"I'm very... hopeless human being" I say to myself as I stand right in front of his house.

This is a suicide.
Why did he even need someone for him to fall asleep?
For god sake.

Hmm... should I ring the bell now?
Well, he didn't tell me the time to come so, I can just come by anytime I want right?

I can do that right?

Uwahhhhhhhhhhh

*Ding Dong*

Park chanyeol ssi comes and opens the door... and he looks as handsome as always.
Whenever I am with him, that's all I could think.
I sometimes.... I mean from time to time.. forget that he.... Is a serial killer

"Welcome" he says ... ah.... That voice.... May be I'm having a lot of gender envy a lot to this person.

"Park chanyeol ssi.."

"Yes?"

"Can you.... Promise that .... You won't harm me?" Fuckkkk..... I finally asked

"So, it is true that you are scared. Admit?"

Well...... *mentally sigh*    "Nae"

"I can promise."

"And.... What if I refuse? What if I refuse to help your request... for you to get nice sleep?"

"Then" he says as he gives out his hand for a handshake and "It was nice knowing you. Good luck with your thesis"

So.... If I refuse.... This will be... a goodbye...huh.
Of course, he can turn his back on me easily and go back being strangers... as if our paths never crossed.

And he's not even asking me to think again.
What if I refuse his request?
Who will he ask again?
Kyungsoo Hyung?
No doubt .... Right?

"Byun Baekhyun ssi?"

"Ah ..... I'm so hungry, what do you have for dinner?" I say and step into his house

"Will you be scared?" He asks

"Since you gave me promise, I won't be anymore"

"Dinner is salad. Because I don't usually eat a lot of meat or dishes which has a lot of flavours" he says

"Ehhh... and you are so well-built and tall??? How's that even possible?"

"So you have been envious of my body right?" He says and have that small grin on his face

Every time he flashes a smile, I always get the feel like..... he really suits on with his bright self.

" *tch* as if"

"Please feel free to order food deliveries for yourself. You won't be able to eat what I eat anyway"

"Sure... I will do from next days onwards. But please let me eat your salad for tonight"

"Okay"
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After dinner... I sit on the living room couch and starts doing my assignment

"University work?" He says as he sits down beside me

"Nae.. I have exam next week too"

"Good luck" he says as he sips on his tea

"You live like this everyday?"

"What else can I do?"

"How many years is your sentence? How many years have you finished?"

"Lifetime."

"Nae?!"

"My sentence is .... Lifetime"

"Ah...... is that....so...." I didn't know that.... I mean... I didn't expect that. "But, it is better than in prison ... right? I guess your parents do care about you"

"I feel it the other way. I wish I ended up in prison. Right now. All I can do is wait for the day, they decide to erase me"

"Erase you?"

"Imm"

"I have been ... longing to ask you... about your parents... can I ask you?"

"You can ask me"

"Your parents... were they ... bad to you? When you were young?"

"My father is one of the congressmen currently. I think he might participate in presidential elections next year. My mother was, an actress. A very beautiful actress"

"Is that so? May be you take after her"

"She was very well-known in her old days. Popular for her beauty. With the background support of my father, her fame rose. But then, she had to give birth to me, when she was in her good years. So, my father and mother decided to give birth to me in secret. No one knows that they have a baby.

So she hated me. She wanted me to disappear from her life. 
I had to live alone, in this big house, with one butler. Because both of them are very busy, which I think was just a reason. I was born unwanted and burdened in their lives. They rarely come to this house.
But when everytime they came, all I hear is how I'm a flaw in their life.

When I was 5 years old, I found out that, a woman who gave birth to me, didn't want me. That night, she came to this house, tried to kill me. On the bed I was sleeping, she started to strangle me.

I just thought I had a little different life than other kids but, that night, I figured everything."

It was painful... hearing him say that... what can 5 years old.... I mean how can.... A kid handled that?

"Is that why you..."

"After I figured my mother hated me, I thought at least... at least I could rely on my father. But I was wrong. He is one maniac among all."

"Your father?"

"Since my mother was very beautiful, a lot of upper class men are attracted to her. Which really stressed and caused a lot of anxiety to my father. Now I think about it over and over, I think my father have possessive issue.
So you know what he did to my mother?"

I guess.... I kind of starting to know...

"I was 7. That's when I have both of my parents visited to this house. Together for dinner. We had a very nice meal. I was kind of felt happiness, but that feeling didn't last long.

After dinner, in this living room, I was asked to sit in the middle of the room with a chair. In this couch we are sitting, my father chocked my mother until she couldn't catch her last breathe.

After my mother stopped struggling, my father said this to me 'Now, your mother will always be with me only. She will only love me and her beauties will only be seen by me. No she can be only loved by me now. She's all mine. Forever' That's what he said to me.

He removed all clothes that my mother was wearing and said to me 'This is the perfect form of human body. How could I share with others? Right son?'.

What's more surprising was, I wasn't crying or shaking, or I wasn't scared or sad. I just sit there and stare at her body that my father said is perfect. Skin, her skull, her bone structures, her fingers and toes and hair"

"I.....ah....."

I was lost in my words... who to blame now?
Both of his parents.... Yes....
He suffered a lot.... When was so young.... So....young.

Then I remembered when he said 'You must had a nice childhood then. Better have none than have bad ones.'

That hits me hard. And his father.... Is that person a total psychopath??? How..... how did they cover up that his wife Murder? And that person is going to be in presidential election???

"What's more sad to my father is, her soul never belonged to him. But she's with me since then. Her soul. Even now, I can see her standing across me. She's still beautiful." Park chanyeol ssi says as he stares at a blank space.

I wasn't ...scared.... Rather sad... very.... Sad

"Don't worry there are no ghost in my house. It's just, ghosts in my head" he says "Are you crying?"

"*sniff* I'm s...sorry..... I ama really ... sorry *sob* for crying"

"Haha.. you really are the adorable one" he says as he touches my cheek as he wipes away my tear "who cry for a mere serial killer?"

He's...so handsome.....
if I'm a girl, I would fall for him already.

"I.... *sniff* it's.... You must suffered... a lot too... you were young..... and .... I'm really sorry... for saying that.. parents might... love their children with their lives.... I'm sorry...wahhhhhhh" I can't help but cry out loud ....

"Should I comfort like this?" He says as he pulls me into his arms .......

Wahhhhhhhhhhhhh
This is..... so closeeeewwe

I mean... I'm literally in his armssssss
Uwahhhhhhhhhh

"Now, you stop crying" his lowkey voice says

He's.... Warm and smell nice.
He really deserved better.. a lot of happiness.... A lot of care and warm.
I'm so helpless for him... I can't do anything for him..
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