Soojin

I walked toward school 10 minute before they close the door, i dont like being early but i also dont like being late but sometimes i would get late cause i am busy smoking in the spare time.

I dont smoke regularly maybe 1-2 cigarettes a day and i make sure i put lia's perfume on after it unless i forget to take it with me.

I didn't smoke yesterday cause i was home all day so i was kinda needing one but class was starting soon so i had to head to class. Even though i wasnt like addicts but not being able to smoke for a long time made me a little irritated. So when i saw haruto smiling brightly upon seeing me i couldnt give a smile back and i saw the change in his expression as the smile dissapears from his face. I didn't like that but i was not in the mood to smile while i wasnt a smiling person usually.

I saw him glance back at me as i sat as my desk. This time i looked at him and forced a smile even tho it wasnt good but it made him feel a little better.

When our English teacher came in for the first class i couldn't focus on anything till it was over so i could run smoke at the rooftop.

"Soojin are you listening" i looked up at our teacher and all the students were staring at me , it seems like it wasnt the first time she was calling me.

"Yes!" I said nonchalantly, empty of regret and apology.

She gave me a resentful look.

"Can you give me the answer of question 14.5 if you were listening?" She challenged as she crossed her arm over her chest.

I glared at her for some momment enough to produce tension before  i looked down at my book.

I didnt care to know the answer but i did because you know mostly everything in english grammer class if you know english.

I carelessly  answered , she didn't like  that i didn't listen and and knew the answer. She had to say something to me but she better not cause i was not in the mood to let it be.

So when she said something and i replied  the whole class were quiet and we were glaring at each other but then she decided to let it go and get back to class and i was thankful for that.

As soon as the class ended i walked out fast, anger written all over my face but there was no expression or so i thought.

As soon as i got to the rooftop i pulled up my skirt and took out my cigarette pack that was stuck to my thigh and searched for the lighter when i heard footstep on the stairs.

I hid the cigarette in my hand as i looked at the door to find the owner of the sound.

I was shocked to find haruto there panting a little due to the stairs.

He studied my face for a while before he opened his mouth to explain why he had followed me.

"Are you okay?" He asked , surely worried.

I frowned " why would i not be?" I questioned back.

He seemed not to find a suitable response to his thoughts.

"I don't know , you didn't seem in a good mood " he stumbled over his words like he wasn't used to say those words or we weren't in a place to have this kind of worries and we weren't.

"And you came here to ask me if i was okay?" I asked my voice full of curiosity.

But that must have puzzled him thinking that he is stepping out of line which i didnt like so i said something quickly to avoid that.

"I am not i just needed a cigarette" i said honestly as i showed him the cigarette i was holding in my hand since he came.

I facepalmed myself inside my head. I dont know why i said it , but i further didnt know why i didn't want haruto to know that i smoke.

He seemed alarmed by that like he would have taken a step back if that didn't offend me.

I rolled my eyes and bend down to pick up my lighter.

Putting the cigarette into my mouth, sucking into it as i light it up.

I could feel his eyes on me but he didnt speak a word or made a move as i smoked.

I was alittle self aware that he was watching but he didn't need to know that his presence was fazing me.

I ignored him but he still didnt leave and just stared so when i looked at my side to catch him staring, a flush spread across his face as he blinked twice.

"Why are you here?" I asked a little rudely.

"I was just trying to see if you were alright" he responded calmly.

"Well thanks i guess but i am fine so you can go now if you want to" i elaborated.

"But i dont want to" he admitted as he was staring at my eyes ,this was my time to blush.

Why would he stare so much , i wasnt a person who liked eye contact but i was the one who kept eye contact all the time because it makes you more intimidating and confident.

But right now i wasn't feeling confident. Haruto was here , he was here to check up on me and he was staring intensely at me.

I was started to feel weird in my stomach and felt nauseated.

So i whirled around and sat on the bench  one hand on the bench as i leaned on it and one hand grabbing my cigarette.

He soon came to sit beside me , sitting near me when i was trying to detox the feeling he was giving me earlier.

Heyyyy guys

So this is a long chapter after a long distance and i read it again and i love the story so i cant let it sit here without getting live from ppl

So i must continue it so it can get the love it deserves.

And u guys motivate me to write like a muse.

I hope you liked this chapter