Last night.... Hmmm.... Last night.....

"Urgghhhhhhhhhhh" I start screaming in canteen

"What the heck baekhyun! You scared the shit out of me" Juno says

"Baekhyun finally lost it..... huh" Hyunwoo says

"Why? Did you miss the deadline?" Juno asks

"No.... No...... I put up on time.... Just.... Uwahhhhhhhhhhhh"

"Wahhhhhhh whyyyyyyy" Juno shouts together with me

"Ouch my ears" Hyunwoo says as he covers his ears

I can't stop thinking about last nought.....
he ... you knowwwww... he literally hugged meeeee

Meeeeeeee

I mean, I was crying... shamelessly... I know...
But he hugged me..... meeeeeeee

Wait.... Or .... It is nothing new for him?
May be... he also hugs with kyungsoo Hyung often??

"Juno... Hyunwoo ya... do you like... I mean... if someone ... your guy friend is crying... will you hug them to comfort them?"

"Ewh... why would I? I will just you know.. pat their shoulder?" Juno says "that kind of skinship.... Hmmm"

"Well, it depends on a person.. if the person is very used to hugging other people a lot then, comforting his guy friend by hugging will not be a problem.. isn't it?" Hyunwoo says

Used to... huh...
That's possible.
Very possible..

"Why? Did someone hug you? Did you hug someone?" Juno asks

"Aish! Nooo... it's not me"

It's 100% meeeeeee

"Baekhyun, where were you last night? You didn't come to our group call" Hyunwoo says

"Yesss Byun baekhyun is very ignorant to us these days. Perhaps you! You got a girlfriend?" Juno says

"Ehhhhh!!! Please suspicious of something that's more possible" I say

"So have time tonight? Let's have house party in a while" Juno says

"Eh... tonight..... huh... I'm not sure"

"See!!!! Hyunwoo yaaaaa! Baekhyun secretly got a girlfriend behind our back!"

"Juno you are so dramatic. Let's go to class now" Hyunwoo says

"Yeah.. let's go" I say as we all walk out of canteen

I still can't get yesterday conversation outta my head too.

A woman who gave birth to him tried to kill him.
A man who's his father killed his mother right in front of his eyes... that old man is the real monster.

Last night I tried to search up about his father and his mother.
The article back in that time said, the actress "J" passed away with drug overdosed.
How can they... lie like that?
Just.... How....

He was 7...

7 years old.
What can 7 years old....
How could he handle that?
May be he was already.... Been wronged in his head after his mother tried to kill him.

I'm still very wronged to... say something very painful to him... that parents can .. urghhh

Uwhahhhhhhhhh

"Baekhyun ssi?" A girl calls me while we were walking to our next school building

I stopped and .... Wait.. do I know her?

"You are baekhyun ssi... right?" She says again

Nooooo.... I don't quite remember her.. please introduce yourself girl

"I'm Dan-oh. We went to the same highschool. We were in the same class" she says

"Ah... Dan-oh ssi..." I say ... actually I don't really remember her yet but... damn my memories

"You are from this university?" She asks

"Ah.. yeah... I study criminology here. You? From here too?"

"No... I'm from **** University. I came here to meet my best friend" She says

"Ah Nae..."

"Ahem ahem... Ms.Dan-oh ssi. Have a good conversation with our virgin best friend. Baekhyun ya, see you in class later! Byeeee" Juno says as he drags Hyunwoo and leave us

That fuckingggggg assholeeeeeeee

"It's has been a long time so, shall we go have coffee and talk somewhere else?" She asks

Ah.... Like... do we even have topic to say?

"Umm...I have cla......"

While I am talking.... I see a familiar back walking away ... he's a little far from us...

"Umm.. Dan-oh ssi.. please wait..a minute.." I say to her and follow that familiar back

It's him right?
It's him... right?

"Wait..." I pull his hand and stop...... he turns around and.. yesss... it's him... He's on my campus again.. did he come here to see me?

"Park Chanyeol ssi?"

"He saw me" I could hear him mumbling

"Why did you come here?"

"I'm sorry"

"No! I mean... did you come here to see me?" I just askeddddd ... did I sound very cocky???

"Yes."

"Then .... Then why didn't you come and talk to me?"

When I ask that.... He eyes advert from me to....
I look at the direction he was staring at...
He was looking at Dan-oh

"You have accompany" he says

"No... she's just...."

"See you later. I have to go to Soo now"

Soo?
Soo
Soo!!!
You came to me and why?
Just... I hate this

"Don't..."

"Pardon?"

"Don't go..."

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  Park Chanyeol's POV
This POV starts from their first meeting

My consciousness keeps telling me, this boy, I cannot touch.

Where did everything go wrong?
I shouldn't have accepted Soo's request.
I shouldn't bear unfamiliar emotions towards other peoples.

So, where did it all start?

He looks pale, fragile, short and looking so passionate about his life.
He looks so pale that, his cheeks and lips has that girlish pinkish colour.
His eyelashes are too, they are long.
That's what I see.. as soon as I open the door for him.

He looked like he is forcing and being too cautious about his words towards me. Soo had probably told him beforehand.

His fingers were perfectly structured.
Long and slender.
Pale and clean.
The joints look very well formed.
He's very pale that, I wonder what colour is his blood.
His skin must be soft and tender.
It could be easily engraved.
Does he have someone who he could live with his life?
Is he brave enough to give up his life for someone?
Is that possible with this fragile body?

He had a lot to he wants to know and he doesn't know how to elaborate it.
It's too suffocating for me.
When people try to hold back what they want to say out of their brains.
It's very .... Suffocating.

He looks very careful around me yet in his eyes, I can see him that, I'm a monster to him.

When he's nervous, he keeps tapping his right palm with his left hand fingertip.
He gets easily anxious if I say something that's not related to his questions.

His body is just perfectly formed.
May be his soul too.

That's what I thought but, I found out that I'm unconsciously ... eyeing on him.
I hold back.
I didn't contact him after our 1st interview. Because I just don't want to see him more. Since, I can't grantee my insanity.

Coincidentally, it was pure.... Coincidence.
I met him again at coffee shop.
I tried to ignore him when we met there but, he came to me.

How bold of him.
He doesn't even know who the person he's dealing with.
I'm barely holding my insanity back and, he keeps, chasing.

Second interview occured and, I found out that he is totally unaware of how people true dark minds are.
He grew up as orphan which I envied a lot of him on that point.
You could say I was disappointed in him that he claimed in the side of parents that they are good. While, he doesn't even know about what kinds I have.

I was stupid. To think he could be someone who could understand me. So I dismissed our second interview.
But he crossed the line that I drew between my sanity and him. He came into my room.
His warm breathes warm up my room. His breathing sound was so soothing. I could fall asleep.

He keeps jumping into danger. I should stop myself. That's how I told myself but.... When Soo said Byun Baekhyun was sick, I ended up following to his house.

It was too late. I found out myself that, I have found interest in him.

After that night at his house, again at the alley where I was about to go into a motel with a random prostitute.
But that lowly prostitute hurt Byun Baekhyun.

"What the heck with that man really? Was he that desperate? Trying to hook up with someone who already have a partner" that lowly prostitute says after Byun Baekhyun left with his hand bleeding.

"Let go" I say

"What?"

"Let your filthy hand go of my arm before I break it" I say

"What the fuck! Fucking moron" that lowly prostitute leaves

That night, I followed him as he walked back to his house.
He did not even notice someone was tailing him. And he studies criminology. He is just too unsuited. He's too fragile.

After that night, Soo said Byun Baekhyun will just stop all the remaining interviews.
I felt that unfamiliar emotion inside me. The anxiety.

I ended up followed him to his university and found him.
I drew that line between him and my insanity yet, I keep erasing that line by myself.

I want to keep him with me.
I need to keep him with me.
I want to keep under my eyes where I can see and where I can reach out my hands to.

So, I requested him to help me fall asleep. That wasn't a pure excuse. I believe that at least he could help me get nice sleep. Without nightmares. Without them talking to me at night.

He seems to make a difficult decision himself but, he finally came to me.

May be my hopes were not actually hopeless.
I found someone, who shed tears for me...
First time.
It was first time in my life that, someone pitied me and cried.
That it was a first time for me to hear, someone said, I suffered a lot.

I wasn't wrong.
Byun baekhyun could understand me.
No, he could understand me more.

But, all my consciousness comes back to me, after I see him with a girl earlier.
That, he may have many bad things in life and, it would be better at least, at least I stop giving me more bad things.
At least I could push him away to his good life.

He deserves something good and normal life.
My insanity will only give him miserable encounters.

That's why I left him without greeting him but, now this boy is saying

"Don't go..."

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