I was fighting along with the broken sword

Now I'm caught in a war with no shield

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The gates of Rarity's house open and I drive in, pulling over in her garage beside her car. I heave a sigh as I turn off the ignition. It was already 7:30 P.M. and I'm 30 minutes late. I should've left an hour ago but I've been crying and writhing all afternoon that I forgot that I still had to pack some things for this party. Also, it was difficult to not replay the memory that just happened a while ago, I just kept on crying every time I remember it.

I shake my head, grabbing my bag and push the car door open and close it behind me, locking the car. As I start to walk, I suddenly stop on my tracks and I start to process what is wrong with me before continuing to walk again. Why the fuck am I crying so much!? I suddenly remember the thing with happened with me and Soarin was similar to the movie we watched with Fleetfoot. The only difference we had was that the two characters were dating and we weren't.

We're just friends who just happened to have made out with each other.

I don't know why I'm crying so much, maybe because it was the fact that I was guilty of some things, or it's just me denying my own feelings. The former made more sense to me so I'm just going to agree that I was just guilty. The memory starts to play in my head again and tears were forming on my eyes again. I grit my teeth and I wipe the tears away. I'll try to not remember that again.

C'mon, you're fucking Rainbow Dash! The captain of athletics in Canterlot High, you technically dominated the school now, you can't let anyone see you're a sappy piece of shit!

I stand in front of the house's double doors, swinging one open and letting myself in. The first thing I see as I enter was a carved marble table where a white ceramic vase with white roses in it was sitting on. The stairs were also in the middle that splits to left and right after a few steps. The interior of the Mediterranean house was painted in cream color.

I walk up to the stairs, then turn left, where Rarity's room was located. As I reach for the doorknob, I quickly stop myself. I suddenly remember what I did to Soarin and how he reacted. Tears were starting form in my eyes again and I take a deep breath, hastily opening the door. When I finally got inside Rarity's room, I quickly take a glance at who was there, seeing Twilight, Sunset, and Rarity, as they all shifted their attention from the mirror to me. I ignore their stares and rush to Rarity's dressing room where I curl myself up, pulling my knees to my chest and burying my face on my arms.

"Rainbow Dash?" Rarity calls, knocking on the door, "Are you alright, darling?"

I clear my throat and laugh nervously "Y-yeah, I'm fine I'm just going to sit here for a while."

I hear Twilight scoff, "No you're not." Then I hear something that sounded like a slap, "Twilight, that's not the point!" That sounded like Sunset.

"What?"

"We are supposed to let her tell us what's wrong!"

"Ohhhh..."

I swallow the lump on my throat, "I-it's alright, guys, I'm fine, I swear."

"Darling, you are obviously not fine, and we are here to help you, whatever it is that is bothering you."

"See?"

I heave a sigh, turning the doorknob and I walk out the dressing room. They all look at me with concerned faces and I break into tears again, "Stop looking at me!"

They all rush in to hug me as they see my tears continuously flowing, "Do you want to tell us what happened?" Rarity asks as they part from the hug.

I take a seat on Rarity's vanity area, "Please, don't freak out at me for not telling you guys earlier." They all nod and I continue, "That wasn't the first time me and Soarin, well, kissed-" They all gasp and I glare at them, "I said no freaking out!" I heave a sigh, "We actually kissed on a Thursday night, well, not really, I unconsciously kissed him but he kissed back."

Sunset looks at me confusedly, "Well, so?"

"Well, I don't know, Soarin got a little upset cause I told him to forget about it because it was an accident. When we kissed in school, I got upset because I thought that the kiss meant nothing to him since he kissed me again. I don't know! I think I'm just over-analyzing things-"

Twilight cuts me off, "Yeah, you are-"

I glare at Twilight, cutting her off "and- I just thought he's used to kissing girls that it's nothing to him when it was a big deal to me, cause you know, I said forget about it, that's just my logic."

They stare at me confusedly, "I don't get it."

I groan, "Soarin said I was impulsive and that I don't take responsibility for what I make people feel."

"Ohhhhh..." They all said in unison, nodding.

"Let me get this straight, so you two are basically mad at each other for what reason exactly?" Sunset asks.

"I'm not mad at him, he was right, but he's mad at me," I reply.

Twilight raises a brow, "Then apologize?"

Rarity walks up to me and holds my hands, "You know what I see? I see two idiots denying their feelings for each other."

I look at her with disgust and swat her hand away, "I don't have feelings for him! I just see him as a- friend?"

Twilight shakes her head and chuckles, "Whatever helps you sleep at night."

"My advice, Dash, is to just apologize, but tell Soarin that you two have to stop 'kissing' each other if you two are going to keep being in denial." Sunset sneers.

I scoff, "Yes, it is going to be that way."

Rarity looks at me with a baffled expression, "B-but why?"

Twilight and Sunset looks at Rarity with their eyes widened, "Oh my god, Rarity, don't ask her-"

I scowl, "Because we don't like each other!"

Sunset facepalms, "I told you not to ask her!"

"We don't have anything in common, I hate his big ass ego-"

"Says the person with the big ass ego-" Twilight mumbles and I glare at her, "Oh, did I say that out loud?"

I roll my eyes, "and I hate how cares about me a lot and that he's always bringing me anywhere around midnight and I hate how frustratingly attractive he is and-" My eyes widen as I realize what I've been muttering and I look at my friends who were grinning at me, "I-it wasn't me! It was my subconscious!"

They stare at me, looking like they ere about to burst, and they suddenly scream and run up to me jumping, "OH MY GOD- YOU LIKE HIM! YOU LIKE HIM! YOU LIKE HIM!"

I shove them away, "NO! I DO NOT!"

"Then what about that little confession you said earlier?" Twilight says with a smug smile.

I cross my arms, "That was my subconscious."

"Oh, so you mean you're not aware that you like him?"

I look at her confusedly, "What?"

Sunset pushes Twilight off, "Dash, just date each other!"

"I'm not going to do that."

"WHY?" They all ask in unison.

"Because I don't like him," I reply and they all groan, cursing under their breath.

Rarity shakes her head and heaves a frustrating sigh, "Well, we tried, girls, whatever lets her boat float I guess."

I raise a brow, "but It's the truth-"

Rarity cuts me off, putting a hand out in front of me, "Shh! Shh! Shh! I don't want to hear anything coming out from your mouth starting now."

I roll my eyes, "Fine, then."

Sunset walks up to the window, "Rarity? There are already a ton of people downstairs."

"If Rarity's here, then who's managing the party?" Twilight asks.

"Pinkie Pie is." Rarity replies, "Alright, change your clothes now, we're going swimming!"

I look at Twilight with a smirk, "I'm going in first!"

While I was going to make a run for the dressing room, a hand suddenly grabs my foot, making me fall on my face, "Ouch!" I look up to see Twilight jumping over me and I pull her feet as I stand up, and she stands up and I push her away, "Not today, bitch!" I laugh, shutting the door in front of her.

Twilight groans, banging on the door, "Goddamit!"

I open the door, sticking my tongue out, "Give up, Twilight, you're never going to beat me!"

"Oh yeah? What's the sum of 52696 and 3555?"

"Uhhh, your mom?"

"Wrong! It's 56251-"

"Yeah, yeah, yeah! Whatever you say nerd!" I yell as I shut the door again.

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It was so difficult rewriting this chapter cause I just read this soarindash story called First Night and them some in FimFiction aND I WAS LITERALLY BLUSHING WHEN I READ IT OMFG I CANT GET OVER IT LIKE I READ IT AROUND MIDNIGHT THEN I WOKE REMEMBERING IT AGAIN AND I WAS JUST SQUEALING THE ENTIRE DAY IT WAS DISTRACTING ME FROM FINISHING THIS CHAPTER LMAO IM SORRY