Seth
Always is a word that I've hated my entire life.

[ "I'll always be here Seth, no matter where you are or who you're with, you'll never be able to escape me! I'll always be right by your side." ]

But hearing it from Becky, doesn't make me want to crawl up in a ball and hide under the safety of Roman. It makes me feel different, but it still doesn't stop the memories from surrounding my mind. "Seth, we're here." Becky's voice startled me and I jumped a little. "Sorry, just thinking." She smiled, climbing out of the car before waking around to my door and opening it for me. "It's alright, worse things you could be doing Princess." I stepped out of her car, suddenly feeling small in my surroundings. "Go inside, the door should be open Dean's in the flat upstairs."

I walked into the building, Becky not far behind me as I started to climb the stairs. We stepped into Becky's flat and my eyes scanned over all the mess. "Sorry, I don't normally have visitors. Don't ask me how it's got even more messy since the last time you were here, because honey I honestly don't know." She slapped her hand over her mouth as she finished speaking, clearly embarrassed that she'd called my such a domestic pet name as honey. "Sorry, just slipped." She spoke timidly and I had to stop myself from kissing her right here, right now. "I don't mind."

"Maybe I'll call you it more often then, now Roman?" She asked, sitting down on a sofa throwing her legs over the arm on one side. "Oh yeah...Roman. He was mad at me because we moved state a couple years back now and Roman had to leave his girlfriend." She scrunched her face up, the confusion clear as day on her face. "After we left some bad things happened to her and he's blaming me for it because we had to move state, trust me I didn't want to leave California but it was for the best at that time." A pout appeared on Becky's face as she started to toy with the hem of her shirt. "Why did you leave if you didn't want to?"

"It wasn't safe anymore, we had to go. California wasn't the first state we've had to leave, me and Roman we've been running since we were sixteen. Roman called me a coward and a pathetic shadow of a man and he was right, if he wasn't we'd still be living in California...hell maybe we would've never left Texas." I looked down, my feelings becoming contorted as Roman's words stung me. "Seth you can't blame yourself for things that happened in the past, Roman's mad at you now but he'll come round, they always do. But may I ask; why wasn't California safe anymore?"

I swallowed, the memories making me feel dizzy as the rushed into my head. "I-I..a lot happened...a lot..." I still kept my eyes trained on my lap as I breathed out. "The only reason I came to uni was to escape my family, my parents aren't the best. When I went through a really difficult time in my life, when I found myself on the edge they weren't the ones pulling me back...they were the ones telling me to jump." I felt a new sense of vulnerability as Becky opened up to me, she's showing me her heart. "It was my brother who pulled me off the edge but then my parents forced him to join the army and I couldn't take it anymore, I wrote my brother a letter...a goodbye letter because I was falling and I had nobody to pick me up." I turned to face Becky, her nose was red and I could see how much this was hurting her, how hard it is to be open with me. "I tried...to you know...and god waking up in that hospital alone, made me feel a pain I've never felt before so I knew I had to go, so I came here...to Iowa."

She looked up at me and I knew she deserved to know the truth, well a part of it. "I had a difficult family too and a brother, who felt more like a best friend. I was eleven when my mother passed away, she was wonderful and she didn't treat me any different, even though I liked pink things, dresses, barbies, flowers. She actually embraced it but when I lost her, I lost any sense of feeling normal...my life just seemed to drown me and without my brother I would've drowned." Becky moved across the sofa and I wasn't sure what she was going to do, when she opened her arms. "Seth, I think you're normal...probably the most normal person I've met in this crazy world, you understand...you actually understand."

My gaze drifted between her eyes and her lips and in a moment of courage I leant forward, just ghosting my lips over hers. I almost went to pull away when I felt her press her lips to mine. Her open arms falling around my shoulders. The kiss was nothing like I imagined it would be, Becky's rough and I'm soft, we both blend together so perfectly I almost never want to break away. In my stomach I can feel thousands of butterflies just fluttering, it's a strange feeling...different to the fireworks people describe. Her lips are dancing with mine in perfect harmony and I never want it to stop, she pulled back first, eyes wide and a small smile on her lips as we both breathed heavily. "Seth...that...wow..." She leant her forehead on mine, lacing our hands together. "I never want to let go." I whispered and Becky's smile saddened. "Then don't, please don't let go."

"I won't, now you're stuck with me Becks. This is why you should never speak to weirdos in parties."

"No, this is why you should talk to weirdos in parties, because they'll turn out to be the best man in the room."