Chapter Seventeen
My night is spent with a restless sleep. All I could think about was the surfer boy, Cody. He's the guy who Sebastian...cheated on me with. I feel like he's the one who made Sebastian fall out of love with me. I know that's not it, but I can't help feeling that way. He had to have been a bit of a factor in it. There's no doubt about that. None at all.
The next morning I'm a wreck. I had gotten about four and a half hours of sleep which honestly, won't help me get through the day. I can already feel myself getting irritated. Once I leave my bed, I'm smacked by a chill in the room, meaning my dad had turned the heater off sometime in the night. I'm very grateful to have carpet in my room and not hardwood. Making my way to my bathroom, my feel shuffling on the carpet. My body feels weighed down my fatigue.
Brushing my teeth and washing myself is a slow and long process. I feel as if I can only move one inch with each back and forth brush. I had freaked out when using the toilet since the porcelain was freezing, but I got through it. Getting dressed is a faster process since I was desperate to get out of the cold.
My thoughts had been so occupied by cody and Sebastian that I had failed to think about how I'd handle all these situations. Grabbing my backpack, I rush downstairs, knowing Sebastian will be waiting for me outside, but once I get down, his truck is nowhere to be seen. With a raised brow, I go to the kitchen and look for something to eat for breakfast.
Five minutes pass then ten. I check the time on my phone as I stand by the door, my foot tapping impatiently. I'm about to call him when I see his old beat up come towards my house. He pulls into the driveway slowly, the car going from side to side as it passes over the bump of the driveway.
Stepping outside, I see someone else in his car and I'm suddenly angry. Was he late because he was picking up someone else? I mean, it's not a big deal, but he could've called and told me. Not only that, but I am irritated with my lack of sleep last night.
Walking slowly towards the truck, I get a good look at the other passenger. My breath hitches in my throat when I see that it's the infamous Cody. Despite the irritation growing, I plaster a smile on my face as I pull the door open.
"Emie," Sebastian smiles widely as he looks over at me. "Sorry I'm late, Emie bear. I want you to meet someone. This is Cody, the guy I told you about."
I climb into the car and shut the door behind me. A certain green monster grows within me that this Cody guys is sitting next to my boyfriend and didn't even offer to move. But still, I give a small smile.
"We met." I speak, forcing my voice to be nice and not snappish.
Cody nods, confirming my words. "Yeah, she showed me to the office yesterday." He turns and looks at me. "Great to meet you, properly. I had no idea you were Emie."
I give a nod as he turns back to Sebastian. The two begin speaking, their conversation consisting of events that happened in Hawaii. Through the whole ride to school, I keep my gaze out the window. There's no point in joining the conversation. The two seem perfectly fine to talk with just each other.
We finally get to school and I'm the first out of the truck. I can't stand to be in their presence any longer. Making my way up the steps of the school, I feel a hand grab my arm. Yanking it away, I turn my head to see Sebastian. He has a frown on his face and his eyebrows are furrowed.
"Emie, what's wrong?" He asks. What gets me is that he seems completely genuine.
I give him a deadpan look, biting the side of my cheek to hold back my anger. "You're not serious."
His eyes widen as I say this. Sebastian's mouth pops open and he moves his head back slightly. "I don't..."
"I just had to sit through a car ride with you and your lover." I spit at him, not meaning to sound as harsh. "I'm your girlfriend."
But I'm not. I'm just his beard and a friend now, nothing else. I'm no longer his girlfriend, so I have no right to actually be jealous.
"I'm not your girlfriend." I mutter, more to myself than to him. "I'm nothing to you anymore. I could do this when the guy you kissed while in a relationship with me wasn't here, but not now. It's unfair to me for you to want me to do this, so I won't."
"Em..." Sebastian gives me an unsure look. He looks at me as if I'm losing my mind, but maybe I am. "What do you mean?"
"I won't let you put me through this anymore." I shake my head. "It's hurting me...I'm the one getting hurt in this situation so I can't be your beard anymore. Your problem is not my problem, Sebastian. Now you're flaunting this guy in front of me."
I can't exactly remember what happened, but my hands end up on his chest and I find myself pushing Sebastian away. People around us gasp and I didn't even realize we had drawn a crowd. That's something I wanted to very much avoid, but now it's too late.
All the faces make me nervous. I've never wanted to be the center of attention, only an average view. But now people will be talking about this. Like mom said, this small town has big drama. Once all the eyes are too much, I hug myself, trying to hide and push through the crowd.
The first step to bettering myself is to distance myself. The first place I chose to do so was with Sebastian. While I still love him, I can't let him do this to me.
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"So, like, they broke up?" A pretty low, smooth voice asks. I can tell it's a girl by the femininity in it, but who knows. There could be some random guy in the girls bathroom.
Currently I'm sitting in a stall in the bathroom. Lunch has just started and I'm procrastinating going in there where everyone will be talking about what happened. If people are talking about it in a bathroom, they're probably also talking about it in the cafeteria. I would hate to walk in and see a bunch of eyes on me. That's the worst thing about our small school.
"Hell yeah," I hear another voice, definitely female. "Like, Emie Badgley seemed pretty pissed. I mean, her face looked mad which is pretty weird for her, you know? No one could really hear what they were saying, it was quiet. My guess is maybe she found him with someone else?"
One of them laughs then they're both laughing. "I mean, they've only been with each other. No one can blame him for wanting a taste of someone else." The deeper voice one says.
"Cynthia!" The other girl laughs. "That's terrible. I feel bad for Emie..." Her voice starts to fade out and I assume they leave.
With a sigh, I step from the bathroom stall. Shaking my head, I can't help but wonder why this town can't mind their own business. I walk to the sink and start washing my hands. There's no point in dwelling right? The thing is, I know I'll continue to think of everything. There is no simply letting it go. That just isn't my character. And as I continue to look at myself, I start thinking that something's gotta give.
I dry my hands before leaving the bathroom. The hallways are empty, everyone at lunch. Sucking up my anxiety, I start towards the lunchroom and step inside. On cue, all eyes go towards me. Not letting people see the sadness within me, I hold my head up high and make my way through the lunch line. It's fast, seeing as I'm late to lunch, so getting some food takes thirty seconds. The next step is finding a table.
Three choices. Jenny is sat on the left side, Greg at her side. Her eyes are on me and for a second I feel like she's concerned. Micah is sat at the other side of the cafeteria surrounded by other seniors from who I can recognize. She's also looking at me and we connect eyes for a split second before both looking away. Then Sebastian is sat in the middle of the place. He gives me a pleading look and I almost go to him, but one thing stops me. Cody is sat next to him, a confused look on his face. I shake my head and scoff. Without sparing another thought, I begin walking towards the outside.
Why I never mentioned this before, I don't know, but there are tables placed outside for when students wanted to eat out there. Now that it's cold, nobody has been out there, but I'm changing that. I'd rather eat alone than deal with the stares and whispers anyways. So I go to a table and plop down, setting my tray down afterwards. My eyes close and I let myself become immersed into my thoughts. I don't even realize someone has set next to me until a voice interrupts my thoughts.
"Emie Badgley," a deep voice says. "You're quite famous now, huh?"
*hello, hello. Wow, y'all. It's all downhill from here right? Heh, so Emie and Sebastian are over. Who guessed that? Did you think it would end this way? Or did you think they'd come to a mutual decision? And how about the trio? Will they work it out? Also, who is this new person? Please, tell me what you guys thought of this chapter, I love hearing you. So don't forget to vote and comment. Thanks so much for reading and I hope you enjoyed this chapter.*
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