Should

A funny word

Should

One my mind has heard

Too many times

And I know it's not fine

My mind just fries

Clouded with thoughts

I've heard too many times

Hate that shatters my brain

And pierces through the cries

It's all too much

Going though life

'Cause all my heart ever does

Is growl and gripe

Or what I should've done

Or who I shouldn't been

And I'll the paranoia

Tells me what I should see or have seen

Should be nicer

Should be grateful

Should be fairer

Shouldn't be hateful

Should be happy

Should be healthy

Shouldn't be scared

Shouldn't need people to help me

But I'm unhappy

Not pretty

I'm bitter

I'm sappy

Should be

Should be

Shut up

Help me

I'm scared of it all

And the names that it calls me

Skin an' bones

Whose heart is sore

Stupid freak

Attention whore

Who deserves to be alone

And be scared by herself

And even if I should be better

My mind is in poor health

And I was getting better

That was what I thought

I should be better

The truth is, I am not