i'm sick.
i'm home sick because i miss you.
i built four solid walls from the little love you gave me.
i made a shelter into a home, something i was used to.
i decorated you with purple marks and furnished you with unconditional love.

i'm lovesick because you left me.
i begged you to stay, put more purple marks on you, kissed you with gentle blankets of compassion. i really wanted you to stay here.

homesick, my little home i built from you fell down, fell in on itself, leaving nothing behind but the pain of a broken home and heart. lovesick though, i vomited up all the words i never spoke to you as you were leaving.

but you left anyways. you always did.