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Blake

She slowly turned back around, her blue eyes locking on my brown ones.

"Your mother?"

"Yeah, she called me a few days ago." I mumbled, shoving my hands into my jeans.

"Okay, that's nice but why're you telling me this?"

"Because besides Ace, you're the only one I can talk to."

"Nina?"

I'd rather die than tell Nina anything about my family. She's already blackmailing me, I don't need her knowing this and trying to use it against me as well.

"Like I said, you and Ace."

"Well where is Ace? Go talk to him."

"He's banging some random girl. That leaves you. I'm begging you, Ella. Just ten minutes."

She huffed and bit her lip, a sign that she's thinking. In her case, she's probably fighting with herself on rather she should hear me out or not.

"Please?"

I've never begged a female for anything, they've always begged me for something. I always swore that I wouldn't but then Ella came and I found myself begging every so often.

"Five minutes." She grumbled, refilling her now empty cup.

I led her upstairs and to my room. I grabbed a pre-rolled blunt before leading her onto my balcony.

"And your time is starting now." She said, sipping her drink and sitting in one of the two patio chairs.

I sighed and lit the blunt and inhaled from it, while sliding the lighter into my pocket.

"I've told you how my mother is, she's always wanting to remind me that she's still got control of me even though I'm not under her roof."

"Yeah, I remember you telling me that. So why did she invite you to dinner?"

"I don't know, she didn't say. All she really said is if I don't show up before or at seven, she's not paying my tuition."

"Are you scared?"

"Of her? No. That I may kill her? Yes."

"Do you really think that you would kill her?" She asked, gulping.

She should know that I'd never physically hurt her. I never have and I never will. This girl is the only one who can get whatever she wants from me and I'd never complain because I absolutely love her that much.

"Yes." I answered bluntly and meeting her eye.

"So what would stop you from killing her on Wednesday? Obviously, you have to have dinner with her."

"I need her to pay my school fees and deposit money into my account to live. Plus, she makes me weak." I murmured, looking up at the clear night sky.

"How does she make you weak?"

"I know I can be pretty heartless when it comes to her but she's my mother and naturally, I want her to love me. I want to have a healthy mother and son bond with her but that'll never happen. I mumbled, running a hand through my hair.

"I would just see what she wants or needs to be able to continue to get what you need to survive. Also, try not to let her get to you. Your five minutes are up." She said, standing. "Good luck with your mother."

I should've let her leave but I didn't. I shouldn't keep making her get hung up on me like this but I can't help it. I want to be around her even if it's just until she smacks me and walks away.

I'm being selfish and I'm okay with that.

I quickly got to her before she made it to my room door and pushed her against the wall, pressing myself against her.

"Ella, do you still love me?"

"Blake, move."

I kept her pinned as she tried to free herself but let's be real, she's not going anywhere.

"Answer my question, princess. I need to know."

I know I'm not doing anything but confusing her but I'm okay with that too because it'll keep her interested in me. All I need is a little time to sort this out and during that time, I don't want her to peek interest in someone else.

"Blake, please don't do this. You don't know how far I've come." She whispered, voice cracking.

I lifted her chin, making her look up at me.

"Answer me baby, please." I begged her.

She's exposing her vulnerability to me and I'm exposing mine to her. She knows that she's the only one who can make me feel this way. Why won't she just use her head, why can't she realize that it's not what it seems? She's a fucking nerd for fucks sake!

"Ella-"

"Yes, Blake." She said, a tear dropping from her eye. "I still love you and I can't help it. You've hurt me, broken me but yet I still love you."

Another tear.

I released her arms and ran my hands down her shoulders, cupping her hands.

Don't do it, Blake. If you do, her work will be completely for nothing. You'd have her like putty.

I couldn't help it.

I leaned down and quickly kissed her, releasing my emotions to her. I let go of her hands and wrapped my left hand around her waist while my right roamed her body, settling on her small butt. She hesitantly wrapped her arms around my neck, our bodies flushed together. I pressed harder against her, her grip tightening on me as our kiss deepened.

I broke the kiss, pressing my forehead against hers.

"I'm so sorry."

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Chapter Sixteen

Such a short chapter but ... WHAT THE HELL JUST HAPPENED?

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