Hitting the surface today, desiring more. Desiring something that shuts me up and knocks me to the floor. With all that swarms around me and threatens to take my life, I stick to the plan and put down the knife....cut a smile from ear to ear - that way there's a permanent smile when I'm filled with fear. Lips speak words that I don't hear because the light infront of them draws ever near. The enemy taunts and talks, I'll make you famous and give you a new walk - I'll give you a plaque with your name and face ...and I ignore the words and steady my gaze... into the glow that assures me I'm fine and wonder if all that I lost will be returned because it's rightfully mine. A voice whispers - I'll return them and give you even more all you need to do is answer when I knock on the door.

Still the enemy speaks and says - You want fame, I'll give you that too, all you have to do is obey me and I can free you. The devil on the left and Lord on the right, Lord knows how many times I've battled it out and lost the fight. Not today - he keeps talking and says the last thing I needed to hear before it all sunk in. He offered me fame and fortune and a whole set of new friends. His fame flashed across my eyes - me laying in a coffin as if I'd died. Six word Eulogy given by the demon that defeated me and said these things are true.....He flicked the ashes of his cigarette on my face, quoted a Rick Ross song and said "You're nobody..... til somebody....... kills you."

Well now, I didn't like the way that went and what I saw - my feelings were so open and raw. It made me think that the battle had already been won by the opposite side and there was the devil dancing in his pride. The Lord reminded me though that he defeated him in battle long ago - that salvation, life and freedom are already mine I just need to let it show.

So I walk head up, spirits high and in a movement of full grace - this smile not cut but is just as broad and bold as expensive jewelry but on my face. I have the victory, the pleasure of winning is all mine - so devil, it's just a matter of time.