A/N: I apologize in advance. Just remember that I care about you ARMY and don't get pleasure from you crying or being upset...

Enjoy I guess.

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Eyes heavy beyond belief, your throat killed as you feared your nose would run into the fabric of the unfamiliar pillow.

Squinting over at all parts of the room, you were confused when eyeing the mess near the bed as well.

You tried not to jump when a hand met your forehead. Gaze alert and swinging over to who stood by the bed, your eyes met a boy who was just as surprised as you.

"Jungkook?" you asked. You were completely out of it as you looked around the room again. Where am I?

He noticed your confused form, smiling lightly, he sat down on the edge of the bed. You looked at him once he did, sitting up quick. He saw you tense and swallowed hard as he moved uncomfortably away from you.

"You're in my room," he said slowly.

Your face looked as if you got shot.

He licked his bottom lip, trying not to smile at your expression.

"Don't worry," he said reassuringly, "nothing happened...you fell asleep so I brought you back here. I would've taken you home but you got a fever in the car."

You rubbed at your head gently as you listened to him, nodding.

"You crashed up here and I took the floor," he said a tad awkward.

It was obvious to you that he was trying his hardest not to have you uncomfortable.

Glancing down at your dress you still had on, you blinked tiredly as you glanced over at Jungkook who was running a hand lazily through his hair himself. You could tell he had just woken up. Eyes trailing down to his bare shoulder, you flashed your gaze away from him quick when realizing he was shirtless.

Face scrunching and cursing at the fact that the voice inside your head kept urging to look over and study his torso, you refused to give in.

Jungkook would try his best to not show himself either. His arm covering at his chest and stomach region with his bare arms, he rubbed tiredly at his skin as he smiled cutely over at you.

You nervously smiled back like an idiot.

"You still feeling sick?" he asked concerned as he moved his hand from his chest and to your forehead again without thinking.

Your lips parted. Seeing such worry in his mind hurt you. All you could remember were the days where you'd injure yourself even the slightest and he'd wear that same expression almost always. Heart falling to your gut, you tried not pouting.

Palm slightly touching the side of your neck as he moved you hair back from your shoulder, your eyes softened as you watched him unknowingly move closer to you.

Gaze moving to meet yours, Jungkook's worried eyes softened when seeing you eyeing him.

Viewing and memorizing every feature of his bare face, you found yourself slowly moving into the backside of his hand that lightly moved up your cheek. The tips of his knuckles grazing your jaw line, he watched in awe as you clenched the muscles in your jaw beneath his touch.

You found yourself unable to breath when he eyed your lips thoroughly, his thumb gently touching your bottom lip in astonishment. Chest suddenly moving harsher when he allowed his thumb to drag your lip down very slowly, his expression darkened.

Your hand hesitantly went to his forearm.

The corners of his mouth moved upwards.

Butterflies tore out of your gut instantly, you breath hitching as you instantly moved your hand to cup his cheek, lips crashing desperately against his.

Eyes still slightly open, Jungkook smiled as your form that was wrapped with the blanket seemed to be leaning over him immediately. Shutting his eyes quick, his arms gripped at the fabric of your red dress, kissing you deeply back.

Your breath shook and he couldn't stop smiling against your lips as he leaned away and tilted his head in again, his lips moving fast with yours.

Having your leg move over his lap, before you could fully balance yourself on top of him, you squirmed against him when he gripped at your hips and moved you back to the center of the bed.

Hovering over your lying form instantly, his head arched forward along with his body in hopes to have his lips meet yours harsher.

You struggled to keep up, your one leg lamely wrapping around his legs as your hands now playing with his soft hair.

Feeling the back of your head against the headboard, you arched your head back as his desperate lips wouldn't dare leave your welcoming ones for air.

Mouths moving in haste with one another, you shivered under his touch when his hand moved up your bare thigh that tensed when against his side. Your dress was riding up your form, his belt grazing you between your legs causing you to internally scream and prop your other leg around him now.

He moved gently above you and your breath got caught in your throat at the fact that you could feel him harden between your legs. Whimpering as you had the sudden urge to cry, you simply gripped at his naked shoulder, begging for his lips to never stop. The way they fit with you were perfect.

Hips arching up as you moved against him yourself, you hugged him when you heard his breath waver against your mouth.

He swore under your breath and your mouth gaped open when his tongue attacked your neck.

"You really have a thing for n...necks," you breathed out. He made you flinch underneath him as he bit gently at the croak of your neck. Your eyes tightly shut.

"Just your neck," he darkly let out as he sloppily kissed back up to your lips and made you taste him thoroughly.

You whimpered as he moved down back between your legs, his fingers teasingly by the ends of your underwear, threatening to tug the fabric down whenever he pleased...

"I love you," you whimpered again when his hips moved closely against yours and you felt things you couldn't have ever imagined. Too stuck in the moment to realize what you had just whimpered out, you didn't notice the boy's lips freeze when against yours.

"I..." he swallowed harshly, reality hitting him hard when glancing down at you incredibly close to him. He was amazed at everything he had just been doing...everything the both of you were so openly doing.

"I love y-"

He was cut off when a gasp erupted from the door that suddenly opened.

Falling to the bed next to you, Jungkook's eyes softened at the fact that you had pushed him off of you immediately.

Watching as your form was instantly up and off the bed, he sat up using his elbows, not even bothering to pay attention to a grinning Jimin who blocked at his eyes, apologizing in shock.

"Woah well didn't see any of that coming," Jimin popped teasingly still completely shocked as he was about to rush away and close the door again.

He froze, smile fading quick when looking over at you from the door. You had whimpered again but it was a pained sound.

Jungkook's heart tore at the sight of you instantly balling, your body shaking.

Jimin's eyes softened drastically.

"Y/N-"

"Have fun on tour," you hiccuped as you rushed out of the room.

Jimin was in too much shock to even try and stop you as he eyed you running past the hall.

About to glance over at Jungkook, Jimin watched as the worried maknae ran instantly and just as quick after you.

"Jungkook!" Jimin shouted from behind him but no use, the two of you were rushing towards the exit of the home.

The rest of the boys who were tiredly eating were also caught by surprise when an hysterically crying girl rushed past them.

"Y/N?" Hoseok asked shocked and instantly concerned.

About to move after you, he stopped when seeing Jungkook worriedly chasing you.

Jungkook didn't think twice about any of it when running out the door.

He hastily took hold of your arm as you were trying to wipe at your damp cheeks.

Flinching away, your yelled out a "NO" before trying to run away from him again.

His heart hurt.

Grabbing you so that you'd face him, you were struggling when trying to move.

"Let me go!" you yelled, balling.

He didn't know what to do. Feeling tears at his eyes instantly at seeing you so suddenly broken, he didn't stop the salty substance to fall out of his concerned eyes.

"Y/N I'm sorry," he whimpered out himself, "everything that we just did I-"

You went limp in his arms, your knees giving out as you shook your head.

"No you aren't," you whined out exhausted, "YOU AREN'T SORRY!"

Jungkook was balling.

"Y/N-"

Pushing him off of you, you tried not to fall.

"DON'T YOU DARE TOUCH ME AGAIN!" you yelled pissed.

"I wouldn't have ever if I knew you didn't want to I-"

"Don't you get it?!" you sang out, "I did want to! I wanted you so bad I-I didn't want to stop I-"

You were a mess.

He tried to reach for you again but you stumbled back.

"Please," you begged.

He froze.

"Goodbye Jungkook," you let out defeated.

Shaking, sick, and hurting, you moved away from the boy as soon as you could.

Jungkook glanced over at the members that stood by the door. His jaw clenched before he pushed past Taehyung and rushed back into the house.

Namjoon's eyes watered at the very sight of the maknae crying so madly.

"Let's go pack," Jin said lightly, his sad eyes on the ground as he moved in.

Hoseok's eyes never left the one spot you were once standing.

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You numbly stood there. Trying not to think about the morning, you focused on the night sky from outside the airport windows.

Waiting to just do your job and leave immediately without looking back, you looked down at your phone and at the reassuring messages from both Iris and Shawn.

You smiled lightly to yourself. Although the three of you had just started to grow incredibly close, you could easily say that you genuinely loved and cared for them. They were all that you had now and you were okay and strong enough to admit that to yourself now.

They were healthy for you.

Sighing as you tried to compose yourself, you were ready to get hard-headed as soon as anyone tried anything...

You tensely moved beside PD Nim who had his hand lightly at the small of your back.

"Thank you greatly Y/N," he said as he smiled lightly at you.

You smiled nervously back, bowing over at him as he looked over at the boys that were now coming down the aisle of the airport. All were distracted from the number of fans that yelled out their names. Admiration struck even after all the drama that had occurred. Although there was tension, there was still so much love for the boys that the fans held.

"After this you can go back home and not worry about any of it," the man said softly.

He knew this was the last thing you wanted. But he also knew the only person you were doing this for was him and it made him extremely sad.

"Not worry about it until they come back from tour right?" You mumbled and he smiled sadly at you.

"I promise this will be over soon," he said and you sighed nodding.

"Thanks again sweetheart," he sighed and you nodded, nudging him playfully with your shoulder.

It surprised you how much you were willing to give for the man next to you. It was sad but also kind of beautiful. He was the only stable father figure in your life and you didn't mind at all...

The boys slowly had their eyes meet yours. They were surprised to see you. But as soon as they saw PD Nim next to you, their faces fell.

You weren't here for them. You were here because of their manager.

Jimin smiled painfully over at you and you tried your hardest not to make eye contact as you awkwardly looked down.

They moved towards their team and you heard the maknae's voice. He let out a soft "really?" in disbelief when looking over at his manager.

PD Nim nodded and Jungkook's eyes lingered on your form. He hated that you had to do this. Swallowing, he awkwardly glanced over at the fans behind you and security as they were trying to look past the wall that blocked the team. They were clearly trying to get a view of Jungkook and you.

Swallowing harshly, he looked over at you with sad eyes.

"You don't have to do this," he said slowly and you didn't say anything as you simply looked over at PD Nim.

Jungkook's heart hurt over the fact that you clearly didn't want to be any where near him. The way you were nervously playing with your sleeves end's spoke numbers to him.

PD Nim moved, curtly nodding over at you as he moved aside so a peeking view of the two of you could be seen.

Jungkook's jaw clenched as he looked over at you.

You awkwardly glanced over at him. Brows furrowing lightly over at the cameras that were trying to remain hidden, you rolled your eyes internally over at the press trying to be slick.

"I'm going to miss you," you sighed out, glancing over at PD Nim that begged with his eyes briefly before moving away and to the rest of the boys.

Jungkook was tense. His jaw clenched as you barley looked at him.

"Will you really?" He tested.

You looked over at PD Nim again at that. You panicked a bit as you felt the cameras near you further. There were clicks and blinking of lights. Pictures and murmuring fans...

"Yes I will," you said confused over his expression so stern.

Jungkook saw nothing else but you. He didn't care for the cameras, he barely noticed the members tensely lingering, nor the fans screaming...in that moment all he saw was you.

"I miss you," he said softly.

You nodded, oblivious to what he truly meant as you assumed he was just playing along with the facade.

Moving to tensely hug him, your breath hitched when his arms instantly tightened around you, bringing you close to him.

"Bye," you said slowly, wanting to move away from him so badly. It hurt to be so close to him, you missed his scent and his touch. Eyes stinging, you bottled it all up within you as you were about to pull away.

Managing to get your hands to his chest when trying to push him off, your brows jumped when his head slowly moved into your hair and the croak of your neck.

Moving away instantly, you looked at him and struggled a tiny bit at his hold that was still tightly around your waist. Glancing up at him awkwardly, you didn't recognize the look in his eyes.

Trying to move away again, you froze when lips gently engulfed yours.

Brows furrowing instantly, Jungkook moved his lips hastily with yours, trying to memorize the way they fit perfectly with his, along with the taste of them.

He hated that he was always the reason behind you crying and upset. He didn't want this. All he wanted was for you to be happy. Knowing that him not being around for a while was just what you needed.

She'll be happy without me, he said smiling painfully at his own thoughts as he continued to kiss you.

His hands scrunched up at the sides of your sweater, knuckles going extremely white as he pulled you closer than you could ever imagine.

The very action caused your heart to flutter. You had trouble keeping up with his desperate lips that thoroughly moved with yours. Too lost to realize exactly what was going on, your hands clung onto his shirt.

There was a low, "that's enough," from PD Nim who was now in front of them again, shielding the view of the two practically making out from the fans that seemed to catch a small glimpse.

They were roaring, many happy, a few not so much...

Jungkook's lips froze against yours when hearing PD Nim's voice.

You didn't dare open your eyes as you slowly moved your head away from near him.

His voice was hoarse yet incredibly soft.

"I love you so much..."

Jungkook's eyes were tired as he said it. He sighed internally.

Your eyes shot open in shock. You looked him directly in the eyes. He simply seemed to be looking down at the ground.

Eyeing his lips for a moment, you swallowed hard as he licked them and smiled lightly.

"What chapstick do you use?" He teasingly let out as he nervously laughed.

You were in awe. Confused over all of it, you watched as he glanced over at the cameras that were failing to hide.

Your jaw clenched at that. Of course... you internally scolded yourself for thinking that what he actually just said was directed to you genuinely.

His eyes softened, his heart fluttering and aching at the same time while looking back at you. To him the camera's didn't mean shit. He said what he wanted and how he wanted it. Although he didn't want to acknowledge what he just admitted to you, he would never imagine trying to ever take back what he softly confessed.

"Stay safe."

His eyes were filled with concern.

You nodded numbly, eyes on the ground now.

He kissed your forehead, lingering for a long while as he refused to let you go.

In your eyes it was a facade for the cameras...to Jungkook, it wasn't. He truly didn't want to let you slip away from his grip.

"Bye," he said softly as he moved away with difficulty.

You nodded, waving lamely before hugging yourself as he walked over to the shocked members.

Their jaws were close to grazing the ground beneath their feet. They were incredibly shocked over what they had just witnessed.

Burning up, you simply looked over at PD Nim that nodded at you.

Pursing your lips as you felt your eyes sting beyond belief, you left the scene before any one could notice you well up.

You smiled cutely when out in the parking lot, a tear leaving your eye when Shawn instantly rubbed at your back when instantly by your side.

Feeling Iris's arm go around your waist, the girl clung on to you.

"Thanks," you softly laughed as both pouted over at you.

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A/N: Again...I'm sorry yikes.!

(ps wattpad squished up my paragraphs near the end lmao, sorry! it's being a bitch)