I sat there in silence tapping my pen against my notebook. He sat there wide eyed for the last 15 minutes without speaking. I understand the kind of shock he could be feeling...I can only imagine all the thoughts he may be thinking. He was told...for years that he had an illness...that he needed help...when all he really needed was someone to give him a chance, someone to understand, someone to listen and take interest. No one did that for him. He spent all his life taking care of other people no one stopped to take care of him.

The subject matter is still touchy. It is still something not everyone understands, but the simple matter is, he does not have an alter.

"Jin." I said breaking him from his trance. He turned his eyes towards me. "You haven't said anything. Do you want to tell me what you're thinking?"

He didn't say anything. He just sat there still. I continued to tap my pen against my notebook. He started to stir in his chair. He opened his mouth as to speak but then closed again. I couldn't help but to grin a bit.

"Jin it's okay that you don't know what to say." I told him tilting my head. "It's a lot to process after so many years of thinking one thing and then someone coming in with a whole other theory."

"Theory?" He asked finally speaking.

"I mean yes it's a theory...a pretty damn accurate one if you ask me. But we won't be sure until we test it."

He looked at me tilting his head. "Test how?"

"Well...by making you and Jinnie switch back to each other on command. When you're Jinnie  we need you to recap what you remember."

"But I always remember Jinnie. I don't ever forget...like I said before it's me...just a younger me."

"Can you...control him?"

"Well...I...I guess? How would I know?"

"When you are Jinnie...do you...do you go somewhere else? Is it like there is a whole other person inside your mind?"

He looked at me intently for a moment. "N-no."

"What is it like?"

"It's just me...not another person just...me."

I nodded. "Jin...those who suffer from D.I.D., their alter is a whole different person. One that is in the same with themselves but it's almost like there is more than one person inside the mind. On the other hand...someone with a little personality...they regress into little space...its different. It's a mindset of which an adult can go back to when they were young, care free, and had no responsibilities. You...took care of your sisters your entire life. When you lived with your Aunt they were absent minded 'parents'. You learned to cook, you learned to braid hair, you learned to do make up, all to teach your little sisters. That started at a very...very young age for you. You didn't have a childhood. When you sisters decided to stay in Germany...isn't that when you started acting like a little?"

He nodded slightly.

"Don't you think my theory makes sense?"

He took a moment, his expression still a shocked one. "So...you're telling me...that...I DON'T have another personality...that...Jinnie is me...and I am me...and...we are the same person."

I giggled. "Yes...that's what I think."

"So I can just...bring him out whenever I want."

I nodded.

"And I can come back...whenever I want."

I nodded again.

"Can I try it now?"

"If you feel comfortable...would you like me to get Namjoon?"

"No." He said coldly his expression going blank.

I nodded. "Okay, so what I want you to do is close your eyes and try to imagine yourself as Jinnie. Imagine what you think about while you are him...and place youself in a younger mind frame and release all responsibility from yourself. I believe this is how you slip naturally...so for you to do it on purpose these thoughts will help."

He nodded and closed his eyes taking a deep breath. He kept his head slightly down. He shook his head after a few seconds and opened his eyes meeting mine.

I smiled. "Jinnie?"

"Hi Noona!" He said happily. He got up off the chair and bounced into my lap causing me to drop my pen and note book. I wrapped my arms around him as he hugged me tightly. "I did it Noona!! I became Jinnie all on my own!"

I ruffled his hair. "I am so proud of you Jinnie!" He giggled and pulled away from me still on my lap. "Do you want to play a game of Candyland with me?"

He nodded excitedly and clapped his hands. We walked over to my desk and set up the board game. After one round Jin won shortly after he drew the Ice Princess card.

"Aww man!" I said exasperated.

"Noona its okay...I just really good at Candyland." He said with a smile.

"Jinnie can I ask you something?"

He nodded.

"Will you please be big?"

He frowned a bit. "You no like me Noona?" He said tears froming in his eyes.

"I like you very much Jinnie...who else do I play Candyland with?"

He smiled big. "No one but me!" He said pointing his thumb to his chest.

"That's right!" I said with a smile. "But I need to talk to big you. You can be little again later."

He nodded taking a deep breath and closed his eyes tight. After a few more seconds he opened his eyes. "I...I've never done that before..." he said with tears.

"That's because no one asked you to Jin."

He started to sob. His face fell in his hands and his shoulder's shook hard. I walked over to him rubbing his back.

"I...I didn't know...does..." he looked up to me eyes red and puffy. "Does this make me even more of a freak?"

"No!" I said sternly. "Jin you listen to me right now. People deal with stress in different ways. This is just one way of dealing with stress and regaining the childhood you never had."

He nodded again and wiped his tears. We made our way back to the comfortable chairs I had in my office and once his breathing regulated he looked to me. "What happens now?"

"I don't want you in this house anymore Jin. As much as I would miss you and would be at the mercy of Taehyungs attempts of cooking...there is more out there for you Jin."

"I've always wanted to open my own restaurant...do you think..."

"Without a doubt." I said interrupting him. "Lets give it about 3 months. 3 months of you adjusting to this...make sure it is what it is and as long as things go smoothly, I will be confident enough to sign your release papers."

He shook, crying tears of happiness. "Thank you...thank you so much...I can't...I can't believe this. But it all makes sense." He said sniffling and wiping his nose with his sleeve. I passed him a tissue and he thanked me. "This is unbelieveable..."

"Just be sure that you are testing yourself Jin. When Jinnie is around try to be big...and when you are bored try to be little. But don't fight it anymore. Be yourself. We all love you for who you are."

He smiled and nodded.

"Well Jin...I think we are almost done here."

"Almost?" he asked with a concerned look.

"I want to talk about Namjoon."

He tensed at the name and I could see sadness in his eyes.

"What about Namjoon?"

"Now that I've spent a little more time in this house...I pick up on things...see things...hear things. It's the point of me actually living here. Yes we have our one on one sessions but it also gives me an opportunity to observe 24/7. I know there is something going on between you and Namjoon...you told me. I want you to tell me how you feel about him...and not a partial truth...I want the whole truth."

He nodded and cleared his throat. "When I came here Namjoon was already here...I'm pretty sure he has been here the longest out of all of us. When I was Jinnie he wouldn't get annoyed with me like the other guys. Eventually they all got used to Jinnie but..."

"Jin." I interrupted. "I need you to start referring to Jinnie as yourself. You can say "little space" or "big me" if it helps. Continue."

He nodded. "When I was...in little space...he was the only one that would hang out with me. At first. He would play games with me and talk with me. But as big me...we had great conversations...late into the night. He told me all about his studies and I told him about my sisters." He smiled big as he continued. "He really was my best friend. But he never told me about WHY he was in the house. He told me how...but never why. Eventually I asked him flat out...and he told me. He broke down and cried and said that he had 'inappropriate feelings' for another man and he needed to leave before it ruined his life. Well funny enough his alter came out after that and ruined it anyway." He scoffed and looked to me. "I knew he was gay...from the moment I met him...I knew...but he never said it out loud. He never would. I knew from an early age I was...but I never dated because my focus was my family."

He paused for a few moments looking down trying to compose himself. I heard him sniffle and wipe a tear away from his face.

"I fell in love with him." He looked up to me. "How could I tell him that? How could I tell him I, a man, loved him when that is the very thing that he ran away from to begin with?" He wiped his nose again. "But then I thought...he can't leave here. He can't just run away from his feelings, so I thought that I could help him accept himself. We would cuddle ALL THE TIME...kisses were exchanged...nothing too huge ever happened but the intimacy was there...I know he loves me too. It had been a few years and I thought it was about time to tell him blatantly. That night...when he left the house...I told him that I was in love with him. And he just wouldn't say it back." He said dropping his head back into his hands sobbing. "I yelled at him to say it back...to admit it...and he just wouldn't. That's when I threw him out of my room and be banged on my door begging me to let him back in but...I can't handle this heart break...I can't do this anymore."

My heart broke for Jin. Here he was sitting in my office crying over a man. A man who he loved dearly and all he wanted was to be loved back. I allowed Jin to continue to cry...I allowed him to let out his hurt. Once he calmed down I spoke.

"Jin, I want you to do something for me."

He nodded.

"I don't want you to give up on Namjoon. I want you to hold on to how you feel and not let go."

His eyes widdend and he looked like he was about to protest...but then he stopped. "I don't want to give up on him." He said in a low voice.

"My job is to help everyone here. And when I have my one on one session with Namjoon...I want you to come to the second half of it. I want to talk this out...I want to help him realize that his being in love with you will never be a bad thing."

Tears fell from Jin's eyes but he nodded just the same.

"I will text you when I want you to come to my office, so on Tuesday be sure be around okay?"

"I will. Thank you Doctor Quinn."

I gave him a hug and walked him to the door. I felt like flying...finally...we were getting somewhere.