Chapter 20

Grady and I were making out on my couch.

I knew it was a bad idea, especially since there were only two ways this could end: halfway through or with me topping my mate and if I did that then he’d be pissed with me when he came to his senses but that didn’t stop me.

I bent my head and took his lips again and again, reveling in his moans of pleasure and getting a high from the feel of his body rubbing against mine.

 I lifted my head once more to look down at his handsome face and my breath caught. His supple lips were damp and bruised from the force of my kiss and his eyes were glazed and lustful as he looked up at me and I fought the urge to rip the clothes from his body and just take him right then and there.

Instead, I reached down and ran my hand gently from the base of his throat, across his turgid nipples and over his abdomen which flexed involuntarily at my touch. When I reached the hem of his shirt I pulled it just as slowly over her head and bent to rain kisses all over his naked flesh.

His own hands came to rest on my shoulders as I continued my ministrations and when I bit down gently on the flesh at his hip he gasped and his body arched in response. He was gorgeous lying pliant beneath me and this fueled my own arousal.

I moved to unbuckle his jeans and when my fingers brushed against his him he moaned; a sexy seductive sound, and wiggled his hips to grind against my already firm member.

“Shit Grady, you’re killing me.” I gasped out and fumbled to unbuckle his jeans.

I think it was the sound of my voice that did it because as soon as the words were out of my mouth Grady shot out from under me, causing me to fall backwards unto the floor below.

I groaned and covered my eyes with my hand. If we continued like this I’d either go insane or explode. I wasn’t sure I liked either prospect.

“We can’t...not unless you-”Grady managed to gasp out.

“Yeah yeah I got it.” I cut him off, then sat up and pulled myself onto the couch, resting by head against the back.

After visibly trying to pull himself together Grady walked over to where I sat and lowered himself onto the floor at my feet. He took up the remote control from the coffee table and flipped the television on, after which the back of his head came to rest on my knee.

I focused my attention on taking deep calming breaths; either that or I’d have to go take a cold shower.

“I can’t do this anymore.” Grad announced in frustration minutes later. His eyes were glued to the screen but I could feel the tension coming off him in waves, further cemented by the stiff set of his shoulders.

“Then how about you stop fighting me on this so we can get on with our lives.” I said simply then reached over to the table beside the couch and took up the bottle of beer I had been drinking earlier.

Grady remained silent and I shrugged, putting the bottle to my mouth and taking a huge gulp of the yellow substance.

“Why can’t you just do it, this is the only thing I’m asking.” Grady spoke again, this time he turned around fully and met my eyes with a pleading look.

I hated it when he looked at me like that, I always ended up feeling guilty.

“I told you, I just don’t do certain things.” I said talking a sip of my beer.

“But why?  What’s so wrong about it, I do it all the time what’s so wrong if I take the lead for a change?” he asked again, his voice still hadn’t risen to more than a whisper and I could tell this was a serious issue for him.

“There’s nothing wrong with it, I just can’t. Not everybody feels comfortable doing everything.” I explained, my voice equally soft and patient as I gazed down at him.

“Is it because you think it ‘ll make you less than a man? Just tell me the truth I can handle it.” He said, his jaw set firmly and his eyes tight as he awaited my answer.

“No. Look Grady I’m the Beta of my pack. I’m a dominant; it’s just not in me to do stuff like that.”

“Fuck that shit, you’re not my Beta and I’m not a member of your pack, we’re just two guys in a relationship and I’m asking you…as your boyfriend to do this. Forget about being a leader for once. This is just us.” Grady pleaded and took hold of my hand, giving it a light squeeze.

I sighed. “You want me to loosen up, to not be so in control all the time right?” I asked him and he nodded.

“I can do that Grady, it’s not a problem, I can do it, we don’t have to use sex as a way to make it happen.” I said again and watched as the small window of hope seeped from his eyes and his mouth screwed up in displeasure.

“The mere fact that you can’t give up control in the bedroom shows that you won’t be able to give it up anywhere else. Stop deluding yourself Thomas. I’ll say it again; I’m not having sex with you until you agree to this and I’m not changing my mind…ever.” Grady spoke again and I stared at him with wide eyes.

He was dead serious.

“By the way.” He went on, “Jake’s coming over later.” Grady said, his voice still straining with anger.

I looked at him in surprise, then shifted in my seat to get into a comfortable position.

“Jake? Jake from our class?” I asked to be clear.

“Yeah, he says he can beat me in battlefield so I’m calling him on it.” Grady said and just like that a grin broke out on his face at the prospect of a challenge.

“Dude, you just met him, you can’t just go and invite him over!” I said, my voice rising a few octaves.

“I met him two days ago and yes I can.” Grady said, looking at me as if I was the one who had lost my mind.

“But-” I started and he cut me off.

“Anyway, he’ll be here in a few hours. Now shut up so I can watch the game.” He said then turned to the screen again and turned up the volume in an attempt to drown me out.

I just sat there in shock, staring at the back of his head which came to rest against my knee once more; beer forgotten.

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“So then why do you call yourselves werewolves if you don’t even turn on the full moon or anything? What, you guys just stole the name?” Grady asked much later that day.

We were still sitting in the same position as we were earlier except this time he had his sketch pad in his lap, doodling.

I chuckled. “Yeah I guess you could say that. I don’t know what you’d call us; I just know that we’re not really werewolves in the true sense of the word.”

“Are there real werewolves then? Like turning on a full moon, eating people’s brains and shit?” Grady asked again.

“I don’t know why people assume that just because we’re not human we have to know every other mythical creature out there.” I said in reply and Grady rolled his eyes.

“You can be a real assho-” he began but his words were drowned out by the sound of the door bell.

Grady was instantly on his feet.

“Time to prove this kid wrong.” He said rubbing his hands together.

When he opened the door they greeted each other like old friends and after a nervous glance in my direction from the visitor of the hour, they were at it. Like two kids high on drugs.

 They sat on the floor side by side with a huge bowl on chips and dip sitting before them. Ever so often a shout or two would go up from the two, or a few words exchanged along the lines of; “You’re such a fuckin noob.” Or “Walked right into it bitch.” Yeah things like that.

Then they’d fall silent for awhile and the cycle would continue.

At least they didn’t seem particularly interested in anything but the game. Maybe they’d just play, Grady would beat him then they would part ways. The prospect alone made watching them bearable. But fifteen minutes after the recent string of profanity, Grady dropped his controller and turned eyes on Jake as if in awe.

“Dude, you are a fucking god!” he told him and I rolled my eyes.

“I can’t believe you beat me…me!” he said again.

“Yeah I’m awesome, can’t help it sometimes ya know?’ Jake joked and the grin on his face was bright enough to light up a state.

“So you guys done for the night?” I asked looking hopefully between the two.

“Oh…yeah.” Jake hesitated, looking between me and Grady, “I should probably get going.” He said at last and I could tell it was killing him, just the thought of having to leave.

“Well, you’ve been here for hours now, I’m sure your folks must be worried.” I said again, rising from my seat and making my way over to the front door.

“Actually they’re outta town this weekend.” He said, but I couldn’t care less. I just wanted him to leave so I could get Grady all to myself again.

It just didn’t sit well with me; the thought of sitting in the same room with someone who had the hots for my mate.

“No way, you can’t leave in this weather. You can stay the night. It’s too late anyway.” Grady said with a smile and Jake turned to me in question.

I looked to the window and sure enough the rain was tearing outside. So being the kind and considerate Beta that I was I turned to him and said;

“That’s just a little drizzle, I’m sure he’ll be fine Grady. See you on Monday Jake.” I spoke up, then went as far as to open the door myself.

Grady gave me a strange look, then shook his head.

“It’s cool, You can just bunk with me Jake, it’s no problem.”He said.

“No!” I practically shouted as I slammed the door.

Then when they both stood looking at me as if I had really lost a screw I cleared my throat.

“I mean, he’s a guest, he should get the room to himself. Grady can bunk with me.” I announced and looked at my mate to see if he would defy me.

“It’s cool, I don’t mind bunking with Grady.” Jake, the cheeky little bastard said and I glared at him as he watched my mate.

“I insist.” I said at last and Jake nodded, hardly meeting my eyes. Probably because he saw my glare.

“Alright cool. Whad’ya say then Jake, play me again?” Grady spoke up and he nodded.

The boy had no idea Jake was crushing on him. I guess it shouldn’t surprise me he couldn’t even see it. This was Grady after all.

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“Jake thinks you don’t like him. You should really try to work on your social skills dude.” Grady intoned.

We were lying in bed in my dark bedroom. It was past three in the morning and we were both tired yet we couldn’t seem to fall asleep. Even after coming up to bed about an hour before.

“That’s because I don’t.” I spoke up.

“Why not? He’s a cool kid.” Grady said and I felt him shift closer to me.

“First of all he’d not a kid.” I said.

“And second?” Grady asked.

“Huh?” I question in confusion.

“You said first of all so that usually indicates there’s a second of all.” He chuckled.

“I don’t have a second.” I replied with a sigh.

“Okay, then why don’t you like him?” he asked.

“Because he...wants you.” I got out and the thought had me seething with Jealousy all over again.

“Come again?” Grady said.

“Jake’s gay Grady and he’s had a crush on you for years.” I told him. It wasn’t easy for me to admit.

“What? Jake? Gay? No way dude.” Grady said, this time sitting up on the bed. A second later the bedside lamp came on and Grad was staring at my face in disbelief.

“I’m not lying if that’s what you’re thinking. He’s in the closet but I can tell he’s gay. It’s probably obvious to everyone but you.” I told him again.

 He didn’t speak just leaned back against the bed head as if he couldn’t believe the news.

“Don’t act so surprised you couldn’t possibly know much about him anyway, you just met him.” I assured.

“Two days ago.” He said as if that was a substantial amount of time to get to know someone.

I only looked at him, but rather than making another comment on what was clearly shocking news for him, he switched off the lamp and sank back down into the bed.

“You okay dude?” I asked in concern.

“Yeah I’m fine, just tired. Go to bed.” He told me and I decided I’d do just that. We’d talk about it in the morning.

…………………………….

I should have insisted we talk about it when I had the chance because when I entered the kitchen the next morning it was to the sight of my mate in a lip lock with Jake. The anger that erupted through me in that moment wasn’t something anyone would ever want to witness.

                                                           AUTHOR'S NOTES

IT'S SHORT BUT I'VE BEEN BUSY STUDYING SO THIS IS ALL I COULD MANAGE TODAY. HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS FILLER CHAPTER.

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