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"Hazel I think we should start, I don't have much time."

"Hey are you listening?"

"Hazel!"

"Asshole!" My head is full of bad words and inside my mind I'm killing Mr. Walker over and over again with different weapons. So when Christian nudges me in the arm several times I snap.

"Oh,um sorry Christian, sure let's begin." I take out my book so does he without further questioning but keeps giving me that look which says have you lost it?

My English test was like the most terrible test of my life, I almost left it blank and whatever I wrote was not something that could get an A. So I just feel frustrated and my frustration is bursting out on Christian unfortunately.

I still manage to give him some general tips on how to remember hard terms and long answers and how break them and stuff.

After one and a half hour our study session ends  and a sigh of relief escapes my mouth.

"I'm sorry." He speaks all of a sudden.

"What? Why?"

"Because you have to teach me after school like this, but l really need to complete high school so..." He trails off not looking at me anymore and gazes somewhere outside the window. I know those eyes. Those who have lost something very dear to them have such eyes. I see those eyes everyday in the mirror.

"Christian, you don't have to apologize, it's okay." I assure him but he's not listening. I try shaking his arm but he is in some other world.

"Christ-"

"Heeyy McKinney! Fancy seeing you here!" I shudder at a hollering sound which joins us. It's because I know him, the owner of this voice.

"Hey buddy." He slaps Christian's back making him turn around. His eyes darken too quickly, his jaw clenches as he pushes the other guy back.

"Don't you touch me Bishop." He growls in a very deep voice.

I just try to get away from these two because Cyrus Bishop aka the Current Golden boy of the school didn't make my heart squeal in joy like other girls, he made me feel anxious, disturbed and terrified.

Like I said before, my first year of high school wasn't something a girl expects it to be, it was a nightmare and Cyrus was a part of it.

"Come on now Chris, don't get so worked up! We're friends aren't we?" Cyrus flashes a grin through his perfect white teeth. He has it all, money, girls, looks, you name it. That's why he is always so cocky and arrogant. His moussed blonde hair is the highlight of his look and apparently makes girls squeal in joy. And his crystal clear light blue eyes? Nah, I don't even want to go there. They look way too innocent contrasting his nasty mind.

"No, we are not Cyrus so you can disappear from here unless you want to get your face broken." Christian harshly says before pushing him even further back.

Boys and their irresistible desire to show power.

I quietly stand close behind Christian, knowing that if he makes a rough move I'll probably get hurt somewhere but it's better than facing that monster. He doesn't know that I'm hiding like the chicken I am behind him, he's too busy participating in that famous stare contest guys have when things are about to get worse.

I just want disappear from here that's it.

"Oohh I see you're with some chick huh?" Cyrus whistles and I  instantly grab Christian's arm from behind feeling scared to death. 

"Heyyy sweetie why are you hiding?" He comes forward but Christian stops him sensing something wrong.

"Back off, just get lost already." Christian warns him but unfortunately from craning his neck way too much that monster gets a clear look at me and bursts out laughing.

"You're with her? Oh my God McKinney I didn't know you had such bad taste in women!"

I keep cursing my luck, even though this is library and speaking out loud like that is not allowed, it's after school hours and our librarian Mrs. Lockwood doesn't actually care enough to be here at this time.

"Shut your mouth now Bishop." Christian shouts clutching his collar and smashing him into the wall. Well this certainly is not a good sign.

"Alright ! Alright ! sorry that I hurt your ego man but." Cyrus eyes me for a moment. "She's a slut and I don't think you should be around her."

I feel insulted and angry at him so much that I can throw some punches at him right now or kick him hard where the sun doesn't shine but instead I just stand there looking for something to hold on to because the memories of that night are coming shrieking in my head.

The night I wish I can delete from my life.

"Look, I will need just three seconds to break you completely right now, but I don't want to make a scene so shut that crappy mouth of yours and get the hell out!" Christian lands a punch on his mouth.

I wince as Cyrus crashes to the floor with an injured jaw but hell he deserved it. His mouth is gutter so it's better that it's closed.

"You are sooo going to regret it McKinney." Cyrus looks beyond pissed and guess what, he's a boxing player which is why you shouldn't mess with him. But the damage is already done so we better run for it now.

"Let's go Hazel, we shouldn't waste our time on this bastard." I nod quickly responding to Christian as he takes my hand in his and we pack our bags and are heading out of the library. 

I don't even try to look back whether he is following us or whatever I just need to get away from him or else my body will not stop shaking.

Christian seems to have noticed it, he is squeezing my hand time to time assuring me that everything is alright now. I, too, cling to his arm like my life depends on it. If a stranger catches us walking like this we would definitely look like a lovey dovey couple.

"You okay?" He asks as we settle in his car which is so polished and new that it can be used as a mirror. My nerves calm down as I relax in my seat.

"Yeah, thanks." I mumble. Some memories from the past flash before my eyes no matter how hard I try to forget them.

Christian eyes me carefully for a moment after which he ignites the engine. It's when it hits me.

"You have a car??" I shout and he chuckles softly.

"Yes and as the matter of the fact you're going to ride it." His face breaks into a wide grin which makes my breath hitch, I quickly divert my eyes or else he could see me drooling over his fucking cute face. 

I'm screwed I know.

***

As we drive through lonely roads of Old Lyme the smallest town of Connecticut, passing by the old built pastel colored houses, I enjoy the silence, forgetting about the horror I was feeling few minutes ago. I keep looking at Christian from time to time noticing how the side view of his face highlights his sharp jawline, how his dark but soft hair cuddle around his forehead, how black his eyes get when they are concentrated on the road, how his lips..

"Hazel?" My head snaps at his deep voice.

"Yeah?" I try to calm my racing heart, it's weird really, especially after that incident happened in the library, my heart is doing some wild dance in my rib cage for some reason.

"We're here." His eyes point towards our street and my house is the very first one and now that he has bought my uncle's house the neighboring house belongs to him making it convenient for us to come back together. I hope Austin won't explode when he will realize this.

"Thank you Christian for the ride and..um also for saving me from that jerk." I say and He smiles before nodding.

"See you tomorrow." I say and lean towards him to give him a gentle peck on his lips.

My body moved on it's own  would be a lame excuse so let me tell you. Actually I know why it happened and it's terrible to admit but for a second I imagined Logan, my late boyfriend sitting there and I always did it before leaving his car, that's why my body acted this way. Does that mean I thought Christian was Logan? For a second, yes.

I gulp down hard as I come to a realization that I might have done something I shouldn't have. 

Christian stays still, his eyes wide in shock, lips tightly pressed, breath slowly rising. A minute passes and both of us just keep staring at each other until a loud thud makes us jerk away.

As I turn back I don't get surprised to see Austin's face few inches away from the window with a deadly look plastered over his face.

*********END OF CHAPTER**********

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