It has been extremely difficult for Sparrow to just. Every load noise, she would be right there to kill whatever made it. She would always go for her weapons, but she never had them in her. It was out of pure reflex and wanting to protect. Tony thought it was best that she didn't have her weapons on her, and she agreed, so she handed them over, but he told her where to get them and the code to get them just in case she needed them. She was always looking over her shoulder like something would attack her or somewhere out of nowhere. It was a struggle to make Sparrow sleep because she would ever wake up every two hours and check the building top to bottom to ensure everyone was safe. Somehow she even ended up sleeping next to Tony's and Peper's door a couple of nights, and it scared the crap out of Peper a couple of times. It has been two weeks since she was rescued, and not a lot of the avengers were okay with her not having a collar on, but it was mostly Loki since every time he made a loud noise, she was there annoyed him.

Tony was making breakfast for the team with Sparrow, and seeing her happy, even if it was for a couple of minutes, made his day better. Tony was making bacon while she was making pancakes. They didn't talk much. They just looked at each other sometimes as she was enjoying seeing him being all grown up. He was doing things on his own, him having facial hair and having a baby on the way. Secretly it broke her heart that he wasn't a baby anymore. She missed hers and her brother; the pain was unbearable, but she lived with it as long tony was happy, so was she, even if she had to fake it.

"So Sparrow, is there any way you take your eggs?" Tony asked with a mischievous grin.

"I dont remember how I liked them; I always made sure my brother and son had enough to eat before I went on missions; I dont even remember if I even like pancakes," she said as she was now on autopilot. Her brain was focused on other things to the point tony had to take the pan out of their hand because it started to burn.

She looked confused at first, and then she seemed to snap out of it a bit.

"Im sorry my brain went somewhere else," she said as Tony turned the oven off for a bit.

"You never told me you had family," Tony said softly.

"Because they're all dead, I watched them die, and I didn't want you to feel guilty or sad because of their deaths. I wanted you to be happy..." She said softly as the other avengers slowly poured in for breakfast.

"Sparrow, I know you still see me as a kid, but you can tell me these things, im here for you," Tony said softly.

"I love you, Tony, and I don't want you to feel guilty or sad. You and your friends eat up. I need to be alone for a bit," she said as she kissed Tony's head and leaving.

"But Sparrow," tony called as steve noticed her grim expression on her face.

"Did you get on to her for going into the vents and checking for bombs?" Nat asked.

"How about punching the tv when I turned on the news and a terrorist organization was being mentioned?" Clint asked.

"Every time I drop a book or blow up a chair out of pure rage," Loki muttered.

"She reminds me of a mother bear so much I think its great," Thor said with a smile.

"Guys, quit it! Sparrows' family is dead. The only reason she is acting like this is that her son and brother are dead. She watched them die. She needs to heal, so before you ask her to stop doing some of the things,s she does think about that for a second. Go help yourselves im going to check up on Sparrow," Tony said as he quickly left.

Steve followed his lead just in case she lost her mind and tried killing him. If Tony died, then she would lose her mind, maybe for good. Tony knocked on her door, and there was no answer.

It's Tony; I'm coming in," Tony said as he opened her door slowly. He saw her in the farthest corner of her room, crying.

"Sparrow..." Tony said as she cried harder.

"What happened to your family?" Tony asked.

"My pain is for me to bear," she cried as Tony put a hand on her shoulder as she was shaking.

"Not anymore, you have a family now, im here and Steve, who knows a lot about hydra, I know he can help too," Tony said as he sat next to her.

"When they have me the mission to kill your parents, I was going to do it. I made my brother lunch before leaving so he wouldn't go hungry and then left for your house. I was going to kill your parents until I saw you. By that time, my son had been dead for years, I was 20 when I had him, and he died when he was six years old, and his name was Anthony. When you told me your full name for a moment, I thought you were mine, and I had to fight the urge to take you and make you my baby because I never had a chance to morn him or even see what they did to him. When I saw you, I saw him. But I knew he was dead, and they had my brother, and I knew what my brother would have wanted. So I let your family life even though it was going to cost me my life. I knew I had to give you a life I never had got. By the time I was your age, I had saw my parents kill seven people, and I didn't want you to be angry or sad. I wanted you to have a family. A house with a white picket fence and a dog. A good wife and children. I wanted you to have all of that and so much more, so I did what I did for my brother so you wouldn't go to bed hungry and so you felt safe. When I went back and told them that there was a child in the home, I couldn't hurt them; they had my brother locked up in chains and made me watch them cut his head off because I chose to let you live. They still tried to get me to kill people by whipping my memories, but I remembered your name. I swore that I would always protect you no matter what, and to love you as a mother would even though you weren't mine, you felt like mine. I know my brother died a horrible death, but I still think I made the right choice on protecting you. Even though it hurts not seeing you as a baby because my body still tells me that it needs to fill that hole in my heart where my family was. Im happy you did so many amazing things, and you made me so proud and made me feel like a proud mother again. Im just worried now that when I hear your baby cry, I will try to make her mine because my body wants to be a mother again, and I dont know how long I will be able to stay the way I am now," she explained as Tony's eyes welled up with tears as he hugged her close to his chest.

"Im sorry you had to choose," Tony said as he couldn't imagine the pain and her sorrow.

"I love you, Tony, more than anything else, and I would gladly go through all the pain again if it meant you were okay and alive," she said as she hugged him back.

Steve now felt horrible that he thought she was evil. She sacrificed her brother to make sure that a little boy had a good life and what she got out of it was 120 years of pain.

"Tony, Nick wants Sparrow for a mission," Bucky said as he came by her room.

"Tell him ill go; she can't fight right now. She has been fighting her whole life. She needs a break from it," Steve said.

"They want to see what she can do;  It's not an option," Bucky sighed.

"Tell them if she goes, then I will personally put my shield up there asses. She isn't going; she needs time to heal and to be a normal human being for once instead of a killing machine. She is human. She has a heart, a good one that got ripped apart. Im going on the mission, and if anyone else wants to go, fine, but she needs time with Tony," Steve said as he felt a hand on his shoulder.

"Steve, if he wants me to go, then ill go," she said as Steve turned to see how sad she was.

"No, your not, your not a robot or a heartless human being. You have a heart, and you need time to be a normal human being for once instead of being a killing machine!" He protested as she looked at him oddly.

"Why do you care?" She asked.

"Because bucky was in the same spot you were in, given you are in a lot worse shape, but I'm not going to let you be the monster you were meant to be!" Steve said as she sighed.

"Steve, I am already past that point," she said softly.

"No, you're not; you are a mother, and your instincts are telling you to protect Tony. I'm going to do the mission; you stay here with everyone that decides against the mission. You need to heal, your not a bad person. Dont let them win," Steve said as he looked at her.

She sighed and nodded.

"Your right, but if they want me to go, I will go with you," she said as he was annoyed at her at this point, but he couldn't argue.

"Fine, but that is the last resort," Steve said.

"Agreed,"