"Kayla remember to be at home before six!"

I looked back at my mom and gave her the reassuring smile. My parents have been keeping a closer eye on me ever since I changed but when those nude pictures of me were exposed it's like I had a built a big security fence around me. I couldn't trust anyone anymore and the only person that I thought I could was...

Forget him.

I rarely spoke to anyone except when necessary. No one harassed me or anything, I just wasn't in the mood for socializing.

Are you sure it's because of the pictures? I don't think it's just the pictures. Did you have a break up Kayla?

My mom had this opinion that this had to do with something else. Or more like someone else.

Talk to your friends Kayla, I'm sure they want to hang out with you.

I'm sure that hanging out with them involves more than hanging out. Partying, drugs, stripping. Not in the mood.

Please Kayla...

So here I am, heading to a playground  because I lied to my mom that I was going to finally hang out with Luke.

"Hey Kayla!" A random girl that I recognized as my classmate in school said and I waved to her. "Hi."

"Hey I haven't been seeing you around, are you okay Kayla?"

"Yeah I'm great!" I said and once again flashed that reassuring smile. "I just had some... family stuff going on it's settled now, you'll be seeing me in school on Monday!"I half lied.

"Okay great, bye! "

Hopefully...hopefully I'd get the strength to go to school on Monday.

I took a seat on a bench that I found empty and watched people leave. It was 5:39, the day was getting dark and everyone was basically heading home. "That's my spot." A voice said behind me.

I turned around quickly to apologize. "Sorry I thought-" I didn't finish my sentence when I saw the face.

No way was I apologizing to this douche. I turned my face away from him. "I didn't see your name on it."

"Okay calm down, no need to be a bitch about it."

Did he just call me a bitch?

"Fine! I'll just go seat somewhere else or better, I'll leave!" I stood up in annoyance and walked away from him.

"Wait Kayla!"

Don't wait Kayla me.

"Come on!"

I rolled my eyes ignoring him. "Kayla!"

People leaving heard him yell and watched me. I'd only look like a rude person if I chose to ignore his call. "What?!" I finally answered.

"Whatever you're thinking about me is not true."

"How would you know what I was thinking about you?" It's not like he could read my mind and know how much he hurt me. How stupid was I? Fallen for a guy through text message.

"The texts... Look I don't want to come out as proud so let me explain myself to you."

He doesn't want to come out as proud? Well if that's true, he's doing a terrible job at it. "There's nothing to explain." I said.

For the past days I've been waiting for an explanation...not even a call or text, son of a-

"No listen." Jay took steps towards me and I backed away. "I'm not going to hurt you Kayla!"

You already did.

"I'm not, please I did before but I'm not."

Just say you're sorry Jay. Say you're sorry and I'll forgive you, then forget that this ever happened and we'd live happily ever after... Say sorry and that would fix everything.

"I'm not saying sorry because sorry won't fix anything."

Oh you'd be surprised. Jeez how desperate am I for this guy?  

"Just explain yourself and let me get the fuck out of here!" I said.

"Okay impatient much?"

"Jay!" I stomped my foot on the ground, he's wasting my time!

"Okay..."  He let out a breath and moved closer. This time, I didn't step back. "My sister dated Luke."

"That's not news." I said.

"Okay but wait I'm getting to it." Jay thought carefully of his next words. "My sister had this insane idea of getting revenge on you, she gives me your number so you could send me your nudes and I'll leak it but she got your nude pictures some other way and sent it to everyone and I got angry with her for doing that even though that was the plan in the first place but-"

I cut him short. "That's not news either Jay, I already know the stupid story of how you and your sister planned on screwing me!"

"Oh." Jay stopped his rambling. "Right."

"So?"

"So?"

"So were you?" I asked.

"So was I what?" Jay asked.

"Where you eventually going to ask me to send you those pics?"

"What?" Jay looked at me like I just asked a stupid question. "Of course not! I'd never do that, I was before but when we started talking I couldn't."

"Okay." I said not knowing what else to say, he sounded genuinely honest.

"I really couldn't do it, I really started liking you Kayla and I just couldn't ask for it."

He really started liking me?

Does that still apply to me right now?  "So?"

"So?"

"So do you?" I asked.

"So do I what?"

"Do you still like me?"

Jay chuckled and I had to admit, I missed hearing that even though I heard it a funky a few times. "I never stopped Kayla."

Butterflies in my stomach stop. Blushing in my cheeks stop. Racing heart stop.

"That doesn't change anything." I forced myself to frown and walk away from him.

"What? That's it?"

I turned to him again. "What do you want me to say?"

"Come on Kayla, I'd do anything for you!"

Yeah right, I rolled my eyes. "Like you would strip naked and beg me for forgiveness?" I asked sarcastically.

"You want me to strip?"

I gave Jay the I dare you look. "You really want me to strip?" Jay tugged at his shirt and I maintained my I dare you face. "Do it." I said. He's not going to do it.

Before I knew what was happening, Jay's shirt thrown on the floor next to me and he was actually getting ready to pull his jeans. "Jay?" I looked at him in disbelief, "Jay!" I yelled.

"You asked for it."

He tugged at his jeans. "Jay stop!" I yelled and ran to him holding his hand. "Stop!" I laughed. "You were really going to-"

Jay looked at me. "I'd do anything."

I rolled my eyes and threw his shirt at him. "You're desperate!" I said.

Jay caught his shirt and smirked. "And completely out of your league."

"Oh get over yourself!"

"You love it."

I would have laughed but Jay just said that I was completely out of his league. If I'm out of his league that means he doesn't like me, right? Looking at Jay and looking down at myself, I was totally out of his league. Hot guys like him date hot girls, right?

I'm hot, right?

Luke dated me, didn't he? 

Luke thought I was hot, didn't he?

Jay likes me, right..?

I watched Jay put his shirt on. Take it off Jay, take it off.

Control your hormones Kayla, control them.

"What were you thinking about?" Jay asked.

"Nothing!"

"Tell me, something's on your mind and it's bugging you."

"You said that I was out of your league." I admitted.

"What?" Jay chuckled. "It was a joke Kayla don't take it too seriously."

"So do you think I'm hot?" I asked.

Stupid, stupid mouth. Someone stop my stupid mouth!

"What?" Jay chuckled again. "Of course you are. Trust me Kayla, if I see a hot girl I'd know one." And then came that famous emoji wink, only this one was in real life.

Flirt. I rolled my eyes and continued my journey home.

"Come on Kayla forgive!" Jay yelled.

I had to admit, it felt good to make Jay beg for me. "I already did forgive you now leave me alone!"

"So that's it?"

"Yes, that's it!"

No that's not it stupid mouth, Jay beg for me!

"What was I supposed to do to avoid this!"

"Well for one you could have visited me."

"Uh... I don't know where you live Kayla."

"You could have asked around for my address!" I said.

"I thought that you wouldn't want to see me!"

"Of course I didn't want to see you!"

I really wanted to see you...

"What can I do to fix this?"

"You could have called me."

"You wouldn't answer!"

"My school was another place to go."

"You weren't there!"

Right.

"Well you could have..." I thought of what to say.

"Are you trying to make up an excuse to be angry with me?"

"I'm doing the best that I can!"

"Kayla please..."

"I said that I've forgiven you!"

"No you haven't!"

"Well what makes you think that I haven't?"

"If you have forgiven me then you would..."

"I would what? Date you?" I'm not supposed to jump into a relationship with him, am I? Relax Kayla, Jay's not even asking you to be his girlfriend.

"Will you?"

Did Jay just ask me to be his girlfriend? Tempting but no. I can't just jump into a relationship with him, it doesn't work like that. "Answer me Kayla."

"Jay..."

Stressing his name like that answered his question, I watched Jay's expressing change from hopeful to rejected. "There's nothing I can do to fix this is there?" He sounded completely hurt.

His eyes were teary.

He looked hurt,

He was hurt.

I shook my head not having the courage to say no in actual words. Jay nodded pretending to understand. "I get it."

He gave me one last look before walking away. "Jay..." I tried to stop him.

"It's okay Kayla forget it."

"Jay!" I yelled, he wasn't answering. "Jay!" I yelled again, louder.

The brokenhearted boy faced me, I hated seeing him like this. "Jay I need to tell you something!" I said.

"I'm listening." His voice was now dull, not like the usual Jay that I've come to know.

"You said that you heard a lot of things about me, well I've learnt a  of things about you in these past few days and what I heard isn't good news Jay." I paused for a while before continuing, "I'm not stupid, I know that guys like you take advantage of girls like me."

Jay took a step towards me completely closing the little distance we had between us. "You think that I'm going to take advantage of you?"

His fingers caressed the side of my face and I loved the feeling. "I'm scared and if you hurt me before you can do it again."

"So you're scared?" Jay dropped his fingers and I frowned.

I nodded. "You can't just expect me to forgive you when you haven't even reassured me that you wouldn't do it again."

"Well in that case..." Jay put his hands in his pocket, I wanted to grab it and wrap it around me.

Stupid. Raging. Hormones.

"I'd do anything to prove to you that you can trust me." 

"Please." He added.

"I don't know..."

He looked really convincing but I still wasn't sure if I wanted to believe him or not.

"Just give me one chance Kayla." Jay intertwined our hands and I smiled at him while doing a happy dance in my mind.

He spoke immediately. "I promise." He wrapped his other arm around my waist and I smiled as he pulled me in.  "Okay." I said still smiling at him.

Jay's face brightened up instantly. "Okay?"

I nodded and wrapped my arms around his neck dragging his head lower. "Okay." I kissed him first and smiled, it took Jay a few seconds to snap into reality and kiss me back.

His hands moved smoothly on my torso and once again they went underneath, touching everywhere, almost everywhere. "Kayla?" He said my name dropping his hands.

"Mmm?" I honestly wasn't in the mood to talk as I placed his hands back on my waist. 

"I knew you missed me." Jay smirked and I kissed him. "Get over yourself. "

"You love it. "

"I love you." I said.

Jay froze. "What?"

I laughed at his reaction but I was also shocked that I could say something like that. "I love you." I said it again. 

Jay smiled and I couldn't take my eyes off him. "I love you too Kayla...badly."

Author's Note

That's it! 

Epilogue didn't come 'soon' but its here now and I had a great time writing it and I hope you had a great time reading it!

Thanks for your patience and lots of love 💞 💞 💞!

Goodbye ✨ ✨ ✨!