𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝑵𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 80
"Although saying ''I love you'' might be a little obvious
I can't save those words
I care about you more than anything in the world
Your own tomorrow, your own tomorrow
Waiting for tomorrow just for you
All day, making a story that won't ever end
The ending is like the title"

"They're so cute I'm about to cry." I whimpered at Chan who was next to me by the door, I saw my kids each throw flower petals down the aisle with huge smiles.

They ended up solving their arguments just in time for the wedding.

"Is it hard? Being a parent?" Chan asked as he looked at me with a soft smile.

"Well, it definitely would've been more harder if Felix was more busy but he was always there every inch of the way. It can be hard at times but as long as you both put effort, it'll be worth it." I smiled as I looked back at my kids.

"I'm nervous, to be a dad.." Chan chuckled. "I know Sana will be the perfect mom but what if I'm not the perfect dad."

"Chan," I turned to him with a chuckle. "You will be the best dad, maybe not perfect but you always try your best. Your kids will grow up to be the most humble and cute people the world has ever seen, you will be a good dad."

Chan smiled and nodded at my reassurance, he let my arm wrap around his arm as the doors opened so I can finally walk down the aisle.

I didn't get anxiety as people watched me and I didn't feel nervous, this was what I've waited for my whole life and I didn't even realize it till now.

I knew I wanted to get married to Felix.

And as we exchanged vows I noticed Felix's eyes getting teary which made my eyes teary as well, it was good to know we were both in love with each other.

And I loved the moment we were pronounced husband and wife, and when he kissed me with so much love and care. I didn't settle for less, I settled for the right person.

It took us so many years to finally get to this point, we went through so much to be happy and in the end it was all worth it.

I could recall every memory in that kiss we shared.

• • •

"Then we debut you in a non-k-pop group, it won't have k-pop at all and you can perform as an American singer," Felix explained with a reassuring smile. "Do you know who I am?"

"Felix," I chuckled. "You're from Stray Kids."

"Oh wow, I didn't think you would know." He laughed. "Well if you make it as a trainee, we can offer you the opportunity to become a backup dancer for us just until you debut."

• • •

"I don't have your number." I snorted and then my eyes widened at the realization of what I said.

"I'll give it to you, hand me your phone." Felix smiled.

"What? No! Its fine! Really, I don't want you to worry about such things." I swatted my hands.

"Give me." Felix chuckled and took my phone out of my sweater pocket, he quickly put his number and handed it to me

• • •

Felix looked at me with widened eyes as if I was crazy. "What? Heck no! Alaska, we could get in trouble for climbing this, isn't it like trespassing?"

"Felix, if you don't want to climb onto this ladder then you'll just be hanging down here on your own," I say with a smirk and started climbing.

"F-fine, it's really dark in the alleys anyways." Felix gave in and climbed after you.

"It's beautiful here." I say as I looked over the buildings, the lights were colorful which was something I didn't expect to see.

Felix walked over to where I was and pulled me farther from the ledge. "You might fall."

I chuckled at him and looked back at the view. "I've done this before, I think I know I have to be careful."

I sat on the ledge with my legs hanging out to which Felix stood in the same place in fear.

"Come on! You won't fall, trust yourself." I advised with a small smile.

Felix nodded slightly as he took small steps and sat next to you.

"It's really pretty, I've never done anything like this," Felix said and looked at me with a smile.

"That's because you haven't lived yet, I think being an idol means you have to also take precautions and make sure you take care of yourself. But idols should take risks and live a little, otherwise, they aren't living." I explained as I looked at the beautiful night sky.

"I mean you aren't lying," Felix paid close attention to my words. "I love performing but sometimes I think if I took the right path or not. Sometimes I just want to live as a normal teenager, playing video games really help me balance my idol life and teen life. I wish I could be as risky as you but I'm pretty sure my contract could be terminated."

Felix chuckled at the last part and started to play with his tiny hands.

"Well they don't always have to know, I bet idols date in secret. So if they can date in secret then why can't you do something to give you an adrenaline rush." You got up and offered your hand.

• • •

"So, what were you guys talking about?" Felix asked as he walked up to me with a curious look.

"Just secret spy stuff, you know the usual." I teased as I sat down and began to brainstorm new lyrics.

"Spy stuff? You're doing illegal things without me? I thought I was your partner in crime." Felix pouted as he took a seat next to me.

• • •

"Felix?" I scoffed at the fluffy boy taking a seat besides me. "What are you doing here again?"

"Well, I was expecting you to be here at this time either way of course!" Felix rolled his eyes sarcastically. "When don't you come here to think."

"Is that supposed to be an insult?" I scoffed and punched him playfully. "I just appreciate my alone time, it's really nice to be alone sometimes."

"Oh, so should I leave then and leave you to do your alone activities?" Felix stood up and smirked.

"Shut it!" I gasped. "I didn't mean it that way, I just needed to get out."

"Okay, yeah sure." He wiggles his eyebrows at me.

"Stop doing that, you look creepy." I made a disgusted face at him as Felix sat back down.

"Stop doing what?" Felix wiggled his eyebrows again.

"Wiggling your eyebrows you weirdo!" I looked back at my computer and continued to focus on the melody.

"Fine, I'll stop! I'll be back, I actually want to get some food." Felix gets up and walks through the aisles.

• • •

Felix took my hand and held it against his cheek and rubbed his cheek on my hand, it sent shivers down my spine and my stomach was in knots. What was he doing?

"Your hands are so soft." Felix closed his eyes as his smile grew cuter. "I missed you a lot today, it's sad we can't practice together everyday."

"Yeah," I shot him a sad smile. "But at least we can still talk here."

"It feels nice." Felix let go of my hand and continued to eat his ramen. "You know its not often that I talk with more people especially girls, I'm glad we got closer."

• • •

"Because I want you to stay with me for the long run, you mean a lot to me so I want to make sure you never feel like backing out and I want you to succeed." Felix replied and stared at me with care. "I care about you so much."

My eyes fell to his lips, they were perfect and beautiful.

Snap out of it! I can't think this way!

"Felix, I think you should find someone else to stick with you in the long run." I turn around with a frown.

"Why? Because you have a crush on Chan and you guys secretly have a thing?" Felix scoffed.

"What? No!" I turn back to him with a glare. "Why would you ever think that?"

"Because you two act like you're in love or something! You both seem like you're flirting just to spite me." Felix growled.

"Why would I ever- Chan and I are good friends!" I retorted.

"Prove it then!" Felix's eyes glared at me but not with hatred, I could tell he felt sad.

"I don't need to prove anything to you." I pushed Felix. "I don't owe anything to you, because we are just friends."

"Oh really? We're just friends?" Felix walks up to me and places a kiss onto my lips while his hands cup my cheeks. "How about now?"

And he placed another long kiss on my lips again.

I felt my heart beat fast again, my lips were trembling but I felt so safe knowing that Felix was holding me up with care. I let my eyes close at the same time he closed his and I let him lead our lips in sync.

I could feel himself pour everything into the kiss, I didn't know what to say or think. But I did know I didn't want this to end, I'm definitely hooked.

I pull away and our foreheads rest on each other, I opened my eyes to see him with lustful eyes.

Maybe it was the stress we both had or the the adrenaline rushing through our veins but that night was something I would always keep at the back of my mind.

• • •

"Me?" Felix questioned as his eyes widened. "Am I some sort of rebound?"

"Felix!" I argued before leaning away from me and sitting up straight. "You were buried in the back of heart since I left the company. You were never the rebound."

I looked at him before staring at his lips, they looked so pretty and just like I had seen them 5 years ago.

And I still felt dizzy so I took my chances and thought it was all a dream, in a dream you do things that you wouldn't normally do in real life.

You do reckless things.

I pecked his lips quickly before getting up and leaving the roof, going down the ladder Felix sat there in shock from my action.

"Come on let's go rob that bank!" I called out which made Felix come back to reality.

A smile spread acrosd his face as he climbed down and ran down the streets with me.

• • •

"Alaska!" A voice sent a shock through my body as I helped my last member into the car which only left me to get in.

I turned around to see Felix look at me and look back towards Nancy who looked at him with a confused expression on her face.

What was going on?

Felix let go of her hands before looking at the cameras, "Nancy and I broke up a long time ago. I did share some feelings for her at the start but it's sad to say she never made me feel the same way Alaska made me feel."

What the hell was he doing? Is he fucking crazy?

"Felix." I breathed out as I walked towardd him and then stopped when he looked at me.

"She kissed me because she wanted to lie to the public again, I didn't want to continue it I promise. I don't feel anything for Nancy anymore and I didn't kiss her back because I felt things for her." Felix's eyes softened as he confessed everything. "I love you, Alaska."

Felix.

I don't know whether I should feel mad or happy, I knew my members were watching as well because I heard them shoot gasps from behind me.

How could this boy possibly confess everything to public after everything we've been through?

"Alaska, you sung about being with someone in public and showing the world how much you care and love them." Felix walked closer. "And I'm here for it, I'm here every step of the way."

Felix unlocks his phone and shows me his calender which showed the event today.

Stray Kids Contract Ends today

I stared at the phone before staring back to him, he was free.. He was finally free. He didn't renew his contract with JYP which meant.. That's why he confessed everything? He didn't lie, he was telling the truth. Which meant...

"I-" I began to stutter, the cameras flashing in my face but the paparazzi and every other idol trying to leave stood quiet and looked our way.

Everyone's attention was on us, it didn't make me feel good though because I felt like dying.

"Yongbok." I spoke in Korean. "If I had to go through all of this again, make that mistake and get thrown out. Go through hell to debut and finally be here in this moment... I know I said I wasn't sure... But I'd go back to you."

And he kissed me. In front of everyone, he placed his hands on my cheeks and held me closely as he placed a sweet kiss in my lips while the paparazzi took photos.

• • •

Present time

"What are you thinking about?" Felix brushed my hair and presses his lips in my head lovingly as we were sprawled on the bed.

"Just how we met and finally have this life together." I smiled as I looked at him and kiss him slowly as I held his cheek to bring him closer.

Felix's lips moved with mine for a few minutes before he pulled away with lust in his eyes and looks at me.

"I'm glad I get to have you in arms now, no lies, no hiding anything, we can finally be together." He chuckled. "I can't believe Chris and Yoon want to be an idol."

"Same," I raised my eyebrows at the realization. "And Nia is already studying dance, what if they cross paths in the industry?"

"They sure will, along with Chan's child." Felix giggled. "Allen will get along with Chris just fine."

"Even if they're 13 years old I can't believe they're set on their dream so early." I nodded. "Reminds me of us back then yet we were older."

"We finally made it." Felix's smile was so adorable, I was happy he was happy and he was happy that I was happy.

"I wonder what's going to happen in the next chapter of our kids." I smirked.

"I guess we'll have to see and find out." Felix smirked back with a loud laugh as the door opened and our kids poured in to tell us that the members were here.

Stray kids and Dare Devilz, our other family.

And I'm glad that I got this opportunity, the opportunity to debut, to fall in love, to get married and have kids, to have a real family.

But all of this wasn't able to happened if it weren't for

The Audition.

The End.