No Going Back
Another week had passed and it was time for group therapy. But I didn't want the entire group together, I wanted small groups and I knew exactly how I was going to do it.
I sent a text to them all on Sunday morning letting them know we were to meet in the living room at noon, and there they were all looking at me, axious to what this could be about.
"I want to do more group therapy...it has helped in the past and I think it could be helpful again. Only this time..." I look to Jin and Namjoon. "I want to do small groups. There are things I need to discuss with all of you and they are different according to pairs. So Jin, Namjoon, our session will be today...right after we are done here, okay?"
They both nodded and Jin placed his head on Namjoons shoulder. I turned to Yoongi.
"Yoongi, you Hobi and Jungkook with have a session with me on Tuesday...and Taehyung and Jimin, you guys will be on Wednesday."
"What about Monday?" Jimin asked.
"Monday is going to be just us...no therapy...nothing. We are going to take a break and just have a day to ourselves. I am going to make dinner, Jin it's my turn, and then a desert and we are going to just hang out. You have all done well and I just think its time for a break."
I didn't want to give them too much information yet. This weekend was going to be a huge change for them and I didn't want to bombard them with anything yet. They all smiled to me and I looked over to Namjin. "Come on guys."
We made our way up to my office and they sat comfortably in each chair waiting for me to start.
"So...how are things?"
Namjoon chuckled. "Really?"
"Well yeah...are you guys official?"
Jin gave me a huge smile and nodded.
"Does that mean that you Namjoon..."
"Have accepted that I'm gay? Yes."
He didn't even flinch. He said it so proudly that it was almost as if the person I last spoke with didn't exist. "And...you're okay with that?"
He nodded. "It's who I am, and if my father can't accept that then he doesn't have to be a part of my life..."
I watched as Jin squeezed his hand encouragingly. I looked over to him. "What about you Jin?"
"What do you want to know?"
"How's Jinnie?"
"Happy....he has a daddy now." He smiled looking at Namjoon and Namjoon kissed him on the nose.
"And have you done your research?"
They both nodded.
"It was hard at first...because I had no idea how to be a cargiver...but now that I know what I'm doing, we've taken steps."
"What steps would that be?"
"Rules...for Jinnie and also for Jin and I."
"Can I ask what some of your rules are?"
"He's not allowed to call anyone else daddy, he can't curse while little, no running up and down the stairs, no going into either studio unless he's invited."
I nodded. "Sounds like a good start. What about the rules between you two."
"He's not allowed to storm out when he's mad." Jin stated. "He has to talk about why he's upset and he has to tell me when he doesn't understand why I'm upset...he has to ask me and I have to be patient with him and be more vocal and communicate my feelings."
"Sounds like you guys have everything covered." I smiled.
They both nodded and smiled back.
"So this brings me to the important part of this session."
They both sat a little straighter and gave me a confused look.
"The point of me being here...the point of therapy and the point of me living with you, seeing how you react outside sessions and with the others, is to get you out of here. Both of you. Well and happy." They continued to look at me, but I think Namjoon was starting to understand where I was getting at. "You're both well are you not?" They nodded. "You both are happy are you not?" They nodded again. "So I think it's time for you to move out of this house and start your 6 month probation."
The room was silent and Jin lifted off of Namjoon's shoulder looking at me with wide eyes.
"What?" he asked.
"I'm sorry run that by us again?"
"I think you are ready...I think it's time for you to step out of your comfort zone and move forward. But together."
Jin stood up and walked towards me and Namjoon stood reaching for him. When I looked up to Jin his demeanor changed a little...he grabbed the hem of his shirt. His lip started to quiver a bit and tears started to pool in his eyes. "Jinnie can...be out?"
I took his hand and held it tightly nodding to him. "Jinnie can have a home with his Daddy...if that's what you want."
"N-Noona...a-are you sure?"
I stood and watched Namjoon walk over holding on to Jin.
"You both have to agree on it...but I'm serious."
He looked over to Namjoon.
"Daddy...you want to live alone with Jinnie?"
I watched as a huge smile came across Namjoon's face. He kissed Jin on the forehead before he answered. "Nothing would make me happier."
I watched as they rejoiced with each other. Once they were settled Jin came back in big space and we went over the details. We had already had an apartment for them ready that they could afford as long as they were sharing the expenses and a 6 month lease contract in their name. They signed the lease and I submitted it to the apartment complex via fax with a notary. They were set to move the following Monday. Once everything was done all three of us took deep breaths.
I looked up to them and smiled. "How do you feel?"
"Like I'd like to finish my schooling. I feel like I can do my last semester online, all I have to do is submit the paperwork."
Smiling I pulled out a large envelope. "I may have already done that for you."
His eyes went wide as he took the envelope from me. "What?"
"I submitted your resubmition papers already and I registered you for classes. You only had 2 that you HAD to take for your business major, but you needed 16 credits to graduate. All of your classes are 4 credits each, I do think that you will like the electives I signed you up for."
He looked through the pages and read out loud his class list. "Advanced Business Accounting 400, Management Reasourses and Leadership Skills 300, Music Production Management 400, and Music Producing 101."
He looked up to me and the look on his face was a pained one. But just then...I saw a tear drop from his eye.
"Classes start January 9th 2019 and you graduate April 28th of 2019, as long as you pass all your classes of course. But I know your IQ, so if you don't pass I will know its because of laziness."
"How did you pay for this?"
"Your dad actually paid for it...a while ago. You had credit balance with them for a while and the refund was looked over. So everything is paid for...just don't tell your dad." I laughed.
Just then he got to his feet pulling me up to him. He wrapped his arms around me and held me tightly. "Thank you." He whispered, and I felt a tear fall on my neck. I patted his back and rubbed it softly as I gave a look to Jin. He looked so happy for Namjoon. I beckoned him to come get his boyfriend off of me and he did. They walked out of my office hand in hand I could not be more happy for them.
I was at my computer making sure the arrangements for my next pair were going to fit together. I was almost done when I heard a soft knock on my door.
"It's open." I called.
Jimin walked in with a soft smile on his face. He closed the door and leaned against it looking at me. "Hi."
I stopped typing and closed my laptop. "Hi Jimin."
"Mind if I sit?"
"Please." I said as I gestured towards the chair in front of me.
He sat down and looked up to me smiling. "Can I ask you something?"
"Of course."
"As Quinn?"
"Yes."
"Why are you avoiding me?"
"I'm not...I...ugh." I felt flustered and rested my head in my hands while my elbows were on the table in front of me. "Jimin...I am so confused...I don't know what to feel."
I didn't move my head but I heard him. "You just feel how you feel...you don't force feelings, babe."
I shivered at the pet name he gave me. I looked up to him and saw his eyes soft and calming. He reached out for my hands and held both of them. He took a deep breath and let it out before talking again.
"Do you regret it?" His eyes held more than just calm...a slight fear of my answer was there too.
"No." I spoke confidently. "Not at all."
He smiled again and I watched as the fear left his eyes. He kissed both of my hands before he stood back up. He walked over to the door and I was so confused...why is he leaving?
"I don't want to pressure you...and that's all I've done. When you're ready...I'll be here."
He opened the door and just as he was about to shut it behind him I stood to my feet and ran after him. Almost an out of body experience I grabbed his wrist. He stopped and looked at me. I pulled the office door shut behind me and locked it. I took hold of his soft hand and pulled him to my bedroom. I unlocked it and pulled him inside locking it back up once he as inside.
"I...I don't feel pressured...I want you as badly as you want me."
He shortened the distance between us quickly and pushed me up against my wall. Before I knew it his pillowy lips were on mine rendering me speechless with the movements with his mouth. His lips were graceful and rough all at the same time and I melted into him. His kiss, his touch...again that was all I could focus on. Jimin was touching me. I found myself letting go again as I clung to him. He pulled me from the wall to a sitting position on my bed. He pulled my legs to each side of him making me straddle him. His lips found mine again and as my hands were taking purchase on the roots of his hair, one of his hands held the back of my neck as he pulled me against him, and the other one on the small of my back.
He started to lean back pulling me on top of him not breaking the kiss at all. His lips devoured me and it felt so good to be wanted...needed...the way he wanted and needed me. In that moment all my doubts were washed away and I let Jimin take me again...and again. I was his and there was no going back.
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