Hey....It's me. Moonpie.

Some of you may be wondering something.

"Huh? No art! That's dumb!"

Or

"Oh boy, another sad rant!"

No.

That's behind me, probably for the rest of my life.
No guarantees though.

Anyway.

This is about a double toxic relationship I had with a name your all familiar with.
But I won't say their name because they'll get all pissy pussy with me and I don't want anything to do with them.

So we'll call them Mellow.

Me and Mellow had been friends for about 7 years.

But then things went sour. Actually, it was sour the whole time.

Mellow would make me extremely jealous because their art was better than mine

And I couldn't rant to anyone because all my friends were friends of hers and they would report back to her what I've been saying

They always made me feel insecure about myself, always saying to me shame on you! if I didn't do what they liked. Always glaring at me and other stuff.

They also stole from me sometimes. Never thought about it however. It was small things like candy and artwork.

They also patted my head roughly when I did something they disliked.

I had to watch what I would say and do so I wouldn't be ashamed upon.

They also didn't allow me to befriend their friends. Which was a big red sign.

I also had to not dislike things they loved, or else I'll be lectured.

They only spoke to me mostly on text messages. Most of our fights were on text messages.

But

This is what I've done.

Because I had felt so insecure due to them I felt like they were the only one for me. My only friend.

I started fights with their friends and then, due to their friends retelling them.

I would make them cry and I would feel good about it.

I threatened their life when they wanted to leave me.

They wanted me in jail and back in Lakeside because they said I was crazy.

Now.......i know one of you guys will retell this to them.
I don't care.
I had to tell my story.
Of our double sided toxic relationship
But yeah, seven years of that shit.

It.....does a lot to you.
I'm so insecure about myself. I'm so scared of people I usually apologize for Both if and is scared to talk up.

Sorry