Janus~ God of beginnings, choices and doorways

"What the Hell are you doing?"
I didn't know how else to say it but by saying, "I don't want to have sex with you!" At first he looked at me puzzled then started hysterically laughing which made my eyebrows turn to a frown.

"Wha... what's funny?" I stuttered. Which made him laugh more but after a little while he found his self control once more and said, "Sweetchicks I'm flattered but I honestly don't want to sleep with you, not that I won't mind but not my intention either." I blushed feeling enormously uncomfortable.

"No need for those flush cheeks," and he pinched my cheeks, "I mean you do look good minus those glasses and I, well I'm just gorgeous. Aren't I?"
I rolled my eyes.

"Anyway I went to bring a bottle of tequila so we could test how much alcohol you can handle in private without embarrassing yourself but I'd say you had enough."
I chuckled knowing my silence wouldn't go unnoticed.
"I think it's time I find Noah and leave. I'll be staying at her place." I turned to leave but he gently caught my hand. "No need because you staying at the dorm today. I'm not feeling for company. Find Noah and meet me at the front door." I nodded and he left.

I sat on the bed registering what just happened. My hand was still warm from his touch. What the Hell! Get a grip Lex and go find Noah.

I shook my head lightly and headed off into the noise to find Noah. She was in the kitchen sitting at the counter with a dude.

I tapped her shoulder and said, "It's time to leave." She shook her head and leaned into a guy she was standing with. "I... wanna stay with Andrew." I grabbed her wrist and tugged her with me through the crowd and to the door. "You need to go back to your place and we are going to take you." She frowned and spoke, "So there are two of you! I thought I was just seeing double." I wasn't sure whether this was funny or I should be concerned. I walked up to Blake with Noah hanging on my arm. "We're going home with him." Noah seemed to have sobered up at the sight of Blake... or was she seeing two of him too?

I sat in the backseat of Blake's car with Noah as we went back to the dorms.

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"Your friend is surely one of a kind," he spoke and I smiled. The entire way home Noah practically had hearts in her eyes. She had told Blake he was cute more than ten times and we were only on the road for seven minutes. He was amused and I was irritated because she was feeding his ego a whole lot of bullshit.

I went to my room and grabbed some clothes to change into after bathing. I walked to the bathroom then Blake blocked the door.
"Did I mention you look really sexy." I had the urge to slap him.

"When a guy tells a girl she's looking sexy he's looking at her body, but when a guy tells a girl she's looking beautiful he's looking at her as a whole. Her weakness, her strengths, her faults, her EVERYTHING." He looked at me stunned and silently stepped out of my way. I went into the bathroom, locked the door and burst into tears.

How could he have done that to me?

Connor, not Blake, I gave him everything besides my virginity, but all he ever knew was my body not my heart.
How could he?
My sobs slowly subsided so I had a quick hot shower and changed.

After changing I still didn't go out. I felt so bad for snapping at Blake but he's a boy. All boys are the same! For a few minutes I sat in silence not knowing what to even think. I didn't know if I was drunk, getting my monthly or just emotional.

"Lex," he knocked on the door, "I need to use the toilet." I tidied up the bathroom and then left. "Blake, I'm done," I called out to him because he had returned to his room. When he headed to the bathroom I apologised for being long and he just smile.

I considered myself lucky. He didn't ask as much questions as he could off, he certainly didn't act like a jerk all of the time and he clearly wasn't judgemental, so yes I was lucky.

I layed in my bed recalling everything that had happened today. Becoming friends with Noah, realising I was extremely hated just because Blake and I were rooming together -especially by Miss. Blondy- meeting Caleb, getting drunk and then to top it off, Blake was babysitting me, well my alcohol limit to be specific.

I woke up in the morning with my stomach paining more then my head. I clenched to the duvet as I curled up in pain. I had tears in my eyes accompanied by small out-of-breath screams which was muffled by my pillow. I slowly urged my body to wake up and practically crawled out of my room into the bathroom.
Not knowing what caused my body to be in so much of agonising pain worried me more and I soon realised I was all alone in the dorm. I didn't bother about were Blake could off been at five o'clock on a Sunday morning.

I stripped down and went into the shower. I stood for a long while under the boiling water until I felt like the steam was suffocating me so I wrapped myself in a towel and sat on the closed toilet seat. I felt a sudden relief followed by the need to pee so I did and found that my monthly had come. I had always had an irregular period with horrendous cramps.

I wrapped the towel tighter around my body and I felted slapped in the face when I remembered that I had forgotten to pack pads. What the flaming fudge am I going to do? Just as I was lost in thought I heard the main door open then close. I opened the bathroom door slightly to peep through. Blake looked my room door and then at the bathroom. Oh bummer, I was caught on the act. I shut the door and blushed like made.

"Lex,do you need something?" I couldn't believe what I was about to do... "Yes." I opened the door a little so he could see my face. "I need you to go buy me something." He arched his eyebrow in that cute way of his and finally said. "Name anything." I smiled knowing he was about to regret saying that.
"I need pads." He looked, no stared, at me blankly. "What?!"
I couldn't believe I had to explain farther. Isn't this kind of stuff taught in sex-ed or something?
"Pads! You know those things girls used during their..." but he cut me off. "I know what the fuck pads are!" He shouted. "Shhh! And please go. You know I wouldn't ask unless I was desperate." He signed in acceptance of the task and headed back towards the door. "Oh, one more thing. Buy the ones with wings." He looked at me with bewilderment then rolled his eyes and left.

As soon as he left I burst into a laughing fit. I just did that? I just did that! Oh my, how am I going to cope with the embarrassment of this.

I went to my room to get my clothes, in the earlier rush I had forgotten, walking slow and carefully so I wouldn't... wouldn't... okay, I'm gonna assume you know what I wouldn't do... Anyway, I picked out a blue skinny jeans, beige sweater and black combat boots. I was feeling a little more free after yesterday. Sure there are people that don't like me but there are also people kind enough to make small talk or try to befriend me, like yesterday at the party. There was little chatting here and there with random people.

After twenty minutes or so Blake returned slamming the door and yelling, "That was the most embarrassing thing I have ever had to do. Ever!" I smirked as I held out my hand from my bedroom. He just chuckled, for which I did not know why, and passed a packet but just before he could fully hand it over he whispered, "Lexi, you owe me." I nodded then realised he couldn't see my face. "Okay... and my name is Lex not Lexi." This made him laugh and it was the kind off laughter that sounded... complete. You know, it wasn't half-heartedly or fake. It was real and... innocent.
It brought a smile to my face.

I got dressed and went out blushing to meet Blake who, like always, was stretched out on the couch.
"Thank you." He nodded then said, "but never make me do something like that again."
"Do you know how awkwardly people were looking at me?" He asked hypothetically. I couldn't hold back the giggle that slipped out. He arched his eyebrow. "Oh so you find this funny." I just laughed more. I was standing in front of the sofa giving him the upper hand when he pulled me closer, his hands on my waist, and tickled me. "Oh so she's ticklish," he commented at my laughing fit. "Stop," I managed to stutter as I playfully pushed him. As if realising I was on top of him he gently pushed me of and abruptly went to his room. Okay...

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