♦️♦️♥️April♥️♦️♦️

WHAT DID HE JUST SAY.

My jaw is touching the floor as I look at him, shocked. I never thought he would reply like this. I obviously know what he meant when he said that. Oh God I need to calm down or else I will end up looking like a ripe tomato. His face being too close to mine isn't helping though. He is right here, so close to me that I can hear his heartbeats clearly. Are those crazily raising heartbeats his or mine? Maybe it's our heartbeats growing rapidly together. "Hazel, your face is even more beautiful up close." He whispers, making the hair on the back of my neck stand. What is he saying? Doesn't he understand it will make my heart explode?

"Christian, um, you're too close." I say shakily through breathy voice. It's when my eyes finally get the courage to look into his, I feel something weighing me down as if I'm melting. His eyes are fixated on me and the intense greyness of them is slowly turning icy. I feel like I'm pulled towards him by some mysterious force because literally I've not been close to anyone since an year. I want to pull back, get away from him but he is holding me back without even touching me. It's his eyes, full of power, overflowing with emotions. They are keeping me in my place, not letting me move. "Christian I-"

"What the hell are you guys doing?"

Christian curses under his breath before moving away. I slowly let go of the breath I was holding back. Whoa. What just happened?
"Hello there Jayson." Christian says boringly dropping the book in his hands on the table. "What brings you here?"

Jayson just blankly at him. When exactly are these two going to get along? He then pushes Christian and makes his way towards us. "Hi baby!" Leah senses the tension in the air, bless her. She throws herself in his arms, kissing him on his cheek. "I thought you had practice today honey." I mentally thank her for distracting him and sneakily come back to my seat and start scribbling different shapes on my notebook pretending as if I'm noting down something gravely important. "Hey." Someone blows air in my ear jerking me up in my seat. "What the- Christian?" He is playful today for some reason and he is not keeping the usual distance he keeps between us. Does he want to flirt with me?

"Study, please or at least pretend that we are studying." I whisper and push away his his shoulder which is weighing on mine. "With that textbook in front of me I don't think I can concentrate." He points down at one thick textbook which title said 'Human intercourses'.

I spat my hand down on it covering it's title as my eyes catch Jayson and Leah heading over. "I need to talk to you. Can we go somewhere else?" Jayson says eyeing Christian like he is some foreign object. "Sure." I jump at the opportunity and sliding the book under few others and quickly lining them neatly on the table. I feel Christian looking at me but I ignore him and get up from my seat. "See you later Christian."

Sun is setting behind darkened mountains far away and it's light is dimming down. We walk silently as our steps sync with each other. From the look on his face, Jayson definitely has some serious problem on his mind. I used this to escape from Christian and his flirty side which was making me awkward a lot. I hope it doesn't make me a bad best friend. That I'm thinking of Christian when I should be worrying about my friend here.

"My parents are getting divorced."

"I kind of saw that coming, so did you Jayson." My heart breaks looking at his saddened face still I try to cheer him up. "But now I can come at your house isn't that great?"

"No!" He shuts his eyes letting tears flow down. "My custody is given to Dad do you know what does that mean Ap?"

"Jayson calm down.."

"It means I'm moving." He says brushing his tears away though they keep coming back again.

Moving?

"Moving? Wh-what are you talking about?" I stutter out. He is moving? He is leaving?

"April..this is not happening." His body slumps down. Tears flowing continually on his cheeks.

"Hey! Hey hey..Jayson. Tell me everything clearly please. Don't scare me like this." I cup his warm face in my hands and wipe his tears. God, where is Leah when you need her? I glance around but then remember that Leah went straight when her little brother called. I hope it's just another tantrum his siblings keep throwing and not anything serious.

"Talk to me Jay." I bring my head closer to his leaning on it. "Are you moving away with your Dad?" He nods in response. "Where?"

"California."

What?

No no no no no

"You get along with your father right?" He nods again.

"Then you've got nothing to worry." As long as I know his parents it's better that he lives with his father.

Jayson is going away. He is not going to be here for me anymore. Breathe in and breathe out.

I try to calm my shaking heart by putting my hand on it. It's okay. I'll be fine. Leah is here and Christian is here now too. I should be fine.

"You'll be fine Jayson." I say and stop talking before my voice breaks. I hug him tightly as he cries. His shoulders are shaking badly breaking something inside me. I don't make a sound when tears moisten my cheeks. I can't act like this in front of Jayson now. He has to know that I'll be fine without him. I can't let him hear the screams inside my head. Screams which are shouting for him and begging him to stay here.

"And I'll be fine too. Perfectly fine." I curse when I choke up at last word. Hold it together April.

He hugs me back wrapping his long arms around me. But suddenly breaks the hug and pushes me back. "April I won't be coming back for a while." Oh come on do you want to crush my bleeding heart even more now?
"Jay-"

"So forgive me for what I'm about to do." He says leaning forward taking my head in his hands and warming my lips with his.