Chapter 22

~Jessie’s POV~

“Where is my mate?” he asked, this time his voice cold and deadly brooking no argument.

I had never been more afraid in my life.

“P-Please Thomas, I c-can’t.” I pleaded with him but his eyes narrowed even further.

Soon his wolf would take over again and he’d probably rip me to shreds. I took my eyes off his face for a second trying to figure out what I could to get out of my current situation, but his hands tightened on my shoulders and I cringed, looking back at him.

His eyes were already changing color which meant the change would be upon him soon. He pulled me off the wall and slammed me into it again and I let out a whimper. He was much stronger than me, there’s no way I’d make it out of this alive. Not unless…unless. That’s when it came to me. My syringe!

I’d slipped it into my coat pocket before I’d left the office this morning so that I could administer the sedative to any of my patients who needed something to more than calm them down. Jake and Grady hadn’t wanted it and I didn’t expect to use it in this way but I had no choice. Just as he let go of my shoulder with his right hand I reached into the lab coat pocket and as he was bringing his hand down to slam it into me I screamed out and brought my own hand up, plunging the needle into his neck.

He screamed in pain and let go of me completely, pulling the syringe out and glaring over at me. It was over by the time he managed the first step and I watched in horror as he fell to ground, his body unmoving.

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~Grady’s POV~

 They wouldn’t let me see Thomas.

It had been hours since the incident and they still refused to let me see him. They wouldn’t even tell me where he was and I was beyond frustrated. I found myself cursing under my breath for about the hundredth time that day as I looked over at my fellow hostage, - because that’s exactly what we were in my eyes-.

He was sitting on the couch across the room staring blankly at the muted television screen as he had been doing ever since we were thrown in here for our own ‘protection’. I had a feeling he was in shock but it was hard for me to give a shit when he was the one who had gotten us into this mess in the first place.

If he hadn’t kissed me then Thomas wouldn’t have gone ape shit on our asses and I wouldn’t be stuck here worrying like crazy and dying to see his face again. I sighed and pushed up from my seat, resuming my earlier pacing. Jake turned to look at me and his eyes followed me back and forth across the room.

He hadn’t uttered a word since our ordeal and the periodic looks he kept shooting me were always tinged with fear. He probably thought I was going to turn into a wolf and eat him. Ha! He was lucky I wasn’t a wolf; the little trouble maker.

I think what added to my frustration the most was the thought that Thomas probably thought it was me who instigated the kiss. He was probably out there feeling angry and betrayed and I couldn’t even go and explain myself to him.

Ugh!

 The two guards from earlier were still posted just outside the door with strict instructions not to let us out. I don’t know what Carson’s problem was but he was pissing me off to the max. I was going crazy in here!

I was halfway across the room again when the door banged open and Carson entered with Laken not far behind him.

“Time for our talk.” Carson announced, his eyes on Jake who stiffened when he realized Carson had addressed him.

He’d witnessed Carson shift into a wolf and tackle Thomas this morning so I wasn’t surprised by his reaction.

“Dude where the hell have you been all day? Tell your muscle men to back off I want to see Thomas.” I said folding my arms and squaring my shoulders as I glared at him.

“Thomas is with Jessie right now, you can see him when she thinks it’s safe.” He told me simply. His voice was calm as was his expression and that succeeded in just pissing me off further.

“Gimmie a break, safe for who? Thomas won’t hurt me.” I said with absolute certainty but Carson turned away and focused his attention on Jake once more.

My heart fell “Come on man, I haven’t seen him in hours, I just wanna know if he’s alright.” I pleaded.

“He’s fine.” Carson said glancing back at me briefly.

“It’s not that it’s not safe is it? He doesn’t wanna see me right? Is that it? Does he think I cheated on him?” I asked, the fear surfacing in my voice and Carson gave me a patient look.

“Trust me he wants to see you too but he’s unstable right now, his wolf completely took over back there, that’s how angry he was and we need to make sure he’s completely back to normal before we let him near you.”

“Fuck that, I’m not a member of your pack you don’t need to protect me, just let me see him.” I shouted and watched as Carson opened his mouth to speak but Laken cut him off before he could even get a word out.

“Just let him go Carson, he deserves to be with his mate. Thomas won’t hurt him.” He said with a gentle smile at his Alpha.

“We don’t know that, anything could-”

“If you ever lost control like that do you think you would hurt me?” Laken asked him and I looked back and forth between the two.

“Of course not.” Carson said immediately.

“But how can you be so sure?” Laken questioned, tilting his head to the side as he awaited Carson’s answer.

“Because you’re my mate, even if I lost control deep down I’d still know not to hurt you, I love you too much for that.” Carson said, gazing at Laken as if he were the best thing since sliced bread.

“So what makes you so different from Thomas?” Laken asked with a smile and Carson was stumped.

He remained silent for a bit then looked between me and Laken then sighed.

“Fine you can go see him Grady he’s in the courtyard commons but a guard has to accompany you.” Carson announced and nodded to one of the guards standing by the door.

I released a sigh of relief and clapped Laken on the shoulder as a thank you, then I raced out the door with the guard close at my heels.

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~Grady’s POV~

I was a bit surprised when the guard chose to wait outside rather than follow me in, especially due to the way he’d practically been up my ass on the journey over here. I took a deep breath and pushed the door open then closed it behind me. My heart had sped up in my chest and I suddenly felt my entire body flush with heat-and not the good kind- I hated that I was so nervous to see him.

I guess I was just afraid he might still be pissed at me for what happened. I turned the corner and took in the sight before me with furrowed brows.

Thomas was spread out on the only couch in the room, his body still and eyes closed while Jessie sat on the coffee table facing him, her head hung.

“Is he asleep?” I asked and her head flew up.

She looked surprised to see me.

“It’s okay Carson said I could come.” I assured and walked closer to the pair.

She nodded and glanced back over to Thomas “I gave him a sedative, he should be awake any minute now.” She said softly.

“Sedative? Why? Is something wrong with him?” I questioned when I came to stop directly in front of Thomas.

Jessie got up from her spot on the coffee table and I took her seat.

“Because he attacked me, I had no choice.” She said, her voice trembling.

My eyes instantly flashed to her face “Attacked you? Thomas? Are you okay?” I asked in disbelief.

She nodded again.

“But why?” I asked, my eyes drifting back to my boyfriend. He looked so peaceful lying there.

“He wanted to see for himself that you were okay but I couldn’t tell him where you were so he got mad and attacked me.” She said simply and I felt the warmth bloom in my chest.

I knew it was wrong for me to feel happy in the face of her ordeal but the fact that he had wanted to see me so bad had a wave of relief flooding through my body.

“Then why didn’t you just tell him?” I asked again. This time I reached over and took Thomas’s limp hand in mine.

“Because Jake was with you and if he sees Jake he’ll kill him Grady.” She said sounding a bit irritated.

“No he won’t.” I answered confidently.

“Trust me you weren’t here when he was acting up, he said he would kill Jake and the look in his eyes said it all.” She went on, gathering up her things.

“That’s the problem with all of you, you don’t understand him like I do. Maybe he’d have killed him this morning when his wolf had taken over but not when he was human.” I told her.

“He would have.” She said firmly once more and I found myself getting slightly annoyed.

“Could I just have a moment alone with him please.” I asked as civil as I could.

“I really don’t think that’s a good idea.” She went on.

“Carson said I could.” I hurried on and I watched as she took a deep breath, took up her papers and left the room without a backward glance.

I knew I hadn’t handled that situation right but I’d talk to her later.

“You really have that much confidence in me huh?”

I froze when I heard Thomas’s voice and when his eyes cracked open I eased off the table and knelt on the floor at his side. His hand still in mine.

“You were awake this whole time?” I asked in awe. My eyes travelling all over his handsome face. I had missed him these past few hours.

“No, just long enough to hear you defending me.” He said then moved to sit up in the couch.

He looked fine, he didn’t seem woozy or weak from what Jessie had given him. I guess that was a werewolf thing.

“I swear to God Thomas I didn’t kiss Jake, he ki-” I started.

“I know.” He said, looked into my eyes. “I just lost it this morning, I don’t know what came over me I was just so frustrated that when I saw you guys I just went crazy, I couldn’t control myself.” He said. He looked ashamed of his actions and I squeezed his hand in reassurance.

“I would’ve killed him Grady.” He whispered, breaking eye contact .

“Yeah but it was your wolf, you couldn’t control yourself.” I repeated his earlier words.

“Even after I shifted back, I wanted to do it and if it wasn’t for Jessie I would have.”

“And now?” I asked him, moving to sit beside him on the couch.

“I don’t know. Maybe it’s best I don’t see him for awhile.” Was all he said with a sigh and we both fell silent, each caught up in our own thoughts.

After awhile he spoke up

“You know I didn’t believe it when they told me Jake kissed you and not the other way around.” He said softly.

“But I would never do that, I love you!” I said raising my voice at him.

“I know that but lust and love are too very different things Grady.” He said seriously.

“Lust?  I’m not into Jake, you’re the only guy I’ve ever been attracted to.” I told him with certainty, looking deep into his eyes praying he’d believe me.

“Yeah well after Jessie sedated me, I guess it helped somehow because for some reason all my earlier anger is just…gone. I’ve been such a fool to even think you’d do something like that. I can’t believe I did that.” he said and closed his eyes briefly pinching the tip of his nose. “ I’ll have to apologize to her later.” He said.

“Why didn’t you just do it before she left just now?” I asked.

He shrugged.

“So this is what happens to wolves when they get jealous?” I asked with a smile.

“This was more than just jealously Grady but yeah I guess it is. Wolves are possessive to begin with, throw in a mate and that’s escalated a hundredfold. We can’t control it, our love just goes deep I guess.” He told me. And while I didn’t know how I felt about that, as I watched him, a grin broke out on my face.

I’d worried all these hours for nothing! He wasn’t pissed at me, he was pissed at himself and I certainly wasn’t pissed at him so it was a win win.

“Thank God, I thought this was gonna turn into something serious.” I said again.

He didn’t say anything in response. He simply raised his hand and brought in up to run through my hair. Then down to my face where he cupped my cheek for a second, after which his fingers grazed my lips and his hand continued its dissent to my throat and when he reached my chest he paused, his eyes roaming my face for what felt like forever.

“I’ve been stupid.” He said softly, his eyes now held mine and the emotion I saw in his made my breath catch in my throat. “The one thing you asked for and I couldn’t do it. I’ve been so selfish.” He continued, gazing at me with such intensity I had to quash the urge to fidget.

He was looking at me as if I was more than myself, more than just Grady Mitchell. As if he just couldn’t believe what he saw, like I was the only thing that that mattered, like his…his salvation and I had to look away lest I start believing I was actually worth that much to someone. Like I was that loved.

I put my hand over my heart as I felt it pounding, and pounding and pounding. Whatever he felt for me went deeper than I could even begin to understand and I hadn’t realized it until now. The word ‘love’ wasn’t enough, what went beyond that? how could I describe this?

“Grady.” He whispered pulling my face back to his, but I shut my eyes tight. I didn’t want to see that look in his eyes again.

 I didn’t want to see it because I knew I could never look at him the way he was looking at me. If I felt for him the same depth he felt for me I could only imagine I’d shatter. It would kill me because I already loved him more than love itself and to love any deeper…it was just impossible. Yet he clearly loved me on different level.

It wasn’t fair that his love seemed much more than mine when I already loved him with everything I had.

“Grady. Grady, what’s wrong?” Thomas asked. His hands were still on either side of my face and his voice was tinged with concern.

I felt the tears build up and when I opened my eyes they cascaded down my face.

“Why me?” was all I could whisper brokenly.

“What do you mean?” he asked in confusion.

“Out of everybody in the world, out of everybody who’s better for you, why me?” I asked again.

“Why not you?” he responded and I felt a pain in the region of my heart.

“But I stress you out, I’m irresponsible, I annoy you. I always mess up, I’m always saying stupid shit. Why would you love me? It just doesn’t make any sense.” I told him.

He wiped away my shameful tears with the pad of his fingers then smiled “because I figured rather than let you drive some other unsuspecting fool insane, it just best I love you because I’m the only one who can handle it.” He said and I chuckled through the tears.

“Wow way to make a guy feel good about himself. What kinda answer is that?’ I asked with a grin. He might not know it but it was probably the best thing he could’ve said to me.

“What? You put me on the spot, it’s the best I could come up with with such short notice.” He said with a laugh and I grinned.

“You’re a damn idiot that’s what you are.” I told him then pulled his hands away from my face and swooped in to kiss him messily on his mouth. He turned on the couch to face me fully then pulled me even closer to him, until our bodies were pressing up against each other and I could feel every inch of him.

I felt the heat flush through my body when he pushed me back until I was laying under him on the couch then proceeded to grind against me in that erotic way he knew I loved. He moved from my lips to my neck and I gasped when he licked the sucked the flesh at the base of my throat. God I had missed this!

I couldn’t believe I’d actually gone without this for so long. I loved the feel of his calloused hands trailing over my body, the scorching heat that passed through me whenever he touched my organ, the meld of our tongues and the sound of our breaths panting, gasping and groaning as our pleasure heightened. I loved it all.

He pulled my shirt over my head then quickly shrugged out of his.

“Wait. What if someone comes in?” I asked placing my hand on his chest to ward him off.

“Who cares.” He answered and not a second later his mouth was on me again, teasing and suckling and leaving me begging for more. When he bit down again I arched up to meet him and he froze, his eyes going to mine, his gaze uncertain.

“What?” I question, my voice sounding strained and breathless.

“I don’t want to do it like this.” He said and I looked up at him confused.

“What? What’s wrong? You want me to turn around?” I questioned once more, moving to flip around but he grabbed me preventing me from moving.

“No…I think maybe we should do it your way. You deserve this.” He said simply. His voice was low so that I had to lean closer to hear but his words were clear enough.

My eyes widened “You mean?” was all I could say and he nodded, breaking eye contact with me and moving to rest his weight on his knees.

I pushed up so that I sat facing him. “Are you sure? Because I mean, it’s ok, I’ve given up on that you don’t haf to-”

“I’m sure.” He said cutting me off but he still didn’t meet my eyes.

“Okay.” I answered, took a deep breath and smiled.

He didn’t return it but I figured he was probably just too caught up in the moment.

 I moved over to him and placed a hand on his chest, pushing him gently onto his back.

                                                                 AUTHOR'S NOTES

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