𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒑𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝑵𝒖𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓 32
"Cause I like you"

"Where were you?" Mako looked at me with her arms crossed.

"Somewhere." I replied as I entered my room and shut the door.

"Somewhere? All night? We could've got in trouble because of you, we can't leave unless we tell our manager." Mako followed me and opened my door.

"Wow, maybe next time they'll be lucky enough to catch me." I spat sarcastically and change into different clothes.

"Stop with that attitude of yours, you have to follow my directions or you're out of this group." Mako glared. "We have to be a team."

"A team?" I scoffed. "A fucking team? Was it not you yesterday that basically put all the blame know me for Rima not debuting?"

"That was different... That was personal." Mako frowned.

"Shut it, Mako." I rolled my eyes. "I'm done trying to reason with you."

I barged past her and see the members in the living room playing around.

"Oh Alaska! We missed you!" Riku smiled as she motioned for me to sit next to her and Miihi.

"Hi!" I smiled back.

At least the girls treat me with respect. Mako lost all my respect to be completely honest, I tried to give her the benefit of the doubt but it wasn't enough.

And now I was informed we had to record our predebut album which made things even harder. I know we already had fans, there was so many who wat he'd the survival show which in thankful for but god if they knew how Mako was acting...

I wish I stayed at the other dorms with Stray Kids, at least I felt apart of their friend group.

But I had to stay professional, right? I can't let Dispatch find me at their dorms because that... That would be horrible.

We haven't signed the contract with JYP yet so technically I'm not breaking any rules but maybe soon I will. And I know, I shouldn't mess up my opportunity but lately I've been feeling so empty. What's the point?

And so that night when I went to practice at the JYP dance room I found Chan there.

"You want my laptop again? Sure." He smiled and passed me his laptop. "I know it'll be in good hands but could I have it back tomorrow? I need to produce something with Changbin and Jisung."

"Of course!" I smiled.

"Also, don't tell Felix this but he wrote a song about your guy's friendship. Its honestly a cute song." Chan giggled. "It won't be released though, more of a fun side project."

"Huh? A song? About us?" I blinked softly. "How— Why would he do that? When did he do that?"

"I don't know, I think Changbin helped him with it." Chan scratched his head. "I haven't heard it, he told me it was a secret for you but I'd figure you'd want to know how great of a friend he is."

"Right!" I nervously chuckled. "Such a great friend... Listen I have to go, I want to start producing another song.."

"Oh yeah! Good luck, I know it'll sound good." Chan smiled and left me alone.

When I got back to the dorms everyone was asleep but Mako who saw me walk into my room and followed me.

"What do you want?" I sighed.

"Nothing... Just... I'm sorry I guess." Mako mumbled.

"Huh?" I asked to make sure I wasn't hearing things.

"I'm sorry for taking out my anger on you." She sighed. "I shouldn't have blamed you, I was in the wrong."

"Wow, you really got your senses back." I scoffed. "Is that all?"

"I guess I really didn't expect you to debut with us, that's just the cold truth but I can't sit here and argue with you. We have to learn to work as a team and family if our group works out." Mako explained. "Meaning no secrets."

"Secrets? So we have no privacy to ourselves?" I questioned.

"Alaska." Mako sighed. "Work with me, this is our future we can't mess up and I won't allow a person on our team to misbehave whenever they want to and sabotage us."

"Fine." I finally gave in. "But I swear if you tell me or blame me on something that isn't my fault-"

"I won't, goodnight." Mako left my room leaving me to think.

I mean she was right, we had to be a team if we wanted to debut and just because I was in the debut line up doesn't mean it'll be permanent. I haven't even signed the damn contract and I'm already having second thoughts!

I really miss Nina and Yuna though, I really hope they get to debut in some other company..

• • •

"Alaska, I have a present for you." Felix giggled as we both walked to the convenience store to get some noodles and practice in the dance room.

"What is it?" I hummed with a smile as I turned to look at him.

"I'll tell you inside." Felix spat and ran inside the store.

I followed behind slowly with a chuckle, he was such a kid sometimes.

When we both got the noodles and checked out, we sat at the counter just staring at each other in awe.

"I wrote a song for you, well I wrote it with Changbin and his voice is in it but-"

"That's alright Felix." I chuckled. "But you didn't have to do that? I just really... I feel really lucky to have you."

"And I'm lucky to have you." Felix smiled brightly as he took my hand and dragged me to the JYP dance room which took a couple minutes.

It was now the afternoon and we were still in the dance room, to be more precise we started to practice around 6 in the morning and now it was 1 in the afternoon. Yes.... I felt like my body was dying but Felix didn't have to know that.

"Does your body want to die?" Felix asked as I panted harshly.

Dang it!

"How'd you know?" I chuckled nervously. 

"Well you're breathing really harsh and your face is flushed, are you out of shape?" Felix laughed.

"It's not my fault! I took maybe a few days off! I promise I wasn't this out of shape when I first began." I pouted.

"You can't take too many days off especially as a trainee, you may have it to the debut line up but there is still a lot for you to learn." Felix advised. "Let's work out on your core."

"My what now?" I scrunched my eyebrows in confusion at his words, he chuckled lightly before dragging me to the floor and making me go in a plank position.

"You need to strengthen your stomach, this will help." Felix places his hands on my stomach as I'm in the plank. 

My stomach erupted with butterflies at his touch, why is he like this? 

"Isn't this like cheating the workout if your hand is helping me?" I questioned.

"Oh, right." Felix takes his hand away quickly and turns away with a small blush. "I just wanted to help you a little.." 

He was so cute I can't believe he's real, I will always say this because how can a beautiful and amazing guy like Felix exist? He's perfect and not in the "he's an idol so he's perfect" way but like he's a beautiful person inside out. Anyone would be lucky to be friends or date Felix he's just a literal sunshine.

I really like him, I could see myself dating him for the rest of my life. I wouldn't mind him being in my life for as long as I live. He was simply an angel.

"You good?" Felix states as he snaps me out of my thoughts and I collapse on the floor. 

"Yes!" I sit up as he laughs at my mistake. 

"What were you thinking of?" He gets closer to my face. 

"Nothing." I felt my cheeks get hotter as I try to get away form his grasp until he pins to the floor as he hovered above me.

"Oh really?" He said in a deeper voice as he began to close the distance between us.

"Just kiss me already." I sighed as I brought my hands to his face and smashed our lips together. 

I don't know what urge came over me and I don't know why I literally-

Oh god what am I doing, we were in a dance room!

"Guys, I-" A voice interrupts us.

Holy fuck. Shit, we're dead. Why did I have to kiss him? There was Jisung standing at the doorway with his mouth wide open. I am literally so stupid what is wrong with me? Do we panic? Do we act like we didn't just kiss?