(Literally started crying while writing this... I cried everytime I started editing it and... You'll see why...)

Today is December 7th of 2019. Today was the day that Steven Universe Future would be airing for the first time. So to celebrate I invited my friend over to watch the first four episodes that would come out.

3:00 PM, it's one hour until my friend comes over and all I'm doing is laying on my bed staring at the ceiling. I was listening to some of my favorite songs from when I was a kid and it started to bring me back to simpler times.

The smile that was glued to my face became loose and started to fade, turning into a frown. I was deep into thought on someone that I thought I loved, Robin. And I did love her its just... It was different now..

At the start of this month I had gone on a campout with my scout troop and found out a bit of information that made me think a lot.

Annabelle and I had been talking about Robin when I noticed she looked a bit upset. So of course I asked why and the answer shocked me.

"Robin.. Likes someone else..." My heart dropped as she said that and the girl pulled me into a hug, "But you can't tell anyone I told you... She didn't want you to know because she still likes you too but.." Annabelle paused and I shook my head, "No I understand..."

After that campout was done we got to march in the Santa Parade. I was full in uniform with a reindeer costume on. I was the girl who was carrying the troop flag while my friend was carrying the American Flag.

I don't really remember too much from that parade other then when I turned the corner and saw her... Robin...

My eyes went wide as I mouthed hi but she looked like she was going to cry. I looked at her parents and my heart sank. I can't explain how much I wanted to rush over to that girl and hold her in my arms again, but I couldn't... I had a parade to do and her parents were right there.

Little did I know that'd be the last time I saw her before something bad happened.

Summer after high school, when we first met

I snapped out of my thinking when I heard my mom calling me, "Skylar come down, Megan is here!" She yelled up the stairs and a grin appeared on my face. I got off my bed and ran down the stairs to greet my friend at the door.

We makeout in your mustang to Radiohead

"Hi!!" I opened the door and waited for her to walk in, "Come on in!" I said happily. As she came in I told my parents that if they needed us, we'd be downstairs.

Told myself that you were right for me

We both then went downstairs, walking across the cold concrete floor until we reached the carpet. We then sat down on the couch and turned the tv on.

And on my eighteenth birthday, we got matching tattoos

"Alright so the Steven Universe movie is starting right now before the premiere of the episodes! We should watch it." I said. My friend nodded in agreement and I put it on.

As the movie started we began to strike up a conversation. We had been talking about lots of different things like school and other stuff. I then felt my phone vibrate. It was a text from my parents asking what we wanted from Taco Bell.

Used to steal your parents liquor and climb to the roof

We both ended up getting the same thing which was a chalupa box. My dad went out to get the food as we continued the movie and our conversation.

Once the food got here we brought it downstairs and sat on the floor to eat. That was when we started to get a little deep in our conversation. Of course it was about Robin and the whole situation that was happening with it...

Talk about our future like we had a clue

All of this entire thing was stressing me and her out by now. I was losing my girlfriend and Megan was losing a best friend...

Never planned that one day I'd be losing you...

I really hated talking about it but we usually just I don't know.. It was like Megan and I needed to...

I turned to look at Megan after finishing my food and we started to get a lot deeper into the conversation.

In another life, I would be your girl

"I really don't know what to do anymore dude... I can't stand the pain I constantly feel in my chest.. Like at times I might be happy it's always just there..." I paused and then looked at the tv screen, "I love her.. so so much..."

We keep all our promises, be us against the world

By the looks of my friend's face she was upset too. Though I was on the verge of having a total breakdown over someone who is in my life but not at the same time.

In another life, I would make you stay

"I really do but... I think we should break up even though we both don't want to..." I smiled a little through the tears that started to fall down my face... I had been used to crying a lot lately so I didn't even really notice.

So I  don't have to say you were the one that got away

"Can I be honest with you dude?" Megan asked and I slowly nodded. She let out a deep sigh and looked at me, "I think you and Robin should break up..." She said quietly.

The one that got away

That triggered me a bit, so the tears started to slip out of my eyes a lot quicker. "Y-yeah I guess s-so I just... H-how?" I choked a little bit on my tears.

I was June and you were my Johnny Cash

"I know you said you didn't want to do it through text but it might be the only option.." There was another moment of silence before I spoke up.

"And how e-exactly would I d-do that.."

Never one without the other, we made a pact

Megan unlocked her phone and opened up her messages, tapping on Robin's contact. "Use my phone to text her.." she paused for a minute, "I'll be right here for you..."

Sometimes when I miss you, I put those records on, whoa

I grabbed the phone and looked at it. I couldn't really focus all too well because it was shaking so much. Though I picked up a pillow from the couch and started to hug it, giving the other pillow to Megan.

Someone said you had your tattoo removed

"I-I can't believe I'm going t-to do this.." I said with a sad tone and my voice cracked. I put the phone down and started to cry harder out of fear and the pain that was rising in my body.

Saw you downtown singing the blues

Megan looked as if she was about to cry. This wasn't any easier for her because she had lost her friend which in my opinion is something more then a relationship...

It's time to face the music, I'm no longer your muse

I then took a deep breath and picked up the phone and slowly started typing. 

"Hey Robin, it's Skylar... We need to breakup.. I'm so sorry I want to stay with you so badly but this just hurts too much.. Maybe in highschool we can get back together if you'd like?❤"

In another life, I would be your girl

My finger trembled over the tiny airplane that would send the message before I nervously tapped it. Once it was sent I put the phone face down and covered my mouth, trying to hold in the screams I wanted to let out.

We keep all our promises, be us against the world

I felt my gut drop when I heard her notification sound go off.

In another life, I would make you stay

"I like don't wanna check it dude-" U hear Megan say and I laughed softly as more tears fell from my eyes. I picked up the phone and it said

"1 new message from Robin"

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

I picked up the phone and read the message inside my head.

"I understand Skylar, I love you and I really hope we can get back together soon...💗"

I handed the phone to Megan and covered my face that probably was covered in dripping makeup.

The one that got away

She quickly read through the messages and started to text Robin. "I'm going to call her."

The one, the one, the one

Megan pressed the call button and I started to calm down a tiny bit as I hear the dialing sound.  Though once I heard her voice I cried into the couch pillow from before.

The one that got away

I could hear Robin crying from the other end and it made me feel terrible. I hope I didn't break her heart... I just couldn't stand all of that pain anymore.

All this money can't buy me a time machine, no

"Wait you were at the Santa Parade?" Megan asked, knowing I was in it. "Skylar was in it, did you see her? She was carrying a scout flag.."

Can't replace you with a million rings, no

I heard a muffled yes from the other side of the phone and a small smile grew on my face. At least it was actually her that I saw..

I should'a told you what you meant to me, whoa

They kept talking for about ten minutes about this whole thing, the parade, and how much they missed each other. Actually while they were talking the song "Drift Away" came on during the conversation. Literally like the worst song for the moment haha...

Cause now I pay the price

After Megan hung up she came over and sat on the ground next to me' hugging her pillow closely. This was the first time I've actually seen her cry in front of me.

In another life, I would be your girl

Tears were running down her rosy red cheeks as well as mine. Though my face was redder and I had a few dots on it.

"I know you don't like hugs Megan but I think we both need one right now..."

We keep all our promises, be us against the world

She nodded and we put the pillows aside. Megan opened her her arms and we then hugged each other. This hug was fun of sympathy and it was pretty tight. We had only hugged once before but that was more of a awkward sibling hug then a full hug.

In another life, I would make you stay

We let go after a minute and I had stopped crying at this point and her tears were falling slower now. "It feels like a burden has been lifted off of my shoulders.." I whispered softly and Megan smiled a bit' "Mine too..."

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

I checked the time and smiled excitedly' "Dude dude! There's fifteen more minutes until Steven Universe future airs!" Megan smiled and looked also looked excited. "Aghhh I can't wait!!"

The one that got away

We started a conversation on a new topic and I laughed a bit with her. "Dude I wanna say I love you to you but I don't want it to sound weird. Like I hear people say it a lot in the hallway but I don't know!" I laughed as she also did. "Me too dude!"

The one (the one)
The one (the one)
The one (the one)

"Wait wait I've got an idea bro! We could be like, I love youuuuu! But the you is like that soulja boy song!" I said and she instantly agreed, "Yeah let's do it like that!"

In another life, I would make you stay

By that time the episodes were coming on so we instantly shut up. As the new theme song came on we sang along, knowing it from the trailer of the show.

As the first three episodes were on we laughed and were reacting together on it. The episodes were really really good too!

So I don't have to say you were the one that got away

Once the final episode of the premiere came on we got excited to see an old character that we had almost zero information on appar. The episode was actually all about this character which was even better! Near the end we saw a new fusion named Mega Pearl and we fangirl screamed. "Oh my god! OH MY GOD I SHIP IT SO MUCH YES BITCH THEY ARE BEAUTIFUL TOGETHER WOOOOO!" 

The one that got away

Sadly though after the episode ended Megan had to leave but we had a really great time together. We hugged again before she left and I went up to my room again. Of course I'd be going into another deep thought about what happened but I needed to do it whether I wanted to or not.

Did I make the right choice breaking up with Robin...? I thought about it while clenching the small heart necklace she had given me.

It felt different to be single now.. I loved her a lot but now it was just.. gone? I thought back to the memories we had and laughed softly as tears came rushing down my face again.

I thought of Anika then and sighed. I guess I wasn't really any different than Robin was. Cause Robin liked someone else before we even broke up but.. I wasn't even for sure on my feelings at that point. But I knew I had something of some sort for Anika.

Within the next few weeks though when Robin was dating someone new I was extremely hurt. Crushed. Hurt... I felt like our whole relationship didn't matter. How could she just move on so quickly..? Was I her little experimental toy?

I dont know what I was but.. it felt like I wasn't anything and like I was nothing...

[Hey guys hey I'll be posting a short New year's and valentine's chapter next and then I'll get into the current times then! COVID chapters may take me a little while to write- :^) Hope you are all liking my story and thanks for almost 300 reads!!]