TW: there is a slight mention of a razor and cutting i'll put a warning and if it makes you feel uncomfortable just read the last two lines after the tw

back to the program

If you couldn't tell there was a lot of tension on set with the new relationships and all. Jess and Drew avoided each other like the plague all day yesterday and when they would have to film a scene together they went as far away from each other as possible.

Today is a new day and it's Saturday so everyone ends a bit early today so Jonas forced every single person to his house to relieve the tension which was a bad idea.

"The fuck is she doing here" Jess mumbled to Rudy as they entered the house together. There she was in the words of Jess 'the demon rat from hell' Erin. You would have to be pretty dumb to not notice the tension between the two.

"Hate to break it to you but she's also a part of the cast" Rudy said and kissed her side of her head before leaving to talk to JD. Jess huffed and went to find the only person who seems to understand her right now. Claricia was the only reasonable person here since also in the words of Jess 'everyone is brainwashed by her. Like how do they not see it'.

After 5 minutes of trying to find Claricia, she was found outside looking at the sunset. "Mind if I sit here?" Jess asked and before Claricia could even answer Jess said "K great thanks" and sat next to her friend.

"I was saving this other drink for me but it looks like you need it more" Claricia said after seeing how tired Jess was as she accepted the drink and started ranting about her week.

"I-I just don't get it why her. He just met the thing a month ago? Now they are all gross and flirty all the time. Not that me and Rudy aren't too but we arent that bad." Jess said rambling for a solid twenty minutes as Claricia was watching in amusement with how much this girl can talk about her week.

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It's been around five hours since everyone has been here and Jonas had to cut everybody off from drinking since they were very drunk. Madison gasped "I have an idea" she said.

"What if we just go around the room and say something nobody in the room knows" Hesitantly everyone agreed to the idea and decided to circle up. They wrote their name on a piece of paper and picked them out of a hat to decide the order and Erin was first.

"Alright ummm I think i'm a bit too drunk for this but i've always kinda had a crush on Drew so when I found him in one of his short films, I became a little obsessed and stalked him on social media. I didn grow out of it though but now that we are together my little self is screaming right now" Erin said with a smile on her face as she made eye contact with Jess and all Jess did was tense her jaw and take a sip of her drink.

Of course next up was Drew and he was the drunkest out of everyone here. He clears his throat and looks around the room. "I like ducks" then laughs. "Drew be serious we all knew that" Chase said with a serious tone but was soon laughing because he couldn't keep a straight face.

"Alright alright don't get mad but meanderinwaskindaapublicitystunt" Drew mumbled the last part sinking in the couch so nobody would be able to hear him.

"Huh" Jess said looking at Drew having an idea of what he said but wanted to confirm her suspicions.

"I said meanderinwaskindaapublicitystunt" he said the same way again and again until Jess and Erin had enough.

"Seriously Drew what the fuck dont you want to tell us that you keep mumbling it" Jess said annoyed.

"I agree" Erin said chiming in

"Fine! You were a publicity stunt Erin okay! My manager said if I dated you it would bump up my status or some shit I wasn't listening." When Drew said that everyone gasped except for the two girls who were played by him before.

Erin had tears threatening to fall all while Jess had a stone cold face and walked up to Drew to slap him in the face. "Oww what the fuck" Drew said pissed off

"Are you kidding me Drew! First I was a bet and now she's a publicity stunt. How many people are you going to ruin? I'm not too fond of Erin as you know but this still isn't right for you to do." After Jess said that she whispered something in Erin's ear.

"You said you loved me before. Was that a lie" Erin said with cracks in her voice. Drew just glared at Jess for making her ask the question. In reality it was going to come up either way.

"Erin listen I really did love you and yes what Jess said was true about her being a bet but there is more to the story. You are the best thing that's happened to me in forever" Drew looked at Erin while everyone else looked at Jess.

Jess, just like Erin also had some tears that almost came down from what he just told her. It's official to Jess that what her and Drew had was a one sided love.

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Jessica's POV:

You are the best thing that's happened to me in forever.

Bullshit

Those were the exact words Drew told me one night before it all went downhill. Now here I am standing there paralyzed because I have no idea what to say.

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Flashback

Jess and Drew are lying on the bed watching a random movie on Netflix while Jess was on Drews chest.

"I haven't been in a lot of relationships but I think this is the best one I've had" Drew said moving his fingers through her hair.

Jess snorts "I better be the best relationship you've had"

"You are the best thing that's happened to me in forever. I hope you know that." Drew said pulling Jess up so she was straddling his lap. All Jess did was smile back at him because to her the moment was perfect.

"This may be a bad time to say but we have to pet sit Milo tomorrow" Jess said, jumping off of Drew and skipping to the kitchen leaving Drew stunned since they had nothing to take care of a dog.

"This woman" Drew whispers and shakes his head

End of flashback

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Jess finally breaks from her little flashback and goes to the bathroom and starts to break down over the man who's broken her heart one too many times already.

"Am I not good enough for anybody?" Jess questions while looking in the bathroom for something.

TW

When she finds it she makes sure the door is locked and removes the safety from the razor and finds a spot on her leg.

Slowly the razor goes on cutting her leg. Blood coming from all directions caused Jess to cry more but to her it relieved the pain.

Once the razor is removed she finds another spot but this time makes it bigger than the next.

Just as she was about to do one more, a voice came from the door.

END OF TW

"Jess are you in here open up"

That voice made Jess freeze not knowing what to do.

hola people
i don't think i have anything to say so

make sure you eat
drink water
and your beautiful bc i said so

peace out