I will agree that you have amazing reflexes and you are saying the truth because of course, you will act against it, right then." I try to explain as best and innocently as I can. 

"Very smart. Ain't you?" she looks at me with scrutinizing eyes. Eat me up Love, I am ready! 

"I have just proposed to you, a solution. Isn't it a fair play?" I pull back, correcting the collar of my white shirt. 

"We are not kids to play with each other. Oh! Pardon! You do play with people's feelings and then kiss them for your own fun." she jabs and she looks stunning doing that. My mean bae. 

"That's why I am asking to check, cross check!" 

"Is that so? Bring it on!" Lavanya surprisingly, steps closer, closing her small hazel eyes, with a cute pout. 

Oh, don't allow me Love, I won't be able to stop. 

"Should I kiss you? It's consensual?" I ask, awkwardly. 

"Yes! Kiss me right away. Let's get done with the test." she blinks at me and again closes her eyes, making up her mind, not to kiss me, but I am losing my mind.

I hold her by her hair in my hand, pulling her closer, my lips brush against the corner of her talkative mouth.

"I missed you, Love." I whisper, gently, her lips go dry as I finally smash my lips on her pink ones.

I hold her by her neck, she's visibly shivering, with restraint, I brush my lips on her soft and inviting ones, expecting a tender response. But instead of reciprocating the kiss, she stands still, her lips unmoving.

Lavanya Sinha, you will be the death of me.

Even if she's doing nothing, I am at her mercy. My knees are giving up.

I grab her ass, but she still doesn't stir.
I have shut my eyes because her eyes seem distant, gazing past me as if focused on something else entirely. Her body is unresponsive, her arms hanging limp at her sides, her shoulders tense.
I am so unhappy but I am happy.

Loving this side of her totally.

I deepen the kiss, my passion and emotion is meeting only resistance. My lips move against hers, more insistently. Still, she didn't respond, her lips a firm.

I decide to part away, declaring her a winner. She will always win.

I moved back, slowly, after pouring all my love in that kiss, so that even if she doesn't reciprocate, she feels what I have to offer. Love and only love for my Love.

"See, I didn't kiss you. Got your answer now?" she utters, not meeting my eyes, tip toeing on her feet.
Her hand cups her face, brushing her lips. Lavanya looks shaken, heavily resisting what she's feeling. But that's okay.

"Yup. I forced it upon you." I jump on my feet slightly, putting my hands into my pocket.

"And may I ask why?" she finally looks at me.

"I hate that man. Be with anyone, choose anyone over me, but him." I say with a straight face, implying exactly what I am saying. Each and every word.

"What if I choose him?" she grows defiant.

"I won't let you do it."

"And can you stop being a jerk for once in your life?" Lavanya yells.
"Don't you get tired of repeating the same things again and again."

"You can say whatever you want to. But I am territorial over you, if it's Aditya you choose, among so many people who are dying to be with you." I seriously have no issues if she is deciding to move on but not with Aditya.

"You are crazy! And you know what, I am going to do exactly how you have put it. It's Aditya!" She replies, gritting on her teeth.
"And my parents are happy to see us together. I am not backing down from this proposal. Do whatever you can do, to stop me."

The earth beneath my feet, slips. What the fuck is she saying? Her parents? They want her to marry Aditya?

What the actual hell-

"You are not going to do this. Not him, Love! Not him." Tears well up my eyes, I'll plead to her if this is what she wants.

"Exactly him. I am no longer your pawn. Your sex toy! Your favourite pass time. I am not one, anymore." she utters harshly. Very bitter!

"You never were. Why don't you understand this?" I sound desperate. She was never any of the things she has mentioned.

My betrayal has reaped me all this. Fuck you Agastya Raichand.

"I don't want to understand anymore." she continues taking a pause.
"You don't matter to me Raichand. Trust me, you don't!" Lavanya steps back and walks away without listening to me.

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A/N: Tada! Your Friday's update is here. Please shower some love on the story! Love love!